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Ages 40 and up / Here goes everything...
« on: August 18, 2015, 05:13:29 PM »
Hi All,

First a bit of background... I am 51 years old and have been married to a wonderful woman for 30+ years.

Looking back I would have to say I have had some level of addiction to porn since I first laid eyes on a magazine at around 11 years of age.  Over the course of the last 40 years it has always been a part of my life to varying degrees.  As technology advanced, so did my addiction as it became easier and easier to feed.  The frequency of PMO increased most notably over the past 5 years to the point of either multiple sessions per day or an hour long session of edging daily for about the last year.  About 4 years ago I started to experience ED issues for the first time in my life.  I blamed it on high blood pressure or being overweight.  I talked to my doctor, tried Viagra, which basically did nothing but provide terrible side effects.  The ED progressively got worse and worse to the point where I was unable to maintain any level of erection during intercourse or to achieve O from intercourse over the past 6 months.

I started researching ED in earnest and came across the Reddit NoFap board and ultimately found YBOP and this forum as a result and I am so glad I did.  I started to read more and more information about the addiction and really began to understand what was actually happening to me.  I found over the past year that I required more extreme P to MO.  I started to question orientation as it had progressed to transsexual interest and beyond.  Until I started digging into the info on YBOP and this forum I did not realize how desensitized I had become.  I finally came to the realization that I had to push PMO out of my life or risk losing everything, my wife, my sanity, my life.

Anyway, I am super glad to have found all of this information and this forum.  I started my journey 11 days ago and in this short time have already begun to notice some positive changes.  At day 8 of no PMO I had sex with my wife and was able to O from VP alone for the first time in about six months!  I was able to maintain about 50% erection during as well.  Still a long way to go, but the new journey has begun and I can only look up from here.

I initially set my goal at no P or P sub and no MO for 30 days.  Once I have achieved this I will increase my goal going forward.  There is no place for P in my life!

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