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Porn Addiction / The urge to M
« on: November 23, 2014, 11:28:37 AM »
I wanted to post this in my journal as a part of "Day 55", but I don't think this can wait.

Over the last week or so, I've felt huge urges to M/have sex. However, I don't want to do this to porn. I want to fantasise about past real life experiences or have fantasies about real girls that don't involve any porn scenes or even twist scenes where I could have got laid but didn't take the opportunity into fantasy that didn't involve anything porn related. In the mornings, I would spend a while thinking about such events, or whenever I'm in bed really, and get hard for a while, maybe an hour sometimes. I'm assuming that this is quite a normal feeling at this stage, but is it bad for my reboot?

When I see girls I'm attracted to, I check them out, particularly their rear ends and I feel a drive to chase after them. Even when my ex dumped me 2 months ago, I didn't exactly binge on porn like I thought I would. I mostly M'd over having sex with her/previous exs/what I described above.

I don't know what to think/do, does anyone have any suggestions?

Porn Addiction / Reboot Nation Music Playlist
« on: November 15, 2014, 05:01:56 PM »
Hey fellow rebooters!

One thing that I noticed on many of your journals is that everyone seems to go through periods of where they just sit there and feel really down and depressed about their situation (myself included); where they just don't really think about anything and go numb. My big idea to combat this is to create a sort of "go to" playlist of music for these situations, incorporating music that either lifts the mood or provides some sort of "understanding" of the situation. It is working for me and provides a great source of comfort when called upon.

What I would like from everyone that is interested is to recommend one uplifting and one emotional song (there are so many of us here so just one of each please!) so that we can create a "Reboot Nation Music Playlist" for whenever anyone is down. It can be any song, any genre, from anywhere in the world, as long as there are no sexual triggers. I'd also suggest that we avoid mainstream music, but if you feel it helps, then by all means go for it. Please post links from YouTube only (no music videos) with as clear quality as possible!

I will update this list whenever I can:

                                                                                Reboot Nation Music Playlist

Username                                         Uplifting Song                                         Emotional Song

Yelashade                                           Bombay Bicycle Club - Feel                        Tech N9ne - Withdrawal (feat. Krizz Kaliko)
Forward                                              Wiley - Pick Yourself Up                              Kendrick Lamar - Swimming Pools (Drank)
MyStruggle                                         The Roots - Rising Up                                Lil Wayne - Mirror (feat. Bruno Mars)
datkid93                                             Eminem - Lose Yourself                              Guns 'n' Roses - Patience
LS90                                                  August Burns Red - Cutting The Ties          Radiohead - High And Dry
Shameonus                                        James - Ring The Bells                               Craig David - Rise & Fall (feat. Sting)

Try not to binge on the music; try to only use it for when you know you're having one of those awful periods where you feel like nothing you do will alleviate your situation. I hope you guys find this useful and it gets you through the many difficulties that lie ahead in the reboot/rewiring process. Good luck! :)

Porn Addiction / Why can other people watch porn and be fine but not me?
« on: November 11, 2014, 01:26:58 PM »
This thread is purely for debating purposes only, PLEASE DO NOT RELAPSE AND RUIN YOUR PROGRESS AS A RESULT! P has an adverse effect on your brain, we all know this so don't ever feel any doubts even for a second.

It seems like loads of people can watch porn and perform absolutely fine in the bedroom, but I can't. I know I would watch it as an addict, but I would like to think I could enjoy it once in a while, just like most other people. Maybe I'm misunderstanding, but I feel like it's unfair in some respects. Any thoughts?

Ages 20-29 / 100 Day Journal II: The Revamp
« on: November 01, 2014, 06:59:33 PM »
Hey guys,

Unfortunately, I broke my 200+day streak and PMO'd, so I'm just going to start again and try to beat that record and surpass it once and for all. No more P, no nothing. I'm doing 100 Days of no PMO and we'll see what happens after then.


I've successfully completed my 100 days of no PMO and I'm transitioning to regular MO every day. I'm now feeling more positive and better in myself and I'm just on here every now and then to post my post journal progress. Compared to how I was before? I feel heaps better and now I'm definitely well distracted. Just focused on doing me and moving forward!

Pretty new to the forum and I've seen quite a few posts with people writing down their journals to keep track of their progress so here it goes haha. My situation is this - I'm someone who is:
  • A graduate
  • Broke
  • Unemployed
  • Not really going anywhere in life
  • Dumped by my gf in September (so she can sow her wild oats in another country for a year)
  • Unfit
I have also been addicted to porn since I was like 13/14. I guess the mistake (that everyone makes) is that I didn't think it was a problem. A (usually) single guy that isn't getting laid reverts to porn to meet his sexual gratification. I got with my first gf when I was 15 and I didn't experience any erectile issues at all with her. While my porn started off as "innocent", so to speak, when I went to uni (aged 19), my porn preferences were heading into a more extreme direction. When I got with my 2nd gf, I noticed performance issues but I never thought that came from porn. Even after her with my current ex, I had problems maintaining my erection and I still didn't think that porn was the issue.

Only after recently seeing an article about the effects of porn on the brain on Facebook did I finally realise that I've been harming my brain by watching such extreme and unreal fantasies. So I've decided to give up on PMO completely for 100 days and, purely by chance (I promise haha), Day 100 on my counter is my birthday! To celebrate that, I  would love to go out and get laid but I think a well earned imagination wank wouldn't be too bad/a good start haha.

Anyway, I'm going to start this journal properly on Day 35 and post every 5 days to show you guys my progress! I'll write my first month experiences and let you know about my progress so far as well.

Update: When I was in a relationship with my first ex, I didn't watch P for months at a time because she always kept me satisfied and pretty much did it when I wanted. In the month that preceded my current ex breaking up with me, I didn't watch P as much. It was mainly fantasy M over past experiences, I don't think there was much influence from P. I was just a wreck and missed my ex so much. I wonder if that has a positive impact on my reboot or not.

I know many of you will probably think "oh, this is just another journal that I can skim over quickly" and that's absolutely fine. But if this journal does anyone any good at all, please post on here and let me know!

Good luck to all of you and I hope that you guys achieve that better life without P you all desire.

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