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Ages 30-39 / Re: tranny escort
« on: February 16, 2018, 02:41:56 AM »
Hi there,

Is it what happened to you? you might want to share your story first.


Ages 30-39 / Re: Broccolini's diary
« on: February 15, 2018, 09:53:18 PM »
Day 17 is pretty great as for me it's the first 2-5 days the hardest usually but maintaining it after 2 weeks, it was always. Good job!
I like to focus on getting a good routine of exercise, ever alone with a lot of motivational talks in my ipod or with people around who want to push themselves too. The body is a strong push when we keep building it. I always start with it because it gave me a lot of confidence in me, and towards my relationships with people, after I spent so much time working on my body and inner balance and strength. You become naturally attractive to people, guys or girls, as you attract yourself first and like yourself genuinly. It took me a lot of time as I was going through things, like loose my hair. Now it makes me smile inside because I remember it was difficult to look at myself in a mirror and feeling like I liked my image. Now I shave my head and grow a beard and I am attracting a lot of people, and most importantly I like myself. And I think that's because I spend months and years to work on myself, investing on myself, buy new close that I wasn't use it to wear because I had this teenager attitude of not wanting to dress up. Now I look like a nice young man and people ask me and look at me with interest for themselves too. Anyway, just to say, the hardest is what you are doing to me, to work to get better, and that's great. Reading your logs, I am actually surprised how what you say about your being shy and actually what I read, your feeling and thoughts, I am thinking you look like a very cool guy to be honest and interesting to listen to. I am pretty when you will be more comfortable, you will attract a lot of people, guys and girls.
Cheers mate

Ages 30-39 / Re: **Accountability Partner Requests**
« on: February 12, 2018, 08:16:41 PM »

I am Viper, male, 36 yo. Not married, singe, recently dating someone, mutliple long term relationships that ended due to loss of interest in the other partner after porn use. I am now going through rebooting, resensitising myself to real partner and relationship.
I'd appreciate occasional chats here with someone who likes to share and want to share advice and happy to provide my views as well.


Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 26, 2017, 07:09:43 PM »
Hi Kevin,

Good job on the list of stuff to avoid. I think that's also good to set your limits properly ;)

Cheers and catch up when you get internet back

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 22, 2017, 06:55:55 PM »
Hi buddy,

I had a great sleep last night and an early wake up this morning, it feels great yes. Get some sleep! Best way to feel good.

Good day to you ;)

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 21, 2017, 10:05:16 PM »
Hey buddy ;)

Good to hear from you again and see that you are happy these days. Stay in touch and good luck with your move.

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 19, 2017, 08:54:33 PM »
All good buddy? you haven't been posting for a few days too.


Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 16, 2017, 07:28:29 PM »
Hey buddy,

I share your feeling. Loneliness. You know sometimes it happens even when you are among other people. But somehow it seems that we are not connecting and we stay apart regardless of if there is someone or not around. I think it's time for you to reconnect with people. Whoever that might be. Just make sure the people that you connect with now are safe and don't bring you back to the shit hole. You are doing great efforts and now this is another good thing in your life to do. Connect.
And by the way, from my experience, you can't expect anything like you won't feel attracted by hookers or porn... even after a reboot. It doesn't work like this to me. It's more that it comes easier to avoid it in your life as you build new paths. But remember if one day you come across the situation and you feel attracted, run! Because it will hit you harder than before. It did to me. And it's normal, I haven't really change anything essential in my life since I started to look for healing myself. Just basic nofap here and there. It is good to do it, but doesn't make a difference in the long run.


Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 15, 2017, 11:02:56 PM »
Hey Kevin,

I am sorry I also missed coming here for a little while. I am really happy that you manage so well and most importantly enjoy it!
Now I am back!


Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 10, 2017, 08:55:59 PM »
Hey Kev,
Nice job.
Two things I notices.
Your former stock of porn sounds like a relationship you have to forgive and forget in order to move on. Somehow you sound like "missing it" is really affectively as well. Something that you were attached to but need to leave it behind. Well, think about it this way, as if it was a person you can't go back with. What would you do? How would you approach it? Maybe easier than just making such relation between it and pmo?
Also, yes, having some social activities is very healthy. I get that sports for you is not a problem, but missing some contact with real people is something that really set us to a new path. By seeing, following, going along with people you appreciate the company with. It's healing.

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 10, 2017, 12:44:13 AM »
Hey Kevin,

Cool you wrote your stuff here. Would you consider to take first a good care of your body, with lots of liquids, sports and good food? I found that taking care of my body keeps me busy with good things, build up my body and strengthen my mental. Much better then trying to fix you mental state by thinking about it. Simple action.
Also, I found that trying to really find things that I like to do in my life is a must to change a bad habit (that goes with bad moment in life).

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 08, 2017, 09:36:04 PM »
Hey Kev,

I feel for what you are living now. But no worries, take again one step at a time. What happened and write it? No need for the sex or pmo details but how you felt before and after is good to rethink in general. Also, come back to basic health checks. How physically are you? Build on this one seriously it helps. Then, write here about you, your feeling. Complain if you want, doesn't matter, this is you feed and your journal, it's up to you to write how you feel like really. No one should judge that. If any specific questions, you can highlight the for other to answer. Just keep it simple and a good reflection time for yourself. Sometime I write a lot, not thinking what someone else would think because it's for me, and it helps to unlock mental doors. No point to come here everyday and just say, no pmo, I am good etc. I have done it many times, doesn't really help. Just good for the counter but really doesn't make the difference. It's our own therapy for getting better. You can use PM too if you like private discussion. Can chat live also I think. There plenty of app for that without disclosing any private info and identity.
Lots of stuff you can do :) I am sure you know it but just wanted to remind you the path!

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 06, 2017, 06:00:14 PM »
Cheers buddy! Yea four times a week is pretty intense too ;)

I guess this is the moment to not think about you being an addict but really seeing yourself as a person who doesn't need porn at all. I think this where it is a fine line between struggling to NOT DO something and just DO SOMETHING else. Hard but important.
Otherwise I am pretty sure that giving enough time, the emotional moment will pass too. :)

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 02, 2017, 09:21:56 PM »
Hi there,

yea I think it's a good moment to learn to control harsh emotions and stress for us. It will pass I know because I have had it too when I was on a long nofap period. do some pushups, it works ;)

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: March 01, 2017, 06:48:01 PM »
Congrats man, you are strong. And hey, yea maybe it's reboot emotions, or else it could be just and simply you really have other stuff to think about and it's quite stressing. Wherever it comes from, I hope for you it passes soon and you get a smooth transitioning to your new city :)
Stay in touch!

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 28, 2017, 08:48:15 PM »
day 9

Yeah...I keep myself quite busy. In a few weeks I will be moving into another city! I'm looking forward to it... at least a little. ^^
When I moved... prostitutes shouldn't be a problem anymore. I start new!
I start to feel a little better... I miss my orgasms already... but that's normal. I still don't know what I want in life, but I should be rebooting first. Maybe when my head get clearer I can make the right decisions! My archive meant everything to me... I took years to be completed... and now I feel kind of empty. This will be the first moments in my life without a porn-archive! I can't even remember how life is without artificial stimulation. Right now it feels boring... but of course... that's the ADDICTION! This addiction is kind a tough. When I first tried to get rid it, I woke up every night at 5 o' clock and couldn't get back to sleep again. I sweated! And I dreamed strange nonsense. It was 2 weeks without real sleep... man that was awful!

@Dave: Yep! I'll hang in there  8)
Hang in there buddy. It's confusing moment. I had mine, and still working on that. There are many ways to feel unfulfilled but it's the time and effort we need to put it our life that we didn't put before that is now important. Nothing is easy when it comes to learning important stuffs. Stay in touch

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 27, 2017, 07:09:13 PM »
Ok check! Hope you are in touch with yourself and dont slip. ;)

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 26, 2017, 08:12:04 PM »
Good job and thanks buddy! Yea I get it ;) I have stopped to take care well of myself over the last few days in a sense that I didn't cook much for myself, was more concerned with over aspects of my life. Now I am cool ! Cheers!

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 26, 2017, 01:05:09 AM »
day 5!

So good! I changed my workout a little...I mixed strength and cardio. To make it short I pushed myself a little...and now I can barely move! So even I COULD horny, I wouldn't be fapping...  :D But anger and my urges are easing up a little. Well except for part where I was staring at girls at the gym...  :-\ -_- oh boy...

Okay... I made it till here...I guess that's okay for a start. I wonder what tomorrow brings...

@ Dave:

thanks!   :)

Man I know what you mean. I realise I have spent more time thinking about girls over the last few days and even thought it felt like it was with "good" intensions, I realise now that it was a sneaky way of being obsessed again about girls. In the end, I relapsed, mainly because of alcohol. Now I am back on track again.
Hope you are doing well. And if not, you are taking care of yourself to be back on track.

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 23, 2017, 07:15:42 PM »
Hi Kevin,

Dude I think I was in the same mood a few days ago, my anger was to the roof. But luckily I know how to keep in check when I realise it. I just don't stay around anyone as much as I can and I go for a walk. It passes. And I realise that there is nothing that serious to making me so upset so I understand that's more of a physical thing, like during reboot. So I remember and I am more careful.

Wow, I have a good way to stay in reboot mode I think. True, when sometime we keep thinking over and over again, we better just say whatever it is, just stay out of the pmo or sex addiction. I think it's pretty nice this way, very straightforward.

Are you just looking for signs that you are rebooting? (flatline..) If yes, whatever the signs for now, you are definitely rebooting ;)

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 22, 2017, 06:57:55 PM »
Hi Kevin,

Ok cool. I will send message on your journal directly from time to time but will check how it is going everyday and read it daily.

I think the most important thing I didn't do before was to understand better what I wanted to achieve during this moment of reboot/recovery. What was the reasons I started all this. There will be always a point where you are not busy or don't know what to do with your day and you will be tempted. If you work on those reasons to change your life, it will make a difference I think.


Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 21, 2017, 06:43:39 PM »
The link to my journal should work here.

Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 21, 2017, 06:41:57 PM »
Hi Kevin,

Great job. Ok cool. You can find my journal as well from my profile I think. I will follow you everyday and you can contact me by PM as well if you wish to.
I think it will take a lot of different tools and tries and fails as well. So no worries about a particular tool. Just stay in the game all the time and never give up. It's a life long change, not a quick fix. I have learned that very well.


Ages 30-39 / Re: I need help!
« on: February 20, 2017, 07:55:36 PM »
Hi Kevin,

Welcome to the forum and congrats with your new step. Everything starts with this.
I have read attentively your story and I feel very connect to it too. I am looking for a buddy here since I came back. If you like, we can follow each other processes and give some help in times and advices. You can find my journal as well if you like to know me more before you decide.

Have a great day dude.


Ages 30-39 / Re: Anyone feel posessed?
« on: February 17, 2017, 09:36:04 PM »

Welcome to the forum. I have read your account. Well, have you considered a simple psychological stress? Maybe the first thing I would do is to talk to a professional to help understand how this started and understand the root of it. I would go with it first.

Take care,

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