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Ages 20-29 / Re: The Comedian's Reboot Journal
« on: May 23, 2014, 04:17:59 PM »
Okay... Newest update. It is a sad day, the last two days I had been having insane urges and I acted on them today. I pulled up still images on my phone and masturbated... Boy am I upset with myself, but I am trying to take something positive out of this relapse. I now know how easy it is to relapse and how careful I have to be. I also need to be aware how my brain can trick me, how it will give me any reason or excuse as long as it can get it's fix. It will not happen again... Thank you guys for the support and wish me luck, its hard to start again but I will push on.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Comedian's Reboot Journal
« on: May 17, 2014, 01:37:50 PM »
Day 13, so far so good. I have not watched porn or masturbated still and I'm feeling great! I'm just keeping super positive and focusing on the things I love. I've been playing a lot of music and going on walks, just enjoying myself. I have noticed not really any erections compared to normal which I generally have quite a few per day. I haven't had really any urges now either, which is awesome. I don't know if the lack of urges and no erections could be the start of my flatline but so far I feel really free. Wish me luck for the days to come.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Comedian's Reboot Journal
« on: May 11, 2014, 05:02:05 PM »
Day seven... Super strong urges today. Had to fight very very hard to not to masturbate. I was watching a movie and an intense sex scene came on. I had to immediately turn it off and go think about something else to take my mind off of it. After a while my urges went away, but at the time my brain was making excuses for why it would be okay even though I knew it would be breaking my reboot! Its interesting how you can trick yourself into stuff like that... but I fought myself and won today. It may only be day seven but I'm going to treat every day as a triumph.

Porn Addiction / Re: Question about being with a partner.
« on: May 10, 2014, 12:41:31 PM »
She knows everything already, I told her all about my reboot and she is incredibly supportive. So I think I won't focus on any one thing or goal with this encounter, and just go with the flow. She isn't going to be upset if I don't orgasm, or don't get hard or anything like that. Whether we just cuddle and kiss and what not, or if we have full blown sex I'll just let it happen. I won't force orgasm or use self stimulation to make penetration possible if its not. Just relax and enjoy each other, what ever that may entail.

Porn Addiction / Question about being with a partner.
« on: May 10, 2014, 10:56:58 AM »
As I stated yesterday in my question about video chatting, I am going to be meeting up with a long time friend in June. We are very close and are intensely sexually attracted to one another. Now doing research and reading people journals, most people say sex with a partner is helpful and generally necessary. My issue is at that time, I will only have been rebooting for a little over a month and am wondering if sex would be detrimental to my reboot at that point or helpful. Should orgasm be avoided? Though I know I may be in a flat line by that point anyway so sex may not even be an option at that point. Just wanted to get some opinions and personal experiences.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Comedian's Reboot Journal
« on: May 10, 2014, 10:42:41 AM »
Day six of no porn or masturbation. It still seems to be going well, no intense urges but I have definitely become aware just how much sex there is in the media. I just have to be aware, if I see something I find "sexually attractive" I look away and take deep breaths to clear my mind. TV has been another big one as well, there are a lot of shows and movies I have to avoid because of nudity and sexual content. It may not be hardcore but its porn. So far I don't feel to different though I have noticed I get really grumpy, when normally I am a very kind and gentle person. Also just to add some more detail as I stated before I have pied. I get erections quite frequently but they die down incredibly quick without stimulation and they usually are not full mast, maybe 50% to 75%. I always get erections in the morning as well, "Morning Wood" I guess and those usually stay for longer but once again not full mast. I just wanted to include that information so I could keep track of my improvements (or the opposite) in that department as well as mentally. My ultimate goal being normal arousal from a normal woman without any insane fantasies, as well as consistent full lasting erections without the need for constant stimulation.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Comedian's Reboot Journal
« on: May 10, 2014, 10:29:29 AM »
Thanks man, I really appreciate your encouragement!

Thanks very much Mart71 for such a quick reply, I think I am just looking for excuses to make it okay though I know it is dangerous water. I will just have to tell her I cannot participate anymore, at least not in that capacity. We will just have to wait till our real life encounter. I would still love to hear from everybody else to see what your views on this subject are, though I will just avoid this from now on. She asked if I thought it we shouldn't so I will as you say err on the side of caution.

Ages 20-29 / The Comedian's Reboot Journal
« on: May 09, 2014, 04:56:46 PM »
Hi everybody. I've known about porn addiction and pied for a little while now, and knew I needed to do something about my issue. I kept making excuses about why "now" wasn't a good time or I need to wait till "then". I'm done with that, I deserve a better life and breaking free from these porn induced chains will make it that much easier to better myself. I am 21, a virgin, not that any of my friends know that. I have been intimate with women before, I have just never done the deed. Why? Reasons upon reasons upon reasons I could list, but at the center of the issue I think most of my insecurities about sex stem from my pied and my porn addiction. I'm done letting that pull me down. I started my Reboot last Sunday (May 4, 2014) and so far I have not masturbated or watched porn since. I will keep this journal updated with my progress and I guess we shall see how I do. Wish me luck everybody, it feels very good to know I'm not alone.

I will probably add more detail about myself as my journal goes along.

I started my Reboot last Sunday (May 4th) and have not watched porn or masturbated since. So far it seems to be going well but I had a question for successful or experienced Rebooters. I have a best friend (an ex from high school) and we have recently rekindled our friendship and have grown very close. We are intensely attracted to each other sexually and are planning on getting together in June to attempt sex. I have informed her of my Reboot and what it entails and how I might feel by then and she is super supportive. We have been video chatting and things have gotten heated. We have discussed our intentions to each other when we have our encounter and what we would love to do, and have bared all but I'm wondering if this will set me back and if I should stop being sexual on video with her. I haven't masturbated but I have talked dirty to her and have seen her in the nude and have gotten very very aroused. Since we are talking about sex in real life and are going to meet in June do you think this is constructive or destructive? Should we just stop and wait till we are in person. Any advice or insight would be great.

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