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Ages 40 and up / Re: Introductions and story
« on: January 09, 2018, 01:54:16 PM »
Thank you Adam, that explains a lot! Jittery and anxiety to the max. It's like I cant sit still. Thinking is also tough, I feel confused often, go into a room and cant remember why or what I was getting.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Introductions and story
« on: January 09, 2018, 06:25:04 AM »
Can anyone tell me about withdrawal issues. I feel real jittery and on edge.   

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Partners of Rebooters and Addicts / A mans way to say sorry
« on: January 05, 2018, 07:32:46 AM »
I am a 61 year old male. I have been addicted to porn for twenty years. This past year it took complete control of my life. I could not figure out what was going on. I was always moody, I pushed my wife and friends away. Then in a moment of clarity I admitted it to myself. I went online to gather information, I was stunned, I had no idea. I told my wife. She was devastated, she had worked so hard for years trying to figure out my ED. I found a forum for woman to share their stories on how this impacts them. It was the lowest moment of my life. To see the hurt and anger that I have caused to the person I loved so much. Our relationship was loving and caring, there was nothing in me that would have ever hurt her and yet I had crushed her.

She could not handle it and has divorced me.

I share this because some men will see the hurt, the betrayal, the lies. They will see the damage done. If they do and if they can heal you might  have a man that spends the rest of his life making it up to you. You might have a man that finally lives to his full potential. You might have a relationship that goes to a level you never have seen before.

As it is I will just say,,I am sorry, I am sorry.




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Women / A mans way to say sorry
« on: January 05, 2018, 07:14:47 AM »
I'm a 61 year old man, I have been a porn addict for 20 years. It effected all aspects of my life.
When I finally acknowledged my addiction I went online to start gathering information,,,I was blown away, I had no idea. I told my wife. She had spent years trying to figure out my ED. I found a forum for woman to share their stories, it was a devastating moment, to see the hurt I caused the  person that I loved so much. I have  spent our 10 years together loving and caring for her. There was nothing in me that could have ever have caused her to suffer, I loved her that much.

She is devastated and she has divorced me. My heart is broken at the loss this has caused me. I had no idea.

I write this now to acknowledge what I have done and to share with you that some men will truly see the hurt this causes, they will see.  And if  you and they can heal, if you can believe again, they might spend the rest of their lives making it up to you. To live to their full potential to love and care for you at a level you never had.

I am sorry,,I am sorry

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Introductions and story
« on: January 05, 2018, 05:29:22 AM »
I have come to realize that porn was my drug of choice. I have also come to understand that stopping porn is only part of addressing the issue for me. I realize that I need to dig deep and look at why I ever needed it to begin with.

I wonder at the life that might be,,,,
I wonder how to let go of the life behind.
Right now it hurts to not have this way to blunt my feelings.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Who do i want to be
« on: January 04, 2018, 01:38:32 PM »
I also just started,,,had no idea what this really was. I reached a point at the end of summer that 1) Wife wanted a divorce  2) My business was not doing well.
3) worse shape of my life.

hope I can do it.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: **Accountability Partner Requests**
« on: January 04, 2018, 09:29:08 AM »
Hello
I am a 61 year old who is just starting my re-boot. I just came to grips with this about a week ago so feel overwhelmed by most of it. I think it might be helpful to have a friend here to help keep me honest.

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Ages 40 and up / Re: Introductions and story
« on: January 04, 2018, 08:52:06 AM »
One of the hardest parts was telling my wife, I had never hurt her and I crumbled at her pain. That night I went online to see about porn addiction.I was blown away,,, I had no idea of the consensuses. The hardest part was reading a blog for woman to share their stories. I was devastated at what I had done.

For me it was hours everyday. It was consuming me. I just stopped caring about things and would plan my day around porn. The sex had to be farther out there and more of it.

I've told a few friends just to help keep me honest.

Right now I feel like I'm at the lowest point, lots of crying. Almost feels like a 24/7 anxiety attack.

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Ages 40 and up / Introductions and story
« on: January 04, 2018, 08:26:45 AM »
Hello
My name is Greg. I am 61 and am just starting my journey to a better life. Porn has taken over and ruled my life for many years. It came to a head this summer when I completely withdrew from my wife and my friends. I couldn't figure it out. I had lost all motivation, my passion for the things I like to do dropped away. I stopped even trying to have sex with my wife. My penis was always sore and I had no libido. I was in the worse shape of my life. Lots of anxiety, moody and unhappy.

My wife spent ten years of counseling,doctors ect trying to find out what was wrong (ED). And I sat there with part of me knowing but unable-unwilling to say it.
My wife has divorced me so I have the double whammy of that loss at the same time as tackling this addiction. I have a sex therapy counselor and have just started last week.

I'm looking for advise and maybe a partner to go though this with.
What am I in for??? Does it really get better??

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