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Ages 20-29 / Back on track
« on: October 13, 2015, 11:21:49 AM »
Hello rebooters out there,

my name is Bernie, some of you might know me, I was posting here like 4 moths ago when I first startet rebooting after 10 years of porn addiction. Well, as you probably can imagine, it didn't last very long, 40 days roughly until I got back to masturbating, and about 60 days until I got back to hardcore femdom and findom porn. I was very disappointed of myself but I also didn't really care about it. Since then I masturbated once a day, keeping my level, keeping my brain satisfacted. I stopped studying after 2 semesters because I couldn't concentrate on learning. Now I am looking for a workplace, and it's very hard to keep up motivation to apply for jobs. I am feeling like I am nearly dead, no motivation, no drive, no light, no colour...
Call it like you want, I think it's very depressing. I don't think that it's the situation of having no work what is keeping me sad and unmotivated, I really think it's porn.

Yesterday I've put the day counter on my phone to zero. Let's see what happens this time, I think that I'm more experienced now and maybe I can achieve my goal of a porn-free life. I am thinking of getting professional help since it's possible here in Austria to charge health insurance for psychological help.

Stay tuned, and keep up the wonderful work you do here.

Bernie aka firstofall

Porn Addiction / Shame
« on: July 18, 2015, 02:23:39 PM »
Hey all you rebooters,

since I am thinking of not going out today (yesterday I was partying very hard), I will make a movie night. No, not what you might think, I will not do PMO  :D but I have a movie recommendation for you. The movie is called "Shame", I don't know if you guys already know it. It's about a man being addicted to sex (masturbation and paid sex or hookers)

It is very good and worth watching. Don't let it be you acting like the man in the movie.

Stay strong all of you!


Ages 20-29 / Another self-made victim
« on: July 14, 2015, 06:29:42 AM »
Hi guys,

my name is Bernhard (22 yo), i live in Austria and have porn-related ED since I was 16 years old. I am now 22 years old, have made my way through
normal porn to hardcore porn and ended watching cocks getting trampled bloody by high heels of mistresses. I also gave a lot of money to
"Financial Mistresses" (so-called findom, financial domination) to intensify my feelings. It's a vicious cycle I want to break now.

My life was steered by this addiction and I knew this when financial domination became ineresting for me, but I couldn't quit. Now i am 22 years old
and lost three girlfriends, thousands of dollars and the ability of normal sex to this evil thing called porn. I am desperate and want to cure myself.
I didn't know that ED can also come from watching too much porn, I thought it would be the fear of not pleasing the woman when having sex or the
fear of the condom or the fear of getting soft again when it has to be hard!
I was seeking help in a community called menshelp, I wanted to have sex with generics like Cialis to bring back the natural feeling of having sex,
taking away my anxiety of having sex and anxiety of being together with women. They told me that my addiction to porn might be the reason for
my ED.

As you can see I have already made a counter bar like nearly all of you. I want to do this TO GET BACK LIFE QUALITY!!!!
I don't want to feel blurred and useless and absolutely spiritless anymore!!! I want to be creative, active, confident and sexy!!!


Thank you for doing all this here, I feel understood.


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