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Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 09, 2016, 01:18:32 AM »
hey stowe2010
thanks man for the kind words  ;)
and sorry for replying lately.
hey man we are on this together and we will make it through.

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 05, 2016, 10:01:26 PM »
on day 6
don't know what's going
my head was spinning when i woke up and half an hour later it is still spinning.

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 05, 2016, 08:39:37 AM »
hey yesyes1234
thanks for the reply!!!
it's really great to see people from around the world understanding what i am going through and taking advice from rebooters like you also helps a lot during recovery.

Porn Addiction / Re: New journal, fresh start
« on: November 04, 2016, 08:50:19 AM »
hello friends,
i also relapsed and i regret it very much.
all the time i am feeling frustrated and miserable. i can not do anything without a feeling of self hatred and anxiety.
i think porn addiction does not agree with our well being. it makes us a zombie who craves porn all the time.

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 04, 2016, 08:37:38 AM »
hey yesyes1234
first of all thanks brother..
i too think that i should develop some kind of skill or do something else productive. but then i think that porn might cause problems with that too and if i get frustrated i might loose some of my relations like if i join my friends playing soccer i might get anxious and frustrated easily due to withdrawals and i might loose my connections with them(i have a few friends and i can not talk to them about my addiction because it is still a taboo where i belong)
another reason is that i don't think i will be my best in some field until i recover so this thing also hinders me from starting something new.
hope you understand!!!!!

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 04, 2016, 02:26:35 AM »
hey guys
 on day 4
today when i was with my friends, and we all were talking about something funny, i found me being so lazy and lethargic, i just was not able to have fun with them. all the time i remained angry at very small things, i don't think i ever wanted to be like that. i am never sure about what i should do and porn flashbacks that come in between pisses me off.
i am still at day 4 only and i desperately want to get out of this addiction and i will do so for sure. there is a lot to tell you.
see you on day 5

Porn Addiction / Re: Extremely Tired
« on: November 02, 2016, 11:08:58 PM »
hey mls2017
i too have this tiring feeling. i don't think i can focus on anything for more than 10 minutes. i have no excitement or energy for the thing that i planned to do for the rest of my life. i am scared but i have a beam of hope, too. i want to beat this addiction and never ever look back. it takes what is called life from us.
have a good day.

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 02, 2016, 10:57:53 PM »
hello fellow fapstronauts
i just can't wait to be here. as soon as the counter shows another day gone i jump over here.
all the time i am regretting about what i did to me.
and being on day 3 pisses me off. i am too discouraged when i see i am still at day 3. i just can't wait to beat this addiction and go on with my life. wish me luck.
still struggling with all the symptoms described in my previous post.
my concentration power has diminished and my regularity has gone away. i can not go out and face people, even seeing a women in the tv makes me uncomfortable.
i will beat it.

Porn Addiction / Re: I don't think i can quit porn and masturbation
« on: November 02, 2016, 09:13:46 AM »
brother what i can tell you is that
when any sexual thoughts arise in your mind just pay your attention to something else.
just smile and do something that demands some effort rather than continuously rewarding yourself with disgusting images.
life is short. enjoy it and to do so quit this damn addiction.
somebody who has quit smoking why he should not turn to smoking again, if it gives him fun. because he has realized that the pleasure is temporary and he ends up feeling guilt, shame, and tons of other negative effects, he has seen both the sides and chose to get clean and stay clean because by doing so he gets to know how he is, what he actually likes, what he wants to do.
so you relapse again and again.
take some steps brother and remember the sooner the better.

Porn Addiction / Re: Guilt in relationship???
« on: November 02, 2016, 09:03:20 AM »
hey llcc1103
it happened to me. after my last relapse i cried and was so much emotionally unstable and unbalanced( i am still feeling it) i just could not handle it. i had guilt and i was ashamed for indulging in this type of activity that i know is wrong. i see you are optimistic. come on brother beat this demon and never ever look back. it only makes our life a waste.
you can .

hello scorpion1386
don't expect this journey to be easy. if it would have been, probably you won't use this forum. porn creates desensitization to every other pleasureful experience. you just have to hold on and things will get better.
beat the addiction.
you can.

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 02, 2016, 08:49:23 AM »
thanks yesyes1234
i love any encouragement people give me.
it motivates me and calms my soul.
i will beat this addiction for sure.

Porn Addiction / Re: Dating Sites, Possible Trigger
« on: November 02, 2016, 12:05:37 AM »
hey getagrip
i was also browsing pretty women with clothes on. but slowly i went down the spiral and relapsed on day 95. after that i felt shit. after my 90 day streak i was feeling horny all the time and i had nothing to do so i went on staring at pics of women and i was getting more and more close to porn. the 90 day streak helped a lot my brain argued about the negative effects but i gave in.

Porn Addiction / Re: journey to a better me
« on: November 01, 2016, 11:57:27 PM »
hey all
Day 2
going pretty scary. my head is so much heavy and my heart is paining. I miss how i used to sleep and what i have become now. firstly it is very difficult to grab a sleep and if i get one then when i wake up my head becomes heavy. i have told myself a thousand times that it was not worth it. i become anxious so easily. i just can not take normal things. all the good habits i started have come to an halt. all the time i am ashamed, feeling guilt, it seems how far my target is now. i just can not wait to beat this addiction. I have become physically weak(even if i stand for 5 minutes my legs become tired). i was a energy beast when i was enjoying my longest streak and scored goals but now i am afraid to go on the pitch. every five minutes a pornographic thought pop up in my head and i have to win over it. i feel like crying.

Porn Addiction / journey to a better me
« on: November 01, 2016, 04:32:04 AM »
hello all,
i am going to start my nofap journey again.
i will write a journal daily and also reply to your posts because that is the way to real and strong recovery.
so guys
day 1
i am going through disappointment(what you are supposed to go through after a relapse), i feel myself a waste.
but i am going to improve it. this time i am gonna stop any artificial  sexual stimulation.
Day 1:
 feeling ashamed, broken, a total shit, no motivation just like a zombie, no self confidence....etc.(the whole list will take 3 more months)
guys meet you on day 2

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: August 24, 2016, 06:53:38 AM »
on my day 28 ( best streak) and i was reading newspaper where i saw a photo that was sexually arousing
then the conflict in my mind began.thanks god i made it but i am still frustrated about my further encounters with such material

Porn Addiction / Re: day 1
« on: August 15, 2016, 10:48:59 AM »
keep it up man you are only at day 1 think of a drug addict on his first day of recovery.
don't be lazy thinking it's to early for anything just start it up.

Porn Addiction / Re: Can't get past 4 days
« on: August 07, 2016, 10:54:07 AM »
congrats bro dontgiveup 7
wish me luck too

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: August 06, 2016, 08:45:55 AM »
it's going pretty well.
and sorry for late reply i was busy in my new life.

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: July 31, 2016, 11:06:19 AM »
hope that we can get this addiction dumped as soon as we can and see the other and beautiful side of life.

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: July 31, 2016, 11:04:34 AM »
hello kwon5
it's good to see you guys.
i am on this reboot journey and i learnt a lot of things from you guys and from my own experiences.

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: July 31, 2016, 12:31:18 AM »
thanks malando.
i will make 3 days into 30 to gain some control over my life, i don;t want porn to remain in my journey of life and anyone out there lets march forward discuss everything an make this porn demon lie at its feet, come on guys we are gonna crush this addiction to death. unity is the key i believe

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: July 30, 2016, 10:52:42 AM »
it's a pleasure to see you guys encouraging me.
thanks to gabe deem who made this website so that we can openly and anonymously share our feelings and our day to day experiences because pornography is not anymore glamorous it's a lie, a fake world, i am on the go.
wish me luck.

Porn Addiction / Re: Can't get past 4 days
« on: July 29, 2016, 11:54:14 AM »
hey brother #don'tgiveup7
i know what you are going through, i too was not able to get past 4 days but gradually i shifted it higher and higher.
just remember one thing don't let the same mistake beat you down twice.
i know that once you relapse it only perpetuates more relapse and binging because it might sound like you have undone all your progress, but we are here to beat the addiction, remember failure is a part of the recovery but not make it a habit don't give up to one single urge.

Porn Addiction / Re: going beyond porn
« on: July 28, 2016, 11:33:23 AM »
brother (malando)
i relapsed on my 16 day twice.
i just have to make it this time. and sorry for that post i wrote it just after relapsing, now seeing my counter showing one day and i am again on it.
 what made me relapse was my desensitization to almost everything so i used porn in order to feel high or atleast feel satisfied but it only made the situation worse

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