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Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: May 13, 2015, 03:03:13 AM »
After 6 months of  battling P addiction I've decided to quit.
I wanted to increase my productivity, so I' ve decided to start fight P addiction,  but I have noticed that my productivity went down. Participating in rebootnation and reading profiles took a lot of time. More over, half of my brains was totally sex obsessed.
Now I am MO'ing or PMO'ing in the evening after hard working day. It is like a natural reward for me.  I am working hard during the day to receive a dose of dopamine in the evening.
I am doing that for a couple of weeks already.MO or PMO takes much less time  than participating in forum and reading profiles or different articles about P addiction. More over, my libido is very low so I can easily concentrate on task I am working on.
I am not saying that P is good. It is a monster. But I am spending 15 - 25 minutes a week (2- 3 times a week.), so it not time consuming and it is free way to relax. Just a little damage for my brains...:)))

Ages 20-29 / Re: Taha Journal 2
« on: April 11, 2015, 01:21:28 PM »
thanks shakrai and jnv. together we fight. thanks for that valuable information. I have read all 3 links. very informative. so I got a point from these links, sex does makes you weak. and you need time to recover from the loss. rats take 15 days to recover wow.

Wow! How much does it take for a man?

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: April 11, 2015, 01:20:20 PM »
After long time of helding the energy P is not very big issue for me I desire real intercorse more and I want it so bad... And I cant because I am married and I dont want to cheat so P is just a second choice. Lazy love with no cheating/

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: April 10, 2015, 03:08:22 PM »
, but I'm struggling with the fact that I get a full erection, but have problems maintaining it when it comes to sex. It's literally the moment before entering her vagina when the erection fails. I also noticed that I would be really horny and ready to enter her, but as soon as the genitals are about to touch, I lose all stamina.

I think it might because of stress not because of P. Dont You think so?

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: April 10, 2015, 03:04:47 PM »
newdam , masturbation will allow your sexual tension to reduce. it will make you calm. but as you said, it brings depression, which can lead you to Porn and it brings chaser effect too. I will suggest you to go cold turkey. NO PMO. but you have to decide yourself. do what you think is best for you. don't listen to any one. we can just suggest you.

I totally agree with You. M is very tricky and it maybe lead to P. So I will watch how it will work for me.
I've never had wet dream in my life, so M is the only way reduce sexual energy for me...

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: April 10, 2015, 02:48:03 PM »
Day 4

I relapsed 4 days ago. Then I starved 3 days (I mean, 1 good meal per day) and abstained from computer for the same period. This helped to come back on track. P is very powerful, I watch it once but it stays in my head and I feel huge tepmtation to watch it again. Thats why I have decided to starve (it helps to concentrate on my hunger not on P) and avoid PC (PC is a source of P).

How I relapsed?

It was the second day of the easter I was eating alot (including chocholate) I decided to relax and do something pleasent for myself, so I started watching movies on PC late in the evening. That leaded to even bigger "relax". I have decided to watch P. I was not able to overcome K9 internet filter on my PC, so I watched P on my smart phone...

Now I encrypted my phone and I dont know the password, so I cant even turn on my smart phone any more...:)
To make long story short: Overeating  ==> eating chocolate ==> PC used for bullshiting ==> watching P.
So it is obvious that out of my 10 rules only 3 is important:
1. No overeating:
2. No sweets.
3. PC only for work and education (and rebootnation).

After the relapse I've decided to allow M, but with some restrictions. I will reward my-self with M everytime I reach my goal on the counter (every 7 days). I will do it without any fantasies and only in evening, so I could avoid depresion that is the side affect of M.

To sum up, no sweets (of any kind) and overeating from now on but M every 7 days.:)


Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: April 10, 2015, 02:03:34 PM »
First of all, thank You for Your support.
I dont have sex with my wife because she is pregnant and her libido is more than low and I am not the kind of person who would force or would try to convince pregnant women to have sex...

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: April 06, 2015, 12:39:04 AM »
I reached easter without a reset!  :)
I am really happy about that!!:)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Reboot attempt #2
« on: April 06, 2015, 12:33:22 AM »
1 week is great! You are already very strong. Try to do 8 days. Next time 9... One little baby step sometimes can be a huge leap.:)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Taha Journal 2
« on: April 06, 2015, 12:30:29 AM »
Don't think about failure, think about your goal.:)
May be you can post your main triggers, so the guys who had the similar situation could share how they dealed with that (maybe you've written in your last journal but it would be great to write it here too.).
Keep the way, bro!:)

Hey man,

how are You? You havn't  posted for a long time, but you are reseting Your counter!
Please write how are you! I think it would be better for You.
It seems for me that you are blaming yourself and you think that everybody will blame you as well. But we are here to support You! Because we care and we ubderstand. We all are in the same shit.
So come back and let us know how is your situation.

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: April 04, 2015, 04:52:56 AM »
Hey bro,

how are You? Long since we've heard something from You.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Taha Journal 2
« on: April 04, 2015, 04:51:20 AM »
First of all, welcome to your new start. We are all here to support You!!!

You are stronger when that monster inside You!!! You are strong enough to run away every time you feel trigerred!!! Believe in that and it will be true.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: April 04, 2015, 04:39:26 AM »
Day 35

21 day without M it is my personal best in rebootnation community!!!
My libido went down and I don't have boners so often anymore. Now I have temptation to watch P or M not because of sexual desire. I want to cheer myself. In scientific words, I seek dopamine to get feeling of natural reward. The feeling of arosal tempts me more than O.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: March 31, 2015, 08:18:35 AM »
Day 31

Congrats!!! More when a month without P! I rule!!:)


I don't want to look like a pride seeker. But I am proud about myself!:))

Regarding masturbation:
After 2 weeks of M free period my libido went down and I don't feel like a sex maniac any more. Nevertheless, whithout a pressure a don't feel my addiction so much, so it might be even harder for me to avoid the relapse.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Taha Journal
« on: March 31, 2015, 08:08:06 AM »
In that case, you should spend the next precious hours finding ways to make access to porn harder. Install filters, K9, find harder to remember passwords, etc... so that you do not fall in the same trap next time.

Whenever you fail, it means that access to porn material was still too easy and you have to put more  things that will help you between porn and you.

Stay strong

I totally agree K9 is a great tool that helps to reboot. At least for me...I used my wifes email to register it + only she knows the password. During many years of the fight I tuned up K9 in the best way that suits for me.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Reboot attempt #2
« on: March 31, 2015, 07:59:08 AM »
@NoPMO4Love, sorry to hear about Your mom. I bet your situation requires a lot of courage...
Have you ever considered blocking facebook and open image search on your computer?

Ages 20-29 / Re: noises1990, relapsed, now back on track
« on: March 31, 2015, 07:50:11 AM »
It is nice idea to spend less time in facebook and more time in the real world. Thumbs up!

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: March 28, 2015, 10:44:44 AM »
Yes sometimes it maybe necessary to release the energy? Do you have any side effect MO'ing?

On a side note, I got a great blow job yesterday. At first I was a bit anxious, because I wasn't sure if my ED would hinder me from getting an erection. In any case, once I got used to the sensation and started to relax, I had no problem keeping it up :D

It is even better way release energy.:)

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: March 28, 2015, 10:41:35 AM »
Updated penalties for bad actions:

Gladly, I have been following your progress all the time, otherwise I would think that your penalties may be a bit extreme!! However, I understand that you have found a great way to control your urges.

Keep up the good work!

Yes, I found these rules really useful for me. I haven't starved for 3 days yet. ;)  And I hope I won't. :) To starve 1 day is even healthy (As I would do for M), if You are not starvinf everyday.:)
Thanks for Your support MioMio/

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: March 28, 2015, 10:35:20 AM »
72 hour starve ?

come on !
don't be silly.

don't touch extremes !
you are taking too hard.
that is a very wrong strategy.

Food is essential.
that can bring serious consequences.
don't do that please.

By saying starve I mean, that I will consume from 500 to 800 calories per day. Just one good meal in the evening, so I could feel hunger all day...
This insane rules works perfectly for me. Since I introduced them I haven't watched P and I M'ed only once, thou I real want to relapse. These rules make me think about consequences before I relapse.
I always feel shame and depression before the relapse, but this shitty feeling never stopped me before the relapse.
I agree that it might look insane, but commitment without obligation is nothing for me.
Anyway we all have same goal, but we achieve it different ways.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: March 26, 2015, 03:10:25 PM »
Updated penalties for bad actions:

1.  For P I won’t use PC and starve for 72 hours (reset P counter).
2.  For P subs I won't use computer for 72 hours and starve for 24 hours (reset P counter).
3.  For M I won’t use PC and starve for 24 hours (reset M counter).
4.  For trying to bypass web filter (even unsuccessfully) or for other unsuccessful attempts to watch P 24 hours abstaining from PC.
5.  For any bullshiting in front of PC, I won't use computer for 2 x bullshiting time + for every minute 4 push - ups or 1 pull - up or 3 one leg squads.
6.  For eating chocolate no PC after eating till the end of day + no food till the end of the day.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 20+ years of addiction. Searching for a new life
« on: March 26, 2015, 02:55:28 PM »
congrats on 25 days completion.

25 percent done.
100 day isn't far any more.

Thanks for Your support.:) Even one month would be great for me. 100 days sounds like impossible, so I am not thinking about that much.:)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Reboot attempt #2
« on: March 26, 2015, 02:48:29 PM »
Good PMO

I think it is absolutely normal to be atracted to real sexy women. That's waht wa are seeking here.:)

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: March 26, 2015, 02:45:47 PM »
Yes sometimes it maybe necessary to release the energy? Do you have any side effect MO'ing?

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