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Hello everyone,

As I had a date with a girl which turned slightly sexual I've been noticing something.
Since I stopped watching porn and all that, I noticed I got blue balled very quickly.
When I was with her in the beginning I had quite a lot of erections but as the day passed I got slightly blue balled too and I feel like this is also something that causes my ED.

Did anyone experience the same before or still?

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Porn Addiction / Tip: Gain more confidence with body language! [SFW]
« on: December 16, 2014, 09:16:23 AM »
Hello everyone,

Today I would like to share with you this video about body language. I have pasted it below.
What I really liked about this video what we can use with our battle on porn and gaining more confident that we can do this with a small change!
Ever feel like you're not going to make the reboot? Apply this!
Feeling stressed about anything else ex. school, work, an important interview? Apply this!

There's much more, just give it a watch :)

http://www.ted.com/talks/amy_cuddy_your_body_language_shapes_who_you_are#t-1233023

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Porn Addiction / Depressed, is it the reboot?
« on: November 21, 2014, 01:26:44 PM »
Hello everyone,

As I'm pretty far in my reboot I've started to notice I've started feeling awfully depressed to the point where I'd rather stay in bed the entire day, my motivation is also just under the ground because I don't feel like doing anything. Hell I haven't even cleaned my room in 2 weeks from now. It's a total mess.
Just not feeling like myself, I've lost track of time and just feel confused a lot like the brain fog is hitting me very hard.

Also, it's not like I have a flatline but I don't have any urges either, the only productive thing I do is going to the gym once (or twice) a week.
Is this more common to be so depressed and have a heavy brain fog without the flatline during your reboot?
Because I feel slightly confused when I see everyone exploding out of sudden motivation etc etc after a while while I'm just not improving that much.

Thank you for reading this topic, I'd love to get some replies.

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Porn Addiction / Can smoking slow down the reboot?
« on: October 28, 2014, 06:09:19 PM »
I've wondered because I've been fighting my addiction with another addiction I'm wishing to quit to but can be harsh too sometimes.

So I know smoking and all is bad in general but does it actually influence my reboot?

I'm really curious so if anyone knows please do share!

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Porn Addiction / Question
« on: October 13, 2014, 12:17:14 PM »
Hello everyone,

I have a small question.
There is this Dutch site where I'm on a lot, it contains funny videos and pictures...
The problem is, there are also a lot of videos and images of beautiful woman, I would say (to avoid triggers) they are close to NSFW.
Does viewing these images (or even the thumbnails) cause relapse?
I haven't clicked on them specifically but I see the thumbnails passing by.

Thanks for your time!

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Porn Addiction / Porn addiction messing up love chemistry?
« on: October 12, 2014, 06:20:15 AM »
Hello everyone,

What I've been personally battling with is that since years after my porn addiction I stopped feeling that warm feeling inside your chest when you love someone,
or get as little as a hug from someone. Even a single kiss or holding hands was enough to get me aroused 
Sadly this went away, so I'm wondering is this more common?

Thanks for your reading,

peace!

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Teens / Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: October 11, 2014, 08:42:29 AM »
Hello everyone :)

First off I would like to thank you for taking the time to read this journal.

When I was young I had been diagnosed with ADD and anxiety disorder which always has been a challenge for me.
When I was on elementary school, teachers just said I couldn't do anything. None of them had hope in me and being an introvert made it only worse.

My first time watching was when I was in elementary school. It first began as an innocent yet exciting thing to watch after school.
At that time I was 11, I never saw a bad thing in it, not even aware it could become such an addiction.

The thing is, when I had my first relationship, around the age of 15. I had those mad butterflies, that warm feeling rushing through my body by just holding hands or receiving a hug.
After the relation went dead after ±5 months, I became desperate, I missed someone to hold and to love.
I began watching porn more frequently again and I began to feel less emotional. But as long as I had my games and porn, it was going alright.
Of course, I still felt lonely, but I'm really the kind of guy who prefers to chat with girls, not for perverted reasons but because I always thought I could have better chats with them.

To my luck, I found another girl online after months, she was really sweet and beautiful.
After we had met an insecurity in me began to grow. I was totally attracted to her, yet that warm fuzzy feeling never came up.

Everything that I did with her sexually always turned me on, but on a quick notice, it all went away quickly too.
I always tried to do something new to keep myself in the mood, yet that didn't always work out and I felt ashamed.
That girl, I loved so much, was all I wanted, yet I felt something was blocking my true feelings.

After that relation had fallen apart, I used to date again. Yet every girl I met had failed to give me a warm feeling or any sign of arousal.
Even when I had another relation, she failed to always get me turned on, I always blamed it on my insecurity or anxiety disorder for being nervous.

After that, I realized something had to be wrong, I began googling on and on until I stumbled across an article about ED. I began to read it and arrived at yourbainonporn.
When I had read a lot of information, watched videos and read some blogs. It began to become clear to me, I was addicted to porn and it was making my brain numb.

Sometimes I just quit for a week, but I couldn't stand the urge under stress to watch some anyway, or something had really turned me on.
The thing was, once I had masturbated, a second time came, a third time came and I found myself even after 1 day to be addicted again.
I gave up, I thought it probably wasn't the porn after all.
As I continued, everything pretty much staid the same, but as I began growing more confident I thought these issues would go away.
They did not. After months, I came back to yourbrainonporn, I read a blog, that completely inspired me and I could find myself in it.

Since that moment, I've stopped watching porn and stopped masturbating.
This was on the first of October.

Now I'm on my 11th day of no-fap and not watching porn.

Sometimes it can be pretty difficult, just wanting to relieve some stress, but I know I'm working towards a better future.
In general, I haven't noticed a lot of big difference, but I don't think that's weird as I just have started.

Peace!


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