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Ages 20-29 / From zero to free man
« on: January 07, 2018, 08:28:25 AM »
Um, hi, everyone reading my journal. So, I'm a 22-year old student from Russia, I study at ITMO University at St. Petersburg and I have a part-time job (I'm a programmer, a C# backend developer).
I finally decided to reboot because I'm fed up with my sexual tastes - they escalated pretty far from what is considered "normal"; sometimes I hate myself for that and cannot do anything about it. Except rebooting. So, yeah, um, I'm aware of complications because this is not the first time I try to stop watching porn, but last time was a couple of years ago, and about 5 years ago I tried two times. My record was 29 days without porn and masturbation. Now, I feel that I can do it the right way because I know more about it.
So, from this day now on I give up watching porn and masturbating for 90 days. If I have to last longer than that, I'll try.

And, first day check.

1. Did I use porn today?
Yes, I used porn today. :(
2. What were my triggers?
I dunno. I just felt the urge to watch porn and masturbate to it.
3. How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
Um. I have no real way to do this. Usually I eat something sweet but it doesn't help for long. Try sleeping, computer games, series, just to get my mind off that.
4. What am I grateful for today?
I'm grateful I remembered about the YBOP book and this website and decided to try it.
5. Day counter!
0 days. Not for long

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