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Ages 20-29 / Re: I want to discover who I really am.
« on: July 18, 2018, 09:10:49 PM »
It has been one month since I started the rebooting process, one month of learning about my brain and about myself. On the way, I realized that acquiring knowledge gives you a huge advantage over yourself.

I have had my ups and downs, these past three weeks I lost track of the time and put my recovering situation in a second place. That lead me to relapse again, and today, I got to say something for myself. This is the most important decision in your life, no matter if you get a new job, or if you are away from home, even if you go on a trip for vacation. If you want to be real and present you got to remember that FAP and porn (or any kind of video that acts as a trigger) is just a way to scape the reality while you cheat yourself. With that in mind, look ahead and keep moving.

This is Jhon, I joined the reboot nation 30 days ago.

Days without porn (or any kind of video that acts as a trigger):2

Days without masturbation: 2

It is going to be a long walk, but I am not giving up. And I hope if you read this do not give up, there is going to be a new life on the other side.

Ages 20-29 / Re: I want to discover who I really am.
« on: July 04, 2018, 12:38:45 AM »
Hi Guys,

Starting over. I had a disappointment in my relationship today. I fought for a day until I found myself awake in the middle of the night thinking about how to get a taste of dopamine to help me through it. I do not want to run away from pain and disappointments anymore, I want to stay a face it. However, I could see an improvement in my social life on those 20 days of rebooting.

Days without porn 0 and counting.
Days without masturbating 0 and counting.

Ages 20-29 / Re: I want to discover who I really am.
« on: June 29, 2018, 08:45:21 AM »
Hy guys.

Today is the day 15. The last two days have been full of internal fights. I have stayed stand for 14 days without masturbating, but today I did it. Despite the fact that I did not watch porn, the trigger was a video on youtube. I am still counting today as a victory because I learned something very important about my brain that I can share. When I do not have enough sleep the desire seems to be bigger. To be honest, the desire was not extremely uncontrollable, but I felt that my brain was not working.
I have been reading some articles that show that a lack of sleep decrease or decision-making and problem-solving capacity. That is how I felt this morning, I did not organize my time last night and I was working on the computer until late. I had to wake up early today, and I did it, but the desire of fapping was bigger and my brain was in zombie-mode and had no "thinking" to simply say no.

For whoever reads this, good sleep could be a key point in rebooting, do not give up. Understanding the way your brain works gives you an advantage over it.

Days without porn 15 and counting.
Days without masturbating 0 and counting.

Ages 20-29 / I want to discover who I really am.
« on: June 18, 2018, 11:55:27 AM »
Hi everybody.

I have been addicted to porn since I was kid, I do not remember how old I was, but I remember fantasying and masturbating with photos of models. I had a magazine that I kept hidden for few years. It some sort of sport magazine, but that was a start. Linger catalogs, and underwear shows were part of my daily trigger. I even used to wake up early to watch Fashion TV channel in order to satisfy my desire. Now I am 29, I am married and I want my life back. I want to be a man, a man who can face pain and disappointment with out having to see porn or naked women to fill myself.

So, today Monday 18 June 2018. I start this journey and I do not want to go back.

4 without porn.


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