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Ages 20-29 / Re: Quick question about rebooting
« on: March 21, 2017, 04:51:25 PM »
No that is normal. In my reboot I had dirty dreams but Just don't fap.
If you masterbate and ejaculate then it is considered a relapse.

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Ages 20-29 / Join my nofap motivation group
« on: March 21, 2017, 03:39:08 PM »
For me its been hard to access Reboot nation, now that I disconnect the internet when I'm on PC. If i'm alone.
Phone conversations and apps are more accessible to me. If you are feeling same as i had before.
I have created a group kik(app) chat for those who need help.
It's accessible and free
We are no experts but are here for all types of support

Together we fight, you are no alone fapstronauts

Link:
kik.me/g/jf_GfOu57AqDGiu4743kGc-V6Y0

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Ages 20-29 / i wish there was a rebootnation phone app
« on: February 28, 2017, 11:16:24 PM »
So I am hanging up the keyboard. I am going to have a real journal its gotten tougher for me to get online.

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Ages 20-29 / it's worked for me so far. Hopefully, it keeps working
« on: February 17, 2017, 11:09:57 PM »
Quoting my bud Ian here:

"Have you made a gremlin list? Basically, it's a list that you write when your in your "higher self" state of mind in response to all the excuses we use to PMO. I call it gremlin list, idk if there's actually a name for it. It's a little long and personalized but it's worked for me so far. Hopefully, it keeps working"

Below is all me.
Don't give on fapstronauts! I wrote for the
"I'll start tomorrow"

Hey! Put up the Fight
Damn! Its Monday, long week just tired and I need a little something I will start tomorrow. Oh Great! Tuesday you know what not today, tomorrow. Ugh, Wednesday its mid-week but you know, I’ll start tomorrow. Thursday, man I was already doing it yesterday might as well continue and for sure I will start tomorrow. Ok, Friday let’s face it weekend is coming up so tomorrow. Already Saturday? Got here so fast well it won’t hurt another day so yeah definitely tomorrow. Oh baby sweet spanking Sunday yeah let’s do this today, but first let me live this double life. I will preach and show the way of god I will be a hypocrite and once I get home and past this BS yeah baby I am going to get some. Its fine tomorrow is the start of the new week so tomorrow, for sure. Oi! Look it is over, man your week flew its gone and you did not start again. How many more hours, days weeks, months and again you did not start? The whole damn week and you said, “I’ll do it tomorrow,” every single day. Step back analyze is this what you want to be a Failure? You can’t even face a day and your little worthless streak that’s nothing brother it just takes a second a glimpse a thought. THINK! Before you act, stop the hand and those pensamientos(thoughts[Spanish]) Come on you heard the man you are what you feed yourself with. These thoughts they control you, they overtake you, you let them. NOW overtake them and get back control. Face it! Embrace it! Fight it! If you don’t start today, ahorita, right this second when will you? What if today is your last chance, what if there is no tomorrow? Living a worthless life, like this you might as well be DEAD. What do the things the thoughts you have what does it count for? For whom do you act? Your dreams, your ambitions your greatness is dead! Like this you have never been great but a failure. You are not accomplishing or completing anything not even a simple task like taking care of your wellbeing. Now what “greatness” is there in a non-accomplisher? Your nothing but the useless one. Get over it man don’t let the madness consume you. Open up! Don’t ever close your brain! Expand. Re-think. Man when will you get another chance? I don’t know you don’t know it’s not a given we never know our future. So ACT today the future may be uncertain you may be walking a dark path blindfolded but there is a light. Apenitas barely see it but small bright and far but it shines it will take work dedication and discipline. So stop this negative bull shit-ness and get the fuck back up, don’t cry you little useless man. You think crying will solve anything? You think doing nothing will solve your problem? No you need to act. No more tomorrow. No more leaving this for another day. Face it, and the is no stepping back. It is today, this day this exact hour, right this minute, the seconds are ticking off what are you waiting for? Don’t expect no one to get to get you off this. It will be only you and you alone must act it alone it is your problem your issue. Why would someone else be involved if it’s not even theirs to begin with? So you going to act or What? And that problem? Wait! Don’t you always have problems? Are you going to escape AGAIN? What will that do? Nothing, that is right you’re not solving it or brainstorming on how to solve it. You know the problem won’t solve itself and no one will solve it for you. You alone, yes you alone must come face to face and overcome your fear. If you don’t face it today, it will haunt you tomorrow it will haunt you in your deathbed because you could not overcome it. You could not face it. So do it, START it that is all it takes get past the first step. Taking that first leap might be scary at first but once you do, who is there to stop you? What about in the second jump, the third fourth and fifth no one will stop you only you. Your mental barriers your lack of motivations, your “I can’t do it mentality” but if you begin today it will be easy from then on, HA! So you think! Understand you have to fight, until the enemy/beast/devil (within-you) gets tired and falls. But it is not over, don’t let your guard down there is still the next opponent the next fight the next challenge. The next rock in your path. Don’t let it bring you down. Get back up because you have a dream an ambition to feed and understand that no one will change you. Yes, they have influence, they may tell you, they may talk to you, they may push you but face it they don’t control your actions. Your words, your thoughts, your body only YOU have the control. So tell them NO I don’t want to, don’t let them force you into something you don’t want.
So will it be today? Now? Don’t meditate too much on it remember the clock is still ticking. So get back out there and FACE-IT! OVERCOME-IT! Accomplish this NOW and tomorrow you will see no fruits but give it time and keep at it and like a tree it will grow and it will give you fruits and then you will have something useful to give to your descendants. Think in the terms of NOW so let me stop this and get at it and overcome, achieve and succeed.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Porn withdrawal symptoms
« on: February 10, 2017, 12:50:08 AM »
Abraham,
Cheer up buddy

You are not alone, I have been going through some depression myself and so have other guys on here
"the hardest prison to escape from is the Mind"

Look around man, you can get help from someone you are not alone. Get a therapist or join a church(if ya religious) talk it out with someone
I tried to do the Least, so got got very little help with my addiction i admit i took a shortcuts and I have analyzed
That I need remove things that induce the thinking of "P" from my life
We are weak and any little thing, thought or emotion will make you think of P so remove anything

"when you want to succeed as bad as you want to breath then you will be successful
I don’t know if you have asthma?
If you ever had a asthma attack before your short of breath S.O.B shortness of breath,
you wheezing (breath sound) the only thing
you trying to do is get some air....

You don’t care about no basketball game,
you don’t care about what’s on T.V.,
you don’t care about nobody calling you,
you don’t care about a party.
The only thing you care about
when you trying to breathe is to get some fresh air.
That’s it!
And when you get to the point
where all you wanna do is
be is successful as bad as
you wanna breathe then you will be successful.

You gotta go days without watching P
LISTEN TO ME!
You gotta want to be successful so bad that you forget to eat." ~Eric Thomas

If you have people anxiety I reccomend youtube videos from
|[/i]Absolute Motivation[/i]|
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StTQzAE3orI

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 10, 2017, 12:15:51 AM »
I've been fooling myself lying in my own world.
I've been consumed in everything else around me.
I have come to my senses and I am ready to overcome my Fears.
I am gonna drop Netflix, drop all Manga, and drop social Media.

I need to Figure out Me... Who I can become?
But what about my Goals? My intentions? My Ambitions?

I believe in myself, I have Failed many times.
But I need to build myself day by day, grind it out
Work, motivate and perform my Goals, NO more Failing.

OVERCOME Failure & Make an IMPACT
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1VvkDNxd6s

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Ages 20-29 / Re: New beginning
« on: February 10, 2017, 12:03:24 AM »
Don't overthink things. Nothing is impossible man, believe in yourself.
"The body has limitations the mind does not we focus so much what goes on the neck down that we forget it all starts from the Head...If your not mentally ready you never really physically prepared, and that is  when the preparation starts..."


watch this - Motivational Video:

FOCUS ON YOU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m9w5iKSlHRw&t=13s

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 07, 2017, 11:43:41 PM »
Rise and shine!
6 am and your hand can’t make it to the alarm clock before the voices in your head start telling you that it’s too early, too dark and too cold to get out of bed. Aching muscles lie still in rebellion pretending not to hear your brain commanding them to move. A legion of voices are shouting their unanimous permission for you to hit the snooze button. Go back to dreamland!
But you didn’t ask their opinion. The voice you’ve chosen to listen to is one of defiance! The voice that said there was a reason that you set that alarm in the first place. So sit up. Put your feet on the floor and don’t look back because we’ve got work to do.

Welcome to the grind!

For what is each day but a series of conflicts between the right way and the easy way. 10,000 streams span out like a River Delta before you, each one promising the path of least resistance. The thing is you’re  headed upstream and when you make that choice, when you decide to turn your back on what’s comfortable, what’s safe and what some would call common sense.

Well that’s Day 1.

From there is only gets tougher! So just make sure this is something that you want. Because the easy way out will always be there. Ready to wash you away!  All you have to do is pick up your feet. But you aren’t going to are you? With each step comes the decision to take another. You’re on your way now, but this is no time to dwell on how far you have come. You’re in a fight against an opponent you can’t see, but oh you can feel him on your heels can’t ya. Feel him breathing down your neck. You know what that is? That’s you. Your fears, your doubts, your insecurities all lined up like a firing squad ready to shoot you out of the sky. But don’t lose heart. While they are not easily defeated, they are far from invincible.

Remember, this is the grind, the Battle Royale between you and your mind. Your body and the devil on your shoulders who is telling you that “ This is just a game. This is just a waste of time. Your opponents are stronger than you”. Drown out the voice of uncertainty with the sound of your own heartbeat! Burn away your self doubt with the fire beneath you. Remember what we are fighting for and never forget that momentum is a cruel mistress. She can turn on a dime with the smallest mistake. She is ever searching for the weak place in your armor. That one tiny feeling that you forgot to prepare for. So as long as the devil is hiding the details, the question remains: “Is that all you got? Are you sure?”

When the answer is yes, you’ve done all you can to prepare yourself for battle, then it’s time to go forth and boldly face your enemy. The enemy within! Only now you must take that fight into the open. Into hostile territory.

You are a lion in a field of lions, all hunting the same elusive prey with a desperate starvation that says victory is the only thing that can keep you alive. So believe that voice that says you can run a little faster and you can throw a little harder, and that for you the laws of physics are merely a suggestion.  Luck is the last dying wish of those who want to believe that winning can happen by accident. Sweat on the other hand is for those who know it’s a choice. So decide now because destiny waits for no man.

And when your time comes and a thousand different voices are trying to tell you that you’re not ready for it, listen instead to that lone voice of descent, that one voice that says:  “you are ready” “you are prepared”. It’s all up to you now!

So Rise and shine!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 07, 2017, 02:10:36 PM »
"HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?" SPEECH LYRICS
by Eric Thomas

"There was a young man, you know,
who wanted to make a lot of money
and so he went to this guru, right.
And he told the guru you know
I wanna be on the same level
you are and the guru said
if you wanna be on the same level I’m on,
I’ll met you tomorrow at the beach.

So the young man got there 4 A.M. he already to rock n’ roll.
Got on a suit should of wore shorts.
The old man grabs his hand and said:
How bad do you wanna be successful?
He said: “Real bad”.
He said: Walk on out in the water.
So he walks out into the water. Watch this.
When he walks out to the water
he goes waist deep and goes like this guy crazy.

Hey I wanna make money and he got me out here swimming.
I didn’t ask to be a lifeguard.
I wanna make money he got me in
so he said come on a little further
walked out a little further
then he had it right around this area
the shoulder area
so this old man crazy
he making money but he crazy.
So he said come on out a little further
came out a little further, it was right at his mouth
my man, I’m not about to go back in this guy is out of his mind. And the old man said:
“I thought you said you wanted to be successful?”
He said: “I do.”
He said: “Then walk a little further.”
He came, dropped his head in, held him down,
hold him down, my man (kept scratching) hold him down,
he had him held down,
just before my man was about to pass out,
he raised him up.
He said: “I got a question for you.”
He told the guy, he said:
“When you want to succeed as bad as
you wanna breathe than you will be successful.”

I don’t know how many of you all got asthma here today?
If you ever had a asthma attack before your short of breath S.O.B shortness of breath,
you wheezing (breath sound) the only thing
you trying to do is get some air.
You don’t care about no basketball game,
you don’t care about what’s on T.V.,
you don’t care about nobody calling you,
you don’t care about a party.
The only thing you care about
when you trying to breathe is to get some fresh air.
That’s it!
And when you get to the point
where all you wanna do is
be is successful as bad as
you wanna breathe then you will be successful.
And I’m here to tell you that number one,
most of you say you wanna be successful
but you don’t want it bad, you just kind of want it.
You don’t want it bad than you wanna party.
You don’t want it as much as you want to be cool.
Most of you don’t want success as much as you want sleep.
Some of you lost sleep more than you lost success.
And I’m here to tell you today,
if your going to be successful
you gotta be willing to give up sleep.
You gotta be willing to work with 3 hours of sleep
2 hours of sleep, if you really wanna be successful.
Some day your gonna have to stay up 3 days in a row.
Because if you go to sleep you might miss
the opportunity to be successful.
That’s how bad you gotta (inaudible).

You gotta go days without
LISTEN TO ME!
You gotta want to be successful so bad that you forget to eat.
My ( ) said say,
once she was on the set doing her thang,
three days had gone by and she forgot that she didn’t eat. Cause she was engaged.
I never forget,
I went, 50 Cent was doing his movie,
I did a little research on 50
and 50 said: that when he wasn’t do the movie he was doing the soundtrack.
And they said: “When do you sleep?” 50,
and 50 said: “Sleep, sleep is for those people who are broke.
I don’t sleep.” See I got an opportunity to make my dream become a reality.
Don’t cry to quits.
You already in pain, you already hurt.
Get a reward from it. Don’t go to sleep until you succeed.
Listen to me,
I’m here to tell you today you can come here and
and you can jump up – you can do flips and you can be excited when we give away money but listen to me,
you will never be successful,
I don’t have to give you a dime if you ...
You won’t be successful until you say I don’t need that money cause I got it in here.

Only The Strong Survive!"


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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 05, 2017, 10:10:52 PM »
YAS! Successful DAY!

Served the Mighty Lord all day :-)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 04, 2017, 11:22:15 PM »
Take Control Over Your Life And Never Look Back - Motivational Video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQ-ZIf3PCYs

"You can take control of your life you can better yourself as a person there is no going back...
because if you don't do it NOW your going to live the rest of your life knowing that you could be better
and
You are Not Living the Life of FULL Potential
and basically Fucking up. "

~JulienHimself

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 03, 2017, 09:29:05 PM »
I been letting work accumulate (Slacking off on purpose) just being stupid
Its biting my tail and I feel Like I haven't Progressed artistically
No Improvements, at times I feel like a failure.
My Parents bite my ass on about letting work accumulate,
but shit until the end is when I finally work all stressed and past midnight.
My Mom constantly states, "I don't know what to do with you anymore"
to be truth I don't know what to with myself?

My ambition is DEAD, but why?
How do I recover it, have I been away and asleep this long?


So I talked with my friend
Just hearing her talk...about her complications in her first relationship,
(the want/need to go back to how it used to be)
She has the courage to try harder to not give up so easily and has the drive to move forward to get past this stage...
but sometimes she doesn't know but unlike other days Today she knew
Today she decided to break it up for good.
To put an End to this Story.
 


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Ages 20-29 / Re: online dating?
« on: February 03, 2017, 09:00:50 PM »
Online dating is dangerous.

Especially those unexpected messages you get from Webcam-girls
Their either like click my link and see sum of my pics and
BANG
It can be tempting and lead to PMO

I remember a while back I had an okcupid page and I put so much effort in the Profile,
I would be able to converse well with chubby girls
but I never got passed a phone call, or a single date I always thought they were too desperate
so I gave up.

Trying to talk to hot/moderate girls just never happened unless you offended them or called them fake profiles.
Altogether
It is weird system compared to the real world.




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Ages 20-29 / online dating?
« on: February 02, 2017, 02:48:52 PM »
So how is online dating for you?

Tried it? tell me about it.


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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: February 02, 2017, 02:45:20 PM »
So I broke my week streak, it was shitty I P-ED so fast As soon as i popped on the P
It was over.

I felt no regrets but afterwards i felt empty...
Alone...
I say, "I can handle the loneliness, but how long will this be?"
I am a man of faith, I will not act desperate,
I will seek more faith, sometimes two days is just not enough

Interaction and Intercourse are part of our self beings,
but being alone

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: January 31, 2017, 05:48:34 PM »
The Images
The urge
The feeling
tempt me...

I need to drop the ero~manga it is bringing back bad habits
Like wanting or feeling the need to watch P

The untold History of the United States by Oliver Stone is a must watch
I think i going to rewatch



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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: January 21, 2017, 12:30:23 AM »
The exercise helps! Gets the mind of the PMO.

The soreness the intense sweat dripping down.
The Instructor YELLS! Encourages! Pushes!
The Friends motivate. Just their presence.

~Difference Maker~
Your body Speaks
You feel every move,
You hear every breath,
You touch every muscle,
You see every body move,
You taste every last drop.

Be sincere and TRUE!
Stop the fountain of lies,
What else do you have to loose?
 

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: January 19, 2017, 04:26:32 PM »
I relapsed and it just took one day and PMO'ing like I was before...
Disappointment, its no longer enjoyable its just... the visuals they stupefy me.
Tumblr is my weakness.

Still exercising not letting it go.
It has become the core of my day. Need to loose weight.   

Even though I failed I still continue going to church meetings.
More like Meetings of Meditation. 

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Get out more!
Interact, Talk, Visit new Places.

Join a club! At school
Something your passionate about,
Anime? Reading? Photography?
Something to make you forget how you look,
because its not about that its about who you are.

Something that has helped me is going to my
"Cross-Fit" Class I interact with the teacher, he demonstrates, encourages and its healthy.
You also meet new people, they have goals so do you.
Relate talk don't worry about your image. And in a place like this everyone is working on "the image"

So good luck, start little by little.
It can be hard at first...for me it was and still is.
But get past the first 3 days and you'll see keep at it!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: I ain't the Same
« on: January 13, 2017, 11:26:54 PM »
Why the denial? I do something and I get nothing.
Am I blind, is the path too hazy? Am I walking in circles?
My path is uncertain, my parents confuse me, What is it son?
No encouragement. Just Questions. Just Demands. No Conversations.
This needs to Change... where is their time? why do they leave?
I just don't understand... Every time I Come home and my Parents
"where u at?"
I don't drink, no drugs, no clubs, craziest thing i used to do is watch P.
And I burring it! I am past It.

But why do I feel so abandoned so lonely? Why am I so distant?
The things that Fill me, are relationships, interacting, talking, together.
Why so Far...Mom? Why so Distant....Dad?
I reach out but your either gone, or bossing me around. Denying me telling me I am a LIAR.
Where you always this tired? Where you always this cold? why?

You told me to reach to God.
but you leave me all alone, will this path be filled of solitude?
It is hard interacting with strangers. I feel Strange. Distant.
I am weak. Broken.

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Ages 20-29 / I ain't the Same
« on: January 11, 2017, 10:53:30 PM »
Can you believe it Day 26!
So I got busy over the Christmas and New Years Break.
Went to 2 catholic retreats, one in December and One in January
I say I changed but the True Battle starts when i head back to school

Thursdays is our retreat-group reunion they help me remember my promise.
And the talks they give us uplift my mood.
Makes me forget about PMO

I also started hanging out with friends and They are encouraging
in the Cross-Fit class us four joined.
Today I am sore and a little sick. (flu)

They days I don't go to the Cross fit class I go to the gym solo.
Its different being by yourself.

I made an amazing friend she knows my secret (that i watch P), I trust her.
It was hard telling her but man she has changed my thinking and the way I see things.
She has also trusted me with some of her problems, her relationship issues.
Sometimes I am amazed with the advise I give her, When did I become so wise?
Its great to have someone who gives you a different opinion on your life, sometimes you only see one path, one way out.
But when you have someone who cares for you they open up a path for you.
They tell you, "that is not the only way out... follow me..."
and when she is in dark paths I help her, I am there for her. I care for her
I respect her decisions and the things she tells me, I don't judge her.
It is so different having a girl as a Friend, she is like a sister to me.


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Ages 20-29 / After a Week I relapsed
« on: November 23, 2016, 07:54:00 PM »
Yes I am a bit disappointing in myself, but I have faith in myself.
Just been a little stressed and under pressure, I really need to get back to exercising.

it is the first 7 days in a long time and if I could get past these days I have a goal to go further and I know I can.

Faith Courage and Hope Brothers.
Be as little negative and believe in yourself.

Don't be to hard on yourself and accept who you are.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Been thinking Addiction Counseling? Have you?
« on: November 22, 2016, 01:47:08 AM »
Made it past Day 5!
So far no complications
More focused. Not as Distracted. Not giving up.
Need to get Complete some of my projects that been in my to-do list for months.

Been listening to Music Documentaries,
The times are rapidly changing.
As I am willing to change my life around.





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Ages 20-29 / Re: New beginning
« on: November 22, 2016, 01:41:56 AM »
Amazing Dude keep it up!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: focused, ready to beat this
« on: November 19, 2016, 12:42:37 PM »
Any good links?
books/ movies?

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