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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: July 12, 2020, 05:49:38 AM »
I am porn free now for 162 days. It feels good. My roommate is now my best friend. Instead of hiding out in my room we talk to each other, drink and smoke together, and sometimes go on road trips. Yesterday I bought two large porterhouse steaks and early this morning I made a big bowl of potato salad to eat with the steaks. We will feast like kings this afternoon. I would not have had the money to do this when every penny I had was spent on cam girls. This was a secret so I had to avoid people, my eyes downcast, my shoulders slumped, defeated. I am free from that now; I look people in the eye, I care about them, I have overcome Satan's defeat.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: July 07, 2020, 02:46:38 AM »
I am free from porn now for 157 days. Going for 200 and then 365. I am going to work this morning, normally I would be surfing porn before work but this morning I am watching movies on Amazon Prime, no temptation to look at porn. Once I read "Your Brain on Porn" it just showed me how much damage it was doing and I made the conscious decision not to look at porn and am doing very well with that.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: June 27, 2020, 02:31:02 AM »
Freedom from porn now for 145 days.  am watching Sandra Bullock and Julia Roberts movies on Amazon Prime now. I have a good day ahead of me today (Saturday). My laundry is almost done, I have an appointment at 7:20 am to get my hair cut, grocery shopping after that and then lanterns after that. It is so nice to have extra money. I don't have to worry about how much I spend on gas and groceries, I can buy another lantern once a week, and still have money to put in savings. I don't have any idea how many thousands of dollars I spent on cam girls.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: June 06, 2020, 05:40:01 AM »
I am free from porn now for 126 days. I did my laundry this morning, about to go grocery shopping. I am spending the rest of the day working on Coleman lanterns.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: May 15, 2020, 04:57:35 AM »
I am free from porn now for over 9 million seconds. I believe the internet is the great harlot spoken of in Revelation 17. Porn is an abomination to God, especially anal sex. It is amazing how far into porn I had sunk, wasting hours per day and thousands of dollars. I feel better about myself now, enjoy the little things more. I nice sunny day and the trees turning green and the freshly mowed yard all touch my heart now where before if I was not looking at porn I felt bored and useless. I believe a person needs some form of higher power to permanently overcome porn. I basically had to soften my hard heart and only God could do that for me. I know if I was relying on my own intelligence to quit porn I would not be able to do it.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: May 12, 2020, 01:25:49 AM »
101 days free from porn now, no temptation to look at porn. I am up early reading my forums and facebook, probablly will watch some "Shooter" before going to work.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: May 08, 2020, 01:50:02 AM »
97 days porn free. I am off work with pay today due to COVID-19. I am moving a couch today with help from a friend. I plan on doing my laundry and grocery shopping today as well then the rest of the weekend if free time. I plan on getting out my wood lathe and turn a handle for a mallet. I think working on projects like this makes it less likely for me to look at porn; it gives me a place to focus my energy instead of looking at porn.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: May 03, 2020, 04:04:59 AM »
I am free now for 92 days. Plan on hitting the 100 day mark soon. I am cooking this morning probably at 6 am. I sm eorking on a gas lamp today, replacing the packing both in the valve and the tip cleaner. It should be a good day.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: May 01, 2020, 05:47:31 AM »
Today is my 90 days mark. I worked 9 hours yesterday and came home, drank a beer and a double of whiskey while chatting with a friend, ate dinner and went to bed at 7:30 pm. I woke up at 11:30 pm wide awake. I figured I would burn down the web for a few hours then go back to bed. Those wee hours of the morning would normally have been spent looking at porn but today there was no temptation. Possibly because I am old now, 52 years old, and not as virile. Possibly because I am no longer addicted to porn because I have been mostly off it now for six months. We have Fridays off now with pay due to COVID-19. I worked 47 hours in 4 days and today I get paid for doing my laundry; it is done, folded and put away at 6:43 am. I will go out and about with a mask today to the grocery store etc.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 28, 2020, 01:55:07 AM »
87 days free from porn now. I have not spent a dime on cam girls in almost three months now; another 3 days it will be 90 days. I am up early and getting ready to go to work.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 23, 2020, 08:11:13 PM »
Thanks for the response. I am 82 days free from porn now. Tonight I am drinking Black Velvet whiskey, staying up all night and setting fire to the internet. I have tomorrow off and can sleep tomorrow. Paid for sleeping is appealing to me. Hopefully I will avoid slipping over to the cam girls. Will let you know tomorrow when I wake up.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 22, 2020, 02:34:51 AM »
Thano you for the response. I am 81 day free from porn now. I am getting ready to go to work; no quarantine for me unfortunately. I get Fridays off with pay so only 4 day weeks. I bought a mini lathe with my stimulus money so hope to turn some wood this weekend. I hope to make some goulash this weekend which is a first for me, looking for recipes on cooks.com.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 18, 2020, 04:40:00 AM »
77 days free from porn now. I plan on cooking today, I have new sheets to put on my bed and I set up my new coffee pot. I will probably work on a lantern and I am watching "Shooter"on Netflix. No temptation to look at porn.

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Partners of Rebooters and Addicts / Re: After a year...
« on: April 18, 2020, 04:34:53 AM »
28% of men are addicted to porn. If you have porn induced erectile dysfunction (PIED) it can take up to a year or more for the function to come back after quitting porn. He has to want to quit; you can't make him. Men just get better at hiding their porn use. The book "Your Brain on Porn" was suggested, it is very good and available as a digital download. Reading this book helped me quit porn because I understood what it was doing to my brain.

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Partners of Rebooters and Addicts / Re: Help me
« on: April 18, 2020, 04:22:56 AM »
What country do you live in? Here in the USA it is not too hard to get help from a doctor for depression. Your doctor can refer you to a psychiatrist and they will give you medication. The medication may not work at first, you have to give it time, and if it still does not work after a month then try a different medication.

You have to be careful having sex in real life during a reboot. It can be a trigger to go back to porn. Porn will be a temptation your whole life you just have to learn how to overcome the temptation. If you can have sex in real life and not go back to porn then you are okay.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 16, 2020, 08:44:24 PM »
Thank you for responding. I got my stimulus money yesterday, over a thousand dollars in the bank. I am buying a mini lathe with some of it but I still have a lot of money in the bank. We have an extra day off tomorrow with pay so the trick will be not to spend money on cam girls. I am 75 days free from porn now. I lost all my meds when vinegar leaked into my med drawer. I am working on replacing them now but it will probably be a couple days or sometime next week. A perfect storm; no meds, money in the bank, and lots of free time. If you pray, please say a prayer for me.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 10, 2020, 03:48:49 AM »
Freedom from porn for 69 days now. We are getting Fridays off with pay now so I have extra time at home alone. I have a very big book to read called "Things to Come" by J Dwight Pentecost. It will keep me occupied so I will not look at porn. I am going to buy a couple steaks today and tomorrow I make potato salad so my roommate and I will have a great dinner. In the past I would have spent all my money on cam girls and would not have been able to afford a good dinner.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: April 04, 2020, 03:15:50 AM »
I am porn free for 63 days now. Yesterday was a good day, sat out in the garage with my roommate. We had cigars and some black velvet. The quarantine is getting too me. I am still working but not being able to get out and socialize on the weekends is a trigger for me. Right now the cam girls are not a temptation for me but I am concerned because I have a lot of money right now and it would be so easy to just spend $20. On the other hand I know the guilt that would follow, having to restart my counter, admitting my failure here, and I think I will just play with my Coleman lanterns instead.

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I am a male, age 52, divorced. I was first introduced to porn at age 13. I did not realize it for years but I was addicted to the dopamine rush. I am Christian so I tried to resist it but no luck. Once high speed internet came I was seriously addicted. It really affected my marriage, distancing me from my wife because of feelings of guilt. Lack of communication, no hugging, a hardened heart, etc. Addiction to porn affects your relationship with everyone, not just your wife. It has been 57 days now since I have looked at porn and I have only looked at a little bit twice in the last 6 months. I used to look at porn for several hours every day. I am not addicted any more but still will struggle with occasionally. So far as your question goes yes I do consider it cheating. Any sexual outlet besides sex with your partner is cheating. I suggest meeting with a third party such as a therapist or pastor to discuss this with your husband with a monitor present to make things fair. It will also tend to be more of a discussion rather than a fight. An addiction to porn can be overcome and eventually will greatly improve your marriage.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: March 26, 2020, 08:45:35 PM »
I am 54 days free from porn now. I fell asleep in my recliner in front of the TV about 5:30 and woke up at 8:30. I think I will stay up the rest of the night and watch Netflix. I had a really good week at work this week and am looking forward to the weekend.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: March 07, 2020, 09:02:08 PM »
I am 35 days fee from porn now. I am enjoying life immensely. I say 35 days fee from porn but it is really more like 6 months. In the past 6 months I have looked at 2 little bits of porn, as opposed to looking at porn every night. This has made a tremendous difference in my dopamine levels and thus my enjoyment of life.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: February 29, 2020, 06:33:54 AM »
On Februaty 1 I looked at a little porn. I was not going to reset my counter because it wad such a small relapse but I decided to anyway so now I am 29 days free from porn. I have not spent any of my tax refund on porn. I feel pretty good today, no temptation to look at porn.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: February 18, 2020, 06:00:27 AM »
I am 170 days free from porn now. Things are going well, I am not tempted much to look at porn. Whenever I am tempted I log in here snd read some of the journals and the temptation goes away.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: February 15, 2020, 08:02:26 AM »
Thank you for the kind words. I am 167 days porn free now. I could not do this without help from a higher power. My higher power is the Biblical God. I am not quitting on my own, I have His help. I will receive $1000 tax refund on the 20th and then will be the true test wwhether I can resist the cam girls or not.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Exodus
« on: February 08, 2020, 03:41:08 AM »
I am clean for 160 days now. Today i have a bunch of chores and in the afternoon am going to a coin store with my room mate.

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