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Made it through the weekend without any P or M - I drank a bit on Saturday and was worried that in a stupor I would cave to cravings.  Observing past behavior I tend to see reoccurring patterns, especially when it comes to P & feel weak while drinking - however I'm weak when it comes to drinking as well  :P 

The start of a new journey of quitting stinks being at the start, I had gotten about 90 days before, then noticed I had no dysfunction -however after binging on porn on random intervals each time increasing in intensity I found myself having problems again - not so much with the erectile dysfunction but with not being able to hit an O while having sex.  - I also felt my mind hazy and not as sharp as when I had quit P.

So back to square one.  This thread will be comments on my progress and daily struggles.  Ironically porn was a bit of a de-stressor for me and now it is causing stress.   So *sigh.. time to start over.

Porn Addiction / Becoming Grumpy
« on: October 23, 2015, 12:39:43 PM »
So I have an amazing GF whom puts up with a great deal.  My porn problem has been ongoing for far too long, and I once suffered from not being able to get an erection, after quitting porn off & on I can now get an erection but occasionally have a hard time getting to the O. - which is humiliating.

Regardless, I still struggle and it is an addiction to Porn .. so now I'm back after a long time away to try to kick this again.

What I have noticed though and I hope others can elaborate on is that after viewing porn I feel in hindsight I am frankly not very nice to my GF - Like I'm not a jerk but I am not my usual friendly self - I feel my actual behavior and attitude changes & it is like that for a few hours or the entire evening. 

Success Stories / Success
« on: September 22, 2014, 11:42:00 AM »
So, I have been able to sleep with my gf WITH a condom two times over the past two weeks having no ED. - I've had really bad ED for years now & of course watched porn for years.

For the curious gent wondering the timeline it took for me to be 'cured', I'd say prob about 5 months, however I did cave on the PMO at the end of the first month, and at the end of the second month went on a three day 'binge' so I'm well aware that set me back because I went though a flatline about 4 times I felt like.

regardless - Finally better, confidence is higher, sex is much more 'clear', my gf satisfies me doing nothing but what I used to think of was 'boring' sex.  No weird thoughts in my head, I'm 'present' when the intercourse takes place, and it feels much more passionate.

I visited doctors for this problem, couldn't get fixed, and tried diet, quit drinking, exercised - still the ED was there.  Upon quitting Porn - I'm cured.

For the record I'm 24 years old - so don't do those scripts the DR's write for us, it is putting a bandaid on a serious problem treating only the symptom.  Be patient and your love life will take off.

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / Loss of Libido
« on: September 17, 2014, 03:05:53 PM »
Sooo - I feel like I had flatlined hard this summer.

Like super hard - no desire for sex.

Did the hard reset - for awhile, some hiccups but overalll good.  Libido came back crazy strong and had sex for the 1st time again WITH A condom and successfully came.

My concern is I feel like I am going into a flatline again of NO libido.  :(  I'd say its starting to feel dead limby again, and I'm not getting random erections again, and I have not been PMO'ing.

ugh. is this normal?

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / Progress?
« on: September 09, 2014, 12:40:36 PM »
So I want to report two 'progress'-like things that have occurred over the past three days and please tell me if this means I am close to being 'cured'.

Woke up with MW -110% the other day and went the bathroom, took a cold shower - of course by now the MW is gone.  Get back in bed to just think for a second and immediately start fantasizing about my GF - and despite having just had a cold shower - I got an 80-85% erection and did not touch myself at all - first time I have had one brought on totally mentally in years.  -I did not masturbate but I did have a tremendous urge to.

This morning, I did not wake up with MW - first time in a while, however I did have a few drinks last night which ruin REM sleep, hurting MW odds... anywho - Go to a meeting this morning with this guy and he is talking and then all of a sudden - random erection - 80-85% with NO Fantasy thoughts.  I have not had a random erection in years.

Then about two hours ago I was driving to visit a client, and listening to some EDM thinking about work - once again not fantasizing. and BAM - another erection hands free and this one was prob 60-65% - but still def an erection and I suddenly felt a high libido for the first time in a while.

Major progress?  Does this mean the end is close?  I would love to sleep with my GF finally.

Ages 20-29 / Cold Showers
« on: August 28, 2014, 01:35:52 PM »
I watched the TedTalk on cold showers- does this apply to us nofabs? And how much of a difference will taking cold showers actually make?

I'm like 2-3 months into this reboot and have had some blunders but am a few weeks P free and 15 or 16 days MO free - will this greatly expedite the process?  I'd like to get rebooted asap!

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / Borgore
« on: August 27, 2014, 07:57:40 AM »
Hey guys,

Does music like Borgore, dance music delving into a great deal of sex talks & even sounds - like mellefresh - is this harmful to the reboot? Should I avoid this as well?

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / Strip Clubs
« on: August 22, 2014, 08:13:32 AM »
I was wondering if Strip Clubs would be unhealthy for the reprogramming? A friend had her 25th birthday at a club, and after two of my other friends wanted to hit up a strib club and I went - I could not get an erection  :-\ but regardless I was wondering if this was harmful.

Mortifying - A constant State of Disappointment
I cannot believe I am finding myself a member of a forum concerning ED – being age 24.
I did not realize porn was the culprit of my ED for years, rather I thought it was a host of other issues. 
My problem isn’t even so much as the ED – as it is the embarrassment of being hit with the ED. A week ago, I had one of the beautiful ladies I date – ready to go.

Needless, to say I was not – this has now occurred 4 times with 4 different people over the past 6 months. – and it has occurred many more times in the past.
This weekend a girl, a former runway model – is having a birthday party at a famous club in my city.  We have been somewhat close over the past 6 months, and have talked about sex.
I fear she is expecting it – and the performance of a lifetime from me – I have acquired a six pack and look good, and can constantly date multiple people no problem.  The problem is once things get into the bedroom, it doesn’t happen, disappointment looms – often they initially think it is them, and I inform them it is me, but it is the last we see each other because I can’t face them after the initial embarrassment or they just want to have fun.
Likewise, another girl that I am dating came over Saturday, and we were watching a movie in my bed, and she brought up the fact we had not had sex yet about 100x.  I told her we would talk about it later, but many text blasting me, asking why I don’t find her sexually attractive, why can’t I just ‘put out’ for her, why am I playing so hard to get. – it is just soul crushing because I also want to engage in sex – I simply can’t.

Stumbled on this website about 4 months ago – was dating another former runway model, absolutely gorgeous and she came over – of course ED hit.  She was furious and confused – we still are friends but it is much different now.

I went to a doctor – had some test done – healthy, good T-levels – ugh.
Stumbled on this website- made it 2 months FAB free.
Made it another month.
Relapsed with the dreaded porn. – three days in a row.
Made it about another month – relapsed with porn.
I am now 5 days in, but so disappointed by how slow this process is and how much quicker I need things to pick up.  I mean this is insane. I want this to come and go – I’m 24 and meeting the most gorgeous women imaginable and even that makes no difference.
Started taking tribulous – no help yet.

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