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Ages 40 and up / Closing in on 3 weeks
« on: August 01, 2014, 05:06:26 PM »
This coming Sunday will be three weeks in. I've tried to be an observer of, rather than a participant in what my body and brain are going through, but I realize this isn't some freshman psychology class. I have to be fully in the process. This week my head hurt, I had to give my iPad to a friend for a few days, and the urges came in waves. I started looking for any image that would fire me up and move me to get off. I didn't find anything, but damn, I am amazed how strong the need can be. In my current frame of mind, any down time would be fatal so I'm glad to be going away for the weekend.
Anyone see the article in The Daily Beast today about this guy Tim Ferriss who has challenged American men to stop masturbating and drinking for 30 days? Interesting article. I've never heard of him, but I'd be interested to know if anyone out there has come across this guy and what their opinion is of him.
Thanks to everyone for just putting it out there and sharing our common experience. It's good to not be alone.

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Ages 40 and up / Hello out there
« on: July 18, 2014, 05:24:33 PM »
This is my first journal entry. The basics: 59 years old, gay, living in Pennsylvania, good job, lots of interests, great group of friends....all of which have been suffering from my addiction to porn. I stumbled across YBOP last Sunday after spending 4 hours "orgasm shopping" as I refer to it when I go trolling for a scene that excites me enough to get off. I have been experiencing PIED for about six months. The New Year was about the time my porn addiction really kicked into high gear. My viewing time per day jumped from an hour or so to setting my alarm very early so I'd have at least two hours of viewing time in the morning. Evenings brought sessions of 4+ hours. I began cancelling plans to stay home and watch porn and last weekend was the lowest point when I had an 8 hour session that left me depressed and terrified I had finally lost control of my life.
My first experience with YBOP frightened me as it made it clear from the experiences of others this was not going to be a simple process. I tossed my DVD collection, unsubscribed from the sites that sent me endless new porn and took the immediate advice of someone from this site to put as much distance between my computer and myself as possible.
So since Sunday I have been "hands off". No libido, but once or twice this week I had to put my head between my knees and breathe deep and long to kill the urge.
I am committed to beat this and grateful for the insights others have shared on this site. Thanks.


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