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Porn Addiction / Do you think i am addicted?
« on: November 14, 2017, 12:22:49 PM »
Hello everyone, i found and started PMO at the age of 12, after that i did it frequently (mostly 1 time a day) up to 20 years old, i was pretty Deep in at around 14-17 i guess.
 Moving on to more hardcore stuff etc, it was the old stuff shemale etc, even zoo, felt disgusted afterwards.

 When i got 21 i found my gf and we have been together now for 2 years. In the beginning of the relationship i was "Clean" for like 5-6 months i dont know, but i started after that, but much less frequent, perhaps 1-2 times a week and i have used less hardcore stuff and it has been like that until now. I have somewhat ED, lose erection between the position-changing in like 5 seconds, i usually have to "fap it up".
 Find myself fantisizing during foreplay (not Always tho). But i have never had a "rock hard erection" as long as i can remember, i can Always push in pretty much at the sides and my glans isnt Always filled etc.

 I Went a round for 90 Days without PMO but i had sex sometimes, had some major libido drop etc, I have relapsed two or Three times after these 90 Days, my guess is it was because i saw no improvement, nothing in erections, or my mind, didnt feel this happiness everyone is speaking of, like being greatful from the weather or whatever. I will admit that during these 90 Days there was a few times that i thought about sexual stuff etc, and when i do this i feel the rush i get, which i assume is a dopamine squirt.

 I havent been able to appreciate the small things for as long as i can remember, having a hard time being interested in others problems or whatever, i mostly care about myself and i even find myself fantizising about totally other stuff all the time while listening to someone talking to me, and im just sitting there saying "yea yea ok, ok" while thinking of totally other stuff.

 So my question, can i be addicted when i had a break when i met my gf and i reduced the amount of fapping and also the "grade of hardness" of the porn?

 edit: morning Wood is very inconsistent and very weak if i have it at all, zero spontaneous erections
When i try to just touch it i feel no sensation at all, but as fast as i  see something arousing like a Picture or a video on Facebook i feel a fast rush and i get tempted to touch, with imagination about porn scenarios i do feel  sensation.


 I really want my problem to be the porn, so i know what i have to do to get rid of it...
 I just want a normal Life.
 thank you

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Porn Addiction / Am i addicted?
« on: June 02, 2017, 08:34:26 AM »
Hello everyone, i found and started PMO at the age of 12, after that i did it frequently (mostly 1 time a day) up to 20 years old, i was pretty Deep in at around 15-17 i guess.
 Moving on to more hardcore stuff etc, felt disgusted afterwards. cuck/shemale etc

 When i got 21 i found my gf and we have been together now for 2 years. In the beginning of the relationship i was "Clean" for like 5-6 months i dont know, but i started after that, but less frequent, perhaps 2-3 times a week  and it has been like that until now. I have somewhat ED, lose erection between the position-changing in like 5 seconds, i usually have to "fap it up".
 Find myself fantisizing during foreplay (not Always tho). But i have never had a "rock hard erection" as long as i can remember, i can Always push in pretty much at the sides and my glans isnt Always filled etc.

 I have not masturbated or watched porn in 16 Days now, it wasnt hard to resist porn at all, im not horny and i wasnt even horny Before i started these 16 Days, but a month Before i started i said i would quit to 100% but i did it like 1-2 Days/2weeks anyway. But when i said that 1 month Before starting pmo for real i lost libido to 100%, was like that for the whole month, so now when i started for real i had no libido so it wasnt difficult.

 I have been very tired during this time and depressed, i noticed i had pretty severe flu symptoms but just for like 10 hours, even had fever. Nothing is funny right now.

 So my question, can i be addicted when i had a break when i met my gf and i reduced the amount of fapping to porn?(2-3 times a week)

 edit: morning Wood is very inconsistent and very weak if i have it at all, zero spontaneous erections
 

Also people Always find it weird that i dont appreciate small things, like the weather or whatever, if its sunny as hell outside i can be inside, i dont care about a good day really, havent done it for as long as i can remember.

When masturbating without porn i need intense fantasys, i cannot do it to the "sensation".

thank you

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