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Hello I'm a 20 years old rebooter from PIED and am on hardmode for 12 days. Basically i don't P M or O and strictly shut down sexual thoughts or fantasies. I want to sexually rest for a certain amount of time to start my reboot then i can rewire. Please, if you respond do it with the less triggers possibles.

The problem is that i live in a boarding school where the sound isolation is EXTREMELY bad as i can hear my neighboors speaking.

So, everyday i hear my neighboor with his girlfriend doing their things. I try to listen to music or speak to my friends but even it is very painful as i suffered before from soft voyeurism. I cannot warn my neighboor because he is trying to make it quietly and he don't do it very late in the evening.

My question is : Does it produce dopamine in my brain and slow down the recovery process ? I fear what i do is useless if i have triggers like this keeping the brain pathways alive even if i don't M to it or try to listen.

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Porn Addiction / HELP PLEASE neighboors doing their "things"
« on: January 11, 2019, 05:38:46 PM »
Hello I'm a 20 years old rebooter from PIED and am on hardmode for 12 days. Basically i don't P M or O and strictly shut down sexual thoughts or fantasies. I want to sexually rest for a certain amount of time to start my reboot then i can rewire. Please, if you respond do it with the less triggers possibles.

The problem is that i live in a boarding school where the sound isolation is EXTREMELY bad as i can hear my neighboors speaking.

So, everyday i hear my neighboor with his girlfriend doing their things. I try to listen to music or speak to my friends but even it is very painful as i suffered before from soft voyeurism. I cannot warn my neighboor because he is trying to make it quietly and he don't do it very late in the evening.

My question is : Does it produce dopamine in my brain and slow down the recovery process ? I fear what i do is useless if i have triggers like this keeping the brain pathways alive even if i don't M to it or try to listen.

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This is absolute BS. My subconscious is so used to fapping that I'll start jacking off in the middle of the night and I only realize it right before or during O. Even if I realize what I'm doing and stop before O, the M is so bad that it's basically a relapse anyway.
Some people say this doesn't count as a relapse, but it has all the negative effects of relapse, so it's GOT TO STOP. Seriously, I don't even fap consciously anymore. I would be 30-40 days clean if not for sleep fapping.
I made a thread about this problem a month or 2 ago, and some users were questioning whether the MO was really "subconcious" or "unintentional." IT IS. I spent the last couple dozen minutes searching "sleep fapping" and reading threads on it. It's a real thing, guys.
I'm awake right now at 1:30 AM because I woke up and started fapping unintentionally like a drugged-up f*** about an hour ago. I had removed my cup/underwear/bedsheets and started M with no conscious awareness of it. By the time I started to realize what I was doing- which is NOTHING compared to being awake in daytime and actually being able to think- I was too far gone, grabbed my phone and PMO' d without even the slightest feeling of guilt or resistance. The thing is, I went to sleep tonight actually thinking that "I'm so glad to be doing NoFap" and literally praying that this sleep-fapping wouldn't happen ever again- and believing that it wouldn't. AND IT HAPPENED TONIGHT. WTF!!!
Sorry if this is excessively ranty and unproductive. I'm just so incredibly frustrated right now I can't even describe it. I've never felt so hopeless or like giving up so much. After waking up "more" and realizing what I did, I started pounding the ground, hitting myself in the 'nads, and yelling "NO!!!!" over and over. I feel absolutely mind-controlled by my PMO-addicted subconscious and am desperate for anything that can make this stop.

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I tested 2-3 times since 2 weeks i reboot for a mounth i can have full erection in a few seconds with ony slight touch :)

I can also have mild erection by fantasizing (i do not recommand this behaviour but i observed my sensitivity)

Rock hard erections every mornin

Even if i didnt try with a girl am i CURED ? Even gabe deem and noah chruch were not able to mastirbate to touch before being capablr of having sex

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Im 19 and suffer from ED.
-I do not have many sexual experiences
I kissed my first two girls in october and had a boner (a least a semi sometimes more).

-The same mounth i tried to loose my virginity with a girl which is a bi*** and i regret to have tried to have sex with her. She said she didnt want a virgin but a real man to fuck her and she was very rude. I already fear the first time but if im not confortable it is worse. And guess wjhat of course ? When i was at her flat we tried it but i had zero erections or arousal. Then she put me out of her flat while laughing.

After this i was shocked. I was even not capable of achieving an erection to P after this it was limp for a few weeks. I thought about this every minutes.

I then search on the internet what was going on down there and discovered nofap.

But something strange is happening. Before this when i stoped M for like 2-3 days i had massive libido and sex drive.
Now I began a new streak and i dont feel anything since october. However i wont PMO anymore because i t has surely bad effects

Could this shocking event destroyed my brain to the point i cannot achieve an erection even alone ? Have anyone experience this kind of experience ?

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Porn Addiction / HELP Huge gay thoughts since yesterday
« on: April 04, 2018, 03:08:35 PM »
Im 19 suffering of PIED (i failed my first time with a girl) been on a 90 hardcore mode streak
5 days ago i had huge urges but i was happy because just thinking of a girl i could get a boner and k had my first wet dream due to i suppose extreme sexual tension. My streak was going pretty well and i had hope to be cured soon.
However this yesterday night i woke up having gay thoughts and having boners and when i slept after i had a wet dream about gay scenarios. This night i coulnd't sleep and i struggled to fight these fantasizes (based on porn) all night i had a huge bonner. I even put a finger in my ass (i didn't M though) so you can imagine in what situations i was in these urges i thought i was going mad... I had an impression another bad ME was taking possession of my mind, intern "voices" that convinced me i'm gay and ED is not serious when you're gay.

Is this normal ?
I always have been attracted and masturbated to women even my first "sexual" contacts were with my male friends at 10 when we compared our dicks but i assume it is normal for child boys.
I also masturbated once thinking of guy at 16 but i tested it because it was a new thing to explore.

Also i Thought by abstaining from PMO i would not have these thoughts
However it is the nofap streak that provokes these gay urges 90 days now that i didn't have before in my life
A guy said me that it was because my brain tried to give me another fix of dopamine with gay thoughts because now i abstain easily from the straight one. Plus, my thoughts are based on the dick thing and i'm not attracted to guy's body.

The problem is that i had not such thoughts before this day.
I used to watch cuckold porn or big penis porn for 2 years so maybe there s a link because i explored more and more hardcore porn.

I thought i was almost cured last week when i could be hard only thinking about real girls. And then bam one night i have these gay porn thoughts although and had rock hard dick like a subconscious thing happened in my sleep and since i am paranoid about being gay.

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Im 19 suffering of PIED (i failed my first time with a girl) been on a 90 hardcore mode streak
5 days ago i had huge urges but i was happy because just thinking of a girl i could get a boner and k had my first wet dream due to i suppose extreme sexual tension. My streak was going pretty well and i had hope to becured soon.
However this yesterday night i woke up having gay thoughts and having boners and when i slept after i had a wet dream about gay scenarios. This night i coulnd't sleep and i struggled to fight these fantasizes (based on porn) all night i had a huge bonner. I even put a finger in my ass (i didn't M though) so you can imagine in what situations i was in these urges i thought i was going mad...

Is this normal ?
I always have been attracted and masturbated to women even my first "sexual" contacts were with my male friends at 10 when we compared our dicks but i assume it is normal for child boys.
I also masturbated once thinking of guy at 16 but i tested it because it was a new thing to explore.

Also i Thought by abstaining from PMO i would not have these thoughts
However it is the nofap streak that provokes these gay urges 90 days now that i didn't have before in my life
A guy said me that it was because my brain tried to give me another fix of dopamine with gay thoughts because now i abstain easily from the straight one. Plus, my thoughts are based on the dick thing and i'm not attracted to guy's body.

The problem is that i had not such thoughts before this day.
I used to watch cuckold porn or big penis porn for 2 years so maybe there s a link because i explored more and more hardcore porn.

I thought i was almost cured last week when i could be hard only thinking about real girls. And then bam one night i have these gay porn thoughts although and had rock hard dick like a subconscious thing happened in my sleep and since i am paranoid about being gay.

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I don't have porn fantasizes but the morning after waking up i can fantasize about girls i know softly for many minutes (i think about kissing while naked, hugging)
Can it slow down the reboot process if i dont MO and even if it is not porn related ?

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I'm 19 suffering of severe PIED and im on a hardmode streak since 73 days (although i M to touch once i didn't reset the counter)
I'm currently living in a bording school in my university.

Here's my problem ?

Yesterday one more time i heard people making love in the toilets of my corridor (every week theres a PUB event in my bording school and these people go to the toilet in my corridor) . Soon after i got u huge dopamine hit pretty much the same as when im stressed. I didn't fantasize on it but i felt a dopamine surge. The problem is that the sonor insulation is very weak iand i could even heard them in my room.

I then took a cold shower when they lied but still experience this for ONE FUCKING HOUR !!!!
Does this set back my progresses ? Its like the dopamine surge is far more stronger than the one i expercienced when i relapsed. One person said it was because of HUGE jealousy and i think he's right. But does this strong my porn neural pathways even if i didn't fantasize at ALL during this, fighting against the stress  ?

The problem is that im likely to experience this every week because i know its crazy but i think it is not always the same person doing it (don't tell me how i know this) !!!!
I fear my streak For my PIED has 0 efficiency if i experience this.

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19 years old suffering of PIED.
Im on a 64 days streak and tested my erections yesterday only to touch no fanatsizes or porn.
I made sure not to edging in fact in 6 seconds i got a solid bonner then i stopped

Does it mean im cured according to gary wilson PIED test ?

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I'm 19 and I have PIED problems although i didn't see porn that much in comparison with many guys on this forum (maximum 1 a day and 5 minutes). I was not addcited to P and during my M sessions i even prefered to M to my own fantasizes and girls i know.

However I Mo ed since the age of 10 3 times a day. A day when i was punished to stay at home in my bedroom i mo'd 11 times (i know it's crazy but i had NOTHING to do).
My MO did'nt last more than 5 minutes and i didn't edge. Yet i didn't watch porn i imagined during my fapping sessions hardcore sex about real girls i know such as classmates.

Do you think "Fantasizes"-induced-erectyle dysfunction be real ?

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Porn Addiction / Which is the most destructive between M and P ?
« on: February 22, 2018, 04:16:26 PM »
I'm 19 and I have PIED problems although i didn't see porn that much in comparison with many guys on this forum (maximum 1 a day and 5 minutes). I was not addcited to P and during my M sessions i even prefered to M to my own fantasizes and girls i know.

However I Mo ed since the age of 10 3 times a day. A day when i was punished to stay at home in my bedroom i mo'd 11 times (i know it's crazy but i had NOTHING to do).
My MO did'nt last more than 5 minutes and i didn't edge. Yet i didn't watch porn i imagined during my fapping sessions hardcore sex about real girls i know such as classmates.

Do you think "Fantasizes"-induced-erectyle dysfunction be real ?

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Porn Addiction / Am i flatlining ?
« on: February 21, 2018, 01:24:19 PM »
I'm 19 suffering of PIED on a 50 days PMO streak. I have no libido for a few days. However sometimes like 2 or 3 times per day i have cravings, have porn flashback again or start to fantasize for only 2 seconds before i consciously stop.

Is flatline supposed to be ZERO sexual thought or even in a none libido i can have craves ?(i conter them every easily yet)

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Hi. I'm 19 and am currently on a 48 streak hard mode.
I write this thread because i am sad : It's been a few days that i notice progresses. In fact, i got my MW back since the first days and i was very happy last week because i get a semi-Bonner just by fantasizing a little bit (it was quick because i must avoid it) and my Noctural woosds become rock hard.

However, to notice my progress i did the PIED test of gary wilson : Try to have an erection without fantasizes at all just with physical stimulation. i masturbate for 1 minute being carefully not to get a rush by thinking to nothing and my penis was just shrivelled.
I wonder if i do my reboot wrong : i do hardmode but i can fantasize during night time or morning even if i try to resist. Plus, every day i meet triggers such as dirty conversations with my friends, semi naked picture in the streets.

If i wasn't able to have an erection by M in 50 days do i need several years to recover ?  Certain things give me hope yet Before knowking nofap because of my first failed sex experience i was able to have a semi-bonner by kissing.


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Porn Addiction / What do you think of Gary Wilson PIED test ?
« on: February 18, 2018, 05:44:49 AM »
I know i have pied but he said that we SHOULD being able to have an erection just my fantasizing without absolutely NO FANTASIZES.
Do you guys were able to do it ? Maybe i could achieve this kind of erection when i was a child and it was just spontaneous but i always fantasized a bit when M at 10 when before i discovered porn at the age of 11...

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I'm a 19 year old guy suffering from PIED and i am on a 43 days hardmode streak.
During my breakfast i was waiting for receiving my food in the cafateria and a woman walked in my direction, looking me and making a gorgeous smile she was lefting the cafeteria. I got a semi boner so it is hopeful for my reboot but does it slow it down ? Should i avoid any eye contact to fast my reboot ? Is is a relapse ?

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Porn Addiction / [PIED] Fantasizing set me back into flatline
« on: February 11, 2018, 05:13:42 PM »
Hi, i'm for now on a 42 days streak hard MODE and i suffer from severe PIED. I was fine but since the first day, my MW became more and more hard. One time, i got my first spontaneous erection being awake. So, after a rock hard erection the morning, i didn't started to fantasize about porn but on hookers i could call to "profit" of my erection during long minutes. In fact, i was really happy of this progress on my erections. However, the day after i didn't get a morning wood so i begin to stress : Does my fantasizes set bme back to day 1. If yes, i feel really depressed...

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i speak about those who suffer of PIED. I am not a scientist but the appearance of MW does not rely on the same pathways that lead to an awake erection ? Many scientific articles affirm that it is due to the parasympathic system that get activ when we are sleeping...
Have you any answers ? Personally i have severe PIED but i got back my MW after 4 days of streak.

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Porn Addiction / [PLEASE HELP] I have seen people having sex ...
« on: February 06, 2018, 03:10:19 PM »
Hello,

I'm for now on a HARD mode streak of 33 days beacuse i have severe PIED and i am 19. Everything was going well but yesterday there was a party in my boarding school where i live. I participated to third one and went to the toilet. When i opened the door, there was a woman being fucked by a guy and when i entered she was orgasming. I didn't hear before i enter because i was listening to music. i saw them a couple seconds i was shocked. When i returned to my flat i felt a huge anxiety and stress. I felt the dopamine rush. In fact i realized that it was more jeaousy than pleasure to watch them because i don't want to look at P-sub anymore since my reboot. since this event, i think every minute of that and imagine the woman i tried awever to struggle to these fantasies and i fear that it resets my counter.

What should i do ? Have you any advice to help me get over this problem ?

Thanks for reading

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Porn Addiction / Why some PMO addicts loose their morning woods ?
« on: February 06, 2018, 03:09:28 PM »
i speak about those who suffer of PIED. I am not a scientist but the appearance of MW does not rely on the same pathways that lead to an awake erection ? Many scientific articles affirm that it is due to the parasympathic system that get activ when we are sleeping...
Have you any answers ? Personally i have severe PIED but i got back my MW after 4 days of streak.

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Porn Addiction / Playing video games = Relapse ?
« on: January 28, 2018, 01:38:37 PM »


    19 years old, I have PIED and i am on a streak hard mode PMO that has last 1 mounth for now. I spend time with friends outside and don't have difficulties concerning my streak.
    However yesterday i played video games with my friends in my livingroom (i want to precise that i am not addicted to video games) and i think i had huge dopamine release because we bet money (10 euros which is huge for me lol). We played 3 hours and i felt VERY tired after that.
    Some on Nofap affirms that it causes PIED due to the dopamine is it true ? I didn't konw it. Should i reset my counter ? It would be sad because i was perfect until now.
     


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Porn Addiction / 15 days : no changes since i sarted NoFap (PIED)
« on: January 16, 2018, 11:28:27 AM »
Hello Fapstronauts !
I am new on this forum and i have issues concerning my Reboot.

First Let's talk about my history: Im 19 and i started fapping since the of of 10 at least 2 times a day (average i was doing it 3-4 times a day). And i discovered what is porn at this age even if i wasnt using it i was more curious about it.
I really started watching porn at the age of 12 and it was soft. From the age of 15 i was interested in new genres such as Interracial cuckold gangbang facials compilation ... However i like equally masturbating to my own fantasizes even romantic.

I didn't experience ANYTHING with girls until i was at the university 3 months ago. I realised that i had success with girls and cuddled 2 times with a girl i met at a party in my campus but did not have sex with her. Howerver i had SEMIBONERS just by kissing her.

Then in October 2017 i dated a new girl and i was surprised myself how i SEEMED confident and charmed her even if i was shitting my pants and naturally shy (i used to play theather so i was capable of playing a role to impress her) ^^. She said that i had surely a fenomenal success with girls lol if she knew that she would be my first.
We finally went to her flat and cuddled but didnt make love because she was tired and i was very anxious but very proud of me.
The second time we met she wanted to have sex but i was uncapable of doing it. My Dick didnt respond. I was ashamed and she was very disapointed i gave her oral.
We stopped talking together by phone but i met her another time at a party and she said how crap i was and i was not a good plan (sorry for my english by the way). She was drunk but the worse arrives. She was with another guy and asked her girldfriend who's be the best to fuck her. I realised that i never saw a BI*** like her.
But i wanted to take revenge and i went to her flat one more time... As expected i failed. I didnt know why i couldnt get hard and said sorry i laid on her bed. For 2 minutes we didnt say a single world and then she said me to get my clothes on and she took me out of her home. I was very shocked.

The day after this tragedy i tried to have an erction by myself but couldnt even with porn. During several weeks i jerked off with sadness having difficulties to get hard ! I thought i was chocked but i started to see (maybe) the cause of my problems on the internet on YBOP and NOFAP. i also started to be less sad and try to recover from my failed sex tentative.


Its been 15 days since i started my Journey : - No Porn, No P-subs like sexy photos ...
-No masturbation, no orgasm.
- Try to avoid fantasizes even if it is difficult ( i have mostly soft fantasizes more than porn flashs)
- Also try no to oggle the women and stare at them even their face.

I dont see any changes or effects. I dont have enormous anxiety as described by many rebooters. No depression i feel good.

The ONLY point is that i dont have significant urges my reboot is easy for now. I do get several times a week Morning woods that i lost after my first "sex".

What are your impression on my situation ? there are not many rebooters that have the same Background i found only one https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/age-24-ed-cured-110-days-being-super-honest-girls-key-rewiring

Why do i dont see significants effects am i doing things badly ?
Thanks for reading and hope you will respond.

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Hello Fapstronauts !
I am new on this forum and i have issues concerning my Reboot.

First Let's talk about my history: Im 19 and i started fapping since the of of 10 at least 2 times a day (average i was doing it 3-4 times a day). And i discovered what is porn at this age even if i wasnt using it i was more curious about it.
I really started watching porn at the age of 12 and it was soft. From the age of 15 i was interested in new genres such as Interracial cuckold gangbang facials compilation ... However i like equally masturbating to my own fantasizes even romantic.

I didn't experience ANYTHING with girls until i was at the university 3 months ago. I realised that i had success with girls and cuddled 2 times with a girl i met at a party in my campus but did not have sex with her. Howerver i had SEMIBONERS just by kissing her.

Then in October 2017 i dated a new girl and i was surprised myself how i SEEMED confident and charmed her even if i was shitting my pants and naturally shy (i used to play theather so i was capable of playing a role to impress her) ^^. She said that i had surely a fenomenal success with girls lol if she knew that she would be my first.
We finally went to her flat and cuddled but didnt make love because she was tired and i was very anxious but very proud of me.
The second time we met she wanted to have sex but i was uncapable of doing it. My Dick didnt respond. I was ashamed and she was very disapointed i gave her oral.
We stopped talking together by phone but i met her another time at a party and she said how crap i was and i was not a good plan (sorry for my english by the way). She was drunk but the worse arrives. She was with another guy and asked her girldfriend who's be the best to fuck her. I realised that i never saw a BI*** like her.
But i wanted to take revenge and i went to her flat one more time... As expected i failed. I didnt know why i couldnt get hard and said sorry i laid on her bed. For 2 minutes we didnt say a single world and then she said me to get my clothes on and she took me out of her home. I was very shocked.

The day after this tragedy i tried to have an erction by myself but couldnt even with porn. During several weeks i jerked off with sadness having difficulties to get hard ! I thought i was chocked but i started to see (maybe) the cause of my problems on the internet on YBOP and NOFAP. i also started to be less sad and try to recover from my failed sex tentative.


Its been 15 days since i started my Journey : - No Porn, No P-subs like sexy photos ...
-No masturbation, no orgasm.
- Try to avoid fantasizes even if it is difficult ( i have mostly soft fantasizes more than porn flashs)
- Also try no to oggle the women and stare at them even their face.

I dont see any changes or effects. I dont have enormous anxiety as described by many rebooters. No depression i feel good.

The ONLY point is that i dont have significant urges my reboot is easy for now. I do get several times a week Morning woods that i lost after my first "sex".

What are your impression on my situation ? there are not many rebooters that have the same Background i found only one https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/age-24-ed-cured-110-days-being-super-honest-girls-key-rewiring

Why do i dont see significants effects am i doing things badly ?
Thanks for reading and hope you will respond.

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