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Porn Addiction / EJ's Journal to Reboot
« on: August 28, 2016, 01:28:37 PM »
Hi everyone,

I started this journey just last week and today I had relapsed after 2 days! Feeling a little bummed but also grateful because I had a chance to observe my behavior. It's amazing what the brain can make you want to do but it's amazing that I'm able to see the effects of my brain and body when I did relapse today. Just even looking at P, I felt the same rushes in my head that I usually get. I told myself that I wouldn't MO by just looking but wouldn't you know it, I stepped away from the P but once I hit the shower it was over.

I'm disappointed that I couldn't get past 2 days before relapsing. But I'm new in this journey and it would be great if I had more tools get me through this, I realized today that this is not going to be an easy battle. The internet comes through all sorts of devices I own and it's hard to NOT look at P when it's readily available. Like I said, disappointed in myself but I'm going to go out with my parents for a few hours and get my mind away from beating myself up too much. Any tips or advice on how to make it past more than just a few days would be greatly appreciated, thank you guys!!

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