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Title: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 17, 2019, 05:46:14 AM
Hello i am 21 years old.
I started watching porn when i am 15. I am not able to focus on my study after one year of heavy addiction.
Past three years i am trying to leave it . but today i am relapsed . i am relapsed 103 times in 2019.
Its a hudge number. Doing single mistake 103 times is very bad thing. This shows that i don't want to reboot .
But today i am writing this new journal to play a final reboot. I know that every relapse don't reach you to 0. But its dangerous that to relapsing when you know everything about this shit.
So my friends from 4 pm of 17th august i start my final reboot journal.
Day 0
Just relapsed. Feeling very guilty. Very depressed. I don't want to go out of home.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 17, 2019, 10:04:46 PM
Day 1
Completed day 0 successfully. And today is day 1. Day one is really important day.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 17, 2019, 11:20:59 PM
Years passed and i don't recognized that .
I wasted so much time on this. Now its a final reboot . its the time to leave this completely. This is the time to achieve success.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 18, 2019, 11:18:53 PM
Day 2
Completed day 1. Foggy head from morning. Yesterday night is hard for me. Very strong urges i defeated yesterday. If i try it then i should do it.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 19, 2019, 09:43:48 AM
There is no end without the beginning.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 19, 2019, 12:38:23 PM
Yes lero. I never forget you bro. You motivated me when i am in dark.
Feeling so stressed in common things of life. Unable to take decision.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 19, 2019, 12:45:32 PM
Yes lero. I never forget you bro. You motivated me when i am in dark.
Feeling so stressed in common things of life. Unable to take decision.

What I'm trying to say is that, even if 2 days doesn't seem too much, it's the beginning and without a beginning there is no end (of addiction).
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 19, 2019, 12:53:59 PM
You need to understand that this recovery is a process and it might take some time. It's taken me a few years to get to this point where I could go a month without porn. A few years while I knew that I was addicted to porn and I still could figure out a way to stay clean. Patience is very important here. Everbody is tired of porn and wants to start the reboot today and never relapse again but it doesn't always work like this. We might even "need" to relapse a few times until things start working. Every relapse teaches us something and we have to pay attention. How do we relapse and why?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 19, 2019, 02:06:08 PM
Yes you are right.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 19, 2019, 09:53:14 PM
Day 3
Completed exercise. Yesterday night i have urge And headache . but i focused on my goal. And see i am at day 3 today. This is my fastest recovery as compared to past relapae.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 20, 2019, 04:25:53 AM
Every addiction has withdrawal. We wish it wasn't the case but there is nothing we could do about it. When you are an addict, in order to quit you have to go throw withdrawal. Withdrawal is suffering, for a period of time, but it's a short period of time in your life in comparison to the rest of your life you have ahead. You suffer now for a number of months and then live the next 40, 50, 60 years to the fullest or keep being a porn addict until you die and live the rest of your years as an apathetic, lifeless zombie. Which one do you want to choose? Discovering at an young age that we are porn addicts is a great thing that happens to us. Other people have discovered about their addiction in their 40s, think about it, we have more years ahead of us and we have the chance to quit now and have a different life in our 40s. The one who accepts his withdrawal suffering until it's gone is the one who will become free. The rest will stay slaves. If you resign in front of your suffering, it will keep you a slave all your life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 20, 2019, 11:34:06 PM
Every addiction has withdrawal. We wish it wasn't the case but there is nothing we could do about it. When you are an addict, in order to quit you have to go throw withdrawal. Withdrawal is suffering, for a period of time, but it's a short period of time in your life in comparison to the rest of your life you have ahead. You suffer now for a number of months and then live the next 40, 50, 60 years to the fullest or keep being a porn addict until you die and live the rest of your years as an apathetic, lifeless zombie. Which one do you want to choose? Discovering at an young age that we are porn addicts is a great thing that happens to us. Other people have discovered about their addiction in their 40s, think about it, we have more years ahead of us and we have the chance to quit now and have a different life in our 40s. The one who accepts his withdrawal suffering until it's gone is the one who will become free. The rest will stay slaves. If you resign in front of your suffering, it will keep you a slave all your life.
You are absolutely right lero.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 20, 2019, 11:38:02 PM
Day 4
completed morning exercise. defeating porn urges from day  1 of reboot. and withdrawals also so stressful. but as lero said if i did reboot for couple of months till withdrawals fully gone then i should be free for my whole life. so this 3-4 months trouble is nothing in front of my whole life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 21, 2019, 03:38:44 AM
Day 4
completed morning exercise. defeating porn urges from day  1 of reboot. and withdrawals also so stressful. but as lero said if i did reboot for couple of months till withdrawals fully gone then i should be free for my whole life. so this 3-4 months trouble is nothing in front of my whole life.

That's right. That's the attitude. Endure the withdrawal now and the rest of your life will be free.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 21, 2019, 03:51:58 AM
Day 4
completed morning exercise. defeating porn urges from day  1 of reboot. and withdrawals also so stressful. but as lero said if i did reboot for couple of months till withdrawals fully gone then i should be free for my whole life. so this 3-4 months trouble is nothing in front of my whole life.

That's right. That's the attitude. Endure the withdrawal now and the rest of your life will be free.
yes lero
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 21, 2019, 10:15:44 PM
Day 5
Completed my daily exercise. Urges level decreased. Feeling well.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 22, 2019, 01:56:52 AM
Day 5
Completed my daily exercise. Urges level decreased. Feeling well.

Good. This is a good start. Exercise helps.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 23, 2019, 03:31:31 AM
Thanks lero.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 23, 2019, 03:39:49 AM
Day 6
Just 1 day left. To complete 1 week.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 23, 2019, 04:24:31 AM
Day 6
Just 1 day left. To complete 1 week.

Good. Almost 1 week already.  ;)
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 24, 2019, 11:53:08 AM
Completed day 7 also.
Now my main aim is to complete 14 days.
So i going. The rebooters who are reading my journal keep in mind that your mind also want porn when you take your mobile in your hand. But that time just think that what would be changed in 7 or 21 days reboot. Everything changes . Porn really badly affects ourselves .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 24, 2019, 10:42:11 PM
Day 8
Today completed exercise. One wd today. Now my goal is to complete 15 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 27, 2019, 05:53:29 AM
Day 10 At august 27th
Mood swings are horrible. Want to get rid of this all.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 27, 2019, 02:13:01 PM
August 27
Relapsed one time. Day 0 for. Done mistake again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 27, 2019, 09:45:51 PM
Day 1 at August 28
relapsed.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 01:20:32 AM
Day 0
Relapsed at morning today. I relapsed because i seen one porn clip on social media. And also masturbated .but i am starting again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 01:35:25 AM
One more time i relapsed
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 01:55:32 AM
from 12 pm today  i started reboot.
so i count it as day0
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on August 28, 2019, 03:31:01 AM
What happened?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 04:23:11 AM
What happened?
An old urge so strong and i relapsed yesterday night.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 04:25:44 AM
Years on years are going and i am not changed yet. I ashamed of me. Leaved this addiction today.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on August 28, 2019, 04:35:54 AM
Don't worry because relapses happens man.
Try to learn from this urges and the next time replace the pmo o mo for exercise or go for a walk or cooking or take a ball and try basket or something to keep active and calm that anxiety. Learn from fails are important.

Start again and again, don't give up, you will overcome this shit
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 06:16:49 AM
Don't worry because relapses happens man.
Try to learn from this urges and the next time replace the pmo o mo for exercise or go for a walk or cooking or take a ball and try basket or something to keep active and calm that anxiety. Learn from fails are important.

Start again and again, don't give up, you will overcome this shit
Yes man. I can .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 06:18:53 AM
I did relapse. Relapse is not happened. I did it. So i punished for it. I have no gf. Still virgin. No success. No friends. So again i can't relapse. Because nature also punish me if i do some wrong things.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 28, 2019, 08:07:20 AM
Relapsed again at evening
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 29, 2019, 12:15:21 AM
Day 1 at 29 August
Doing it again. Started again. Want to change my life again. Rebooting again. In past 6 years reboot is most important part of my life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 29, 2019, 09:52:59 AM
Completed this day.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 29, 2019, 01:49:19 PM
Its not done fapped again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 29, 2019, 01:57:55 PM
Day 0 at august 29
Relapsed again. Today i funded reason why i am relapsing when i know all reasons of reboot. Why i am relapsing. The answer is i am responding to urges so fast. So quickly i relapse. So quickly i change my mood to see porn.
Hey rebooters here i am sinking in this addiction please if you know the reason of frequently relapsing please tell me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 29, 2019, 02:23:32 PM
Day 0 at august 29
Relapsed again. Today i funded reason why i am relapsing when i know all reasons of reboot. Why i am relapsing. The answer is i am responding to urges so fast. So quickly i relapse. So quickly i change my mood to see porn.
Hey rebooters here i am sinking in this addiction please if you know the reason of frequently relapsing please tell me.

You just answered a question: "The answer is I am responding to urges so fast." Wait and do nothing. It's going to hurt. Rejecting the impulse to PMO is brutal. But only through suffering we will quit this addiction. There is no other alternative where everything is a breeze. I wish it was that simple. Only those who want to accept the fact that they will suffer, will be the ones who will make it out of this. It's hard but not impossible. It's possible but with pain.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 29, 2019, 10:09:40 PM
Day 0 at august 29
Relapsed again. Today i funded reason why i am relapsing when i know all reasons of reboot. Why i am relapsing. The answer is i am responding to urges so fast. So quickly i relapse. So quickly i change my mood to see porn.
Hey rebooters here i am sinking in this addiction please if you know the reason of frequently relapsing please tell me.

You just answered a question: "The answer is I am responding to urges so fast." Wait and do nothing. It's going to hurt. Rejecting the impulse to PMO is brutal. But only through suffering we will quit this addiction. There is no other alternative where everything is a breeze. I wish it was that simple. Only those who want to accept the fact that they will suffer, will be the ones who will make it out of this. It's hard but not impossible. It's possible but with pain.
Yes you are correct
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 29, 2019, 10:10:37 PM
Day 1
Started it again. Ready for pain. Ready for urges. Ready to fight again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 30, 2019, 06:20:47 AM
Completion of first day. Today's night is challenge for me.
I wasted my 6 years of life. I did wrong with me. I want to reboot now. I want to be rebooted.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 30, 2019, 06:26:59 AM
I want to ask you a question. Do you read other journals?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Capitan America on August 31, 2019, 04:06:10 AM
You know , you dont have to blame yourself so much.
 I also couldn't beat this addiction for 4 years. I am also 21.
Today i have 31 pmo free. I just wanna say be strong , you are not the only one who is fighting!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on August 31, 2019, 06:37:10 AM
Completion of first day. Today's night is challenge for me.
I wasted my 6 years of life. I did wrong with me. I want to reboot now. I want to be rebooted.

You only wasted 6 years…what about guys like me who wasted 30?
Try to learn from journals here. Try to understand dopamine. There's a lot of info, videos and audios in the archive of yourbrainonporn.com (click and check it out here in the menu section)
Everybody here is fighting, you're not the only one, but please, before you relapse, read our advices, calm your urges with exercise or go out to see a movie to the cinema, go out to the park and take a walk or just read a book in the park, cook…keep your mind busy in other things. Doing this will replace time dedicated to PMO or MO with healthy habits. Try them
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 31, 2019, 10:10:34 AM
Yes you all. Thanks for responding and encouraging me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 31, 2019, 01:58:47 PM
Relapsed again. Why i don't know. But responded to urge . i seen porn movies of various types for hours. And i relapsed today. Tomorrow is day 1 for me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 31, 2019, 02:16:17 PM
I relapsed 168 times in this year .
I can't believe that.
Today i counted that.
Its so horrible.
God help me.
I decided to quit 168 times. And i failed.
Its indicating that how big problem is this. And where my time is stopped. And what i thinking.
But i want total knowledge and your support rebooters. I know from this point of my life reboot is started. This relapse is just reminding me that i need to be assure that urges come at any time and i relapse if i not handled it properly.

From this time at 12:44 AM here i am stopping this. I stopped this. Now i never see this. Never.

I totally understand now that  what is pmo addiction?

Why we do it even we know its bad effects??

I know that now.
So first i need to know values of things except porn .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on August 31, 2019, 02:17:06 PM
You edged for hours?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on August 31, 2019, 02:59:11 PM
Do you really want to quit? Make yourself this question.
Why don't you erase all the p stuff and protect your electronic devices with blockers?
Why don't you try it?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 31, 2019, 08:56:22 PM
Yes lero
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 31, 2019, 08:56:57 PM
Do you really want to quit? Make yourself this question.
Why don't you erase all the p stuff and protect your electronic devices with blockers?
Why don't you try it?
Ok
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on August 31, 2019, 11:02:29 PM
Day 1
Starting again and again made me strong .
My first goal is to complete day 1.
Goal: to complete day 1 first
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 01, 2019, 03:27:57 PM
Day 2
Now my goal is to complete day 2.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 02, 2019, 09:31:29 PM
Day 3
My goal is to complete today without any relapse.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 03, 2019, 12:20:52 PM
Completed day 3. Now my goal is to complete day 4.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 07:55:08 AM
Day 4
Completed day 4 today. Now my goal is day 5.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 01:04:23 PM
Relapsed. Its over. All over. I can't do it anymore 
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 01:14:31 PM
I just leave it. I leave my hope. I can't do reboot. My last attempt failed. I can't do it now. Never .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 04, 2019, 01:17:56 PM
Yes, you can!
enjoy of all the p today because the reboot starts tomorrow AGAIN
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 01:42:30 PM
Ok
I relapsed two times today. Tomorrow its a new day again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 01:57:59 PM
I have premature ejaculation problems
And i permanently leaving porn from tomorrow .
So i thanks you all who helping me from my past and also helping in my future.
I declare one thing i try my best to quite. Before addiction can cause me pied i need to quit it.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 04, 2019, 02:52:26 PM
You edged for hours?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 09:46:28 PM
You edged for hours?
No. I relapsed because i sending a porn link to my Friend  . and that i seen that link.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 09:49:42 PM
Day 1
Now goal is complete day 1. Need to be clear . be conscious about tgis subject. Its effects are dangerous.
Leaving it completely can help me to reboot. Every urge is the replica of my mind's urge pathways. And in 21 age its normal to be horny.
But handling this power is so important. As lossed all my powers because of this.
From today that powers also be recovered.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 10:32:15 PM
My problems are caused by porn such as
Less concentration
Social anexity
Poor memory
Boredom
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 04, 2019, 10:57:28 PM
At this time of reboot everyone thinks porn recovery is impossible . because we failed so many times.
But think that now we know most of our triggers.
So its easy now to reboot ourselves.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 05, 2019, 01:43:04 AM
Relapsed again. Counting today as day 0.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 05, 2019, 01:46:40 AM
Day 1 is always hard.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 05, 2019, 03:24:55 AM
You edged for hours?
No. I relapsed because i sending a porn link to my Friend  . and that i seen that link.

You sent a porn link to your friend? Why would you do that?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 05, 2019, 09:27:41 PM
Because my friend need it.
Day 1 today at September 6
Every reboot here just need a path to quite this addiction. So i get the path. The path is to do reboot with fighting all withdrawal. There is no other path.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 05, 2019, 11:28:35 PM
I wake up at 7 am at morning. Now I want to study but because of foggy head it's not possible to study and concentrate.
So today I want to do rest whole day. From tomorrow I will start my schedule. And from today I stop pmo.
In my last attempt I fapped because I sent a link and clicked on it. After that i seen it and Musturbated.
From today if I want to stop it I need a perfect plan. Because of imperfect plan I not successful yet.
As I am addicted for 6 years. So it 1800 days i am addicted.
So i need to do reboot at least 10% of this. So i need to reboot myself in180 days. It means it normally takes 180 days minimum. That is 6 months.
So my plan is as following.

6th September 2019
To complete my day 1. And made a plan for next 121 days of my reboot.

26 th september 2019
To complete my 21 days without pmo. I need to celebrate this day because it's a hudge success.

6 January 2020
Here I complete my 121 days of reboot.

30 march 2020
I can reach my goal of 180 days without pmo.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 06, 2019, 12:13:43 PM
Day 2
Day 1 is completed now going for day 2, with goal.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 07, 2019, 08:39:49 AM
Because my friend need it.


What's that supposed to mean? Your friend needed what? Porn? And why should you give him a link?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 07, 2019, 03:18:34 PM
Because my friend need it.


What's that supposed to mean? Your friend needed what? Porn? And why should you give him a link?
I ashamed on myself. But he need it . i suggested reboot and said i didn't give you a link. But on his demand that he is very sad and he needs something to excuse that sadness i did that.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 07, 2019, 03:20:42 PM
Day 3 today at 8th September
Withdrawal started. Here is 1 am and am not able to sleep. Because of my bad habit to see porn before sleep i has this withdraw.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 07, 2019, 04:39:41 PM
Read a book, you will sleep in minutes!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 08, 2019, 04:19:59 AM
Ok free-man
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 09, 2019, 03:36:24 AM
Day 4
Feeling good. Foggy head . withdrawal started.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 09, 2019, 02:21:58 PM
Relapsed
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 09, 2019, 02:36:49 PM
Yes I am relapsed this time also. But i dont stop trying. I will try till I win. Yes I try again. Because I tried so many times I am relapsing after 20 days Or 4 days. Not daily. So it's success.
I want to say one thing to every rebooter here. To win or to loss is not important. The journey is important. So my friends with your well wishes I am trying again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 09, 2019, 09:25:37 PM
Day 1 at Sept 10
Very sad today. I not wanted to relapse but i relapsed yesterday night.
Now started again from today. Did exercise.
Now my goal is to comple this day.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 10, 2019, 02:30:23 AM
What happened?
what was the trigger?
I read somewhere that the way of relapse-reboot very frequently is a way to make the addiction stronger.
So take care man. Learn and evaluate your behaviours and find out your triggers or main trigger so when it comes to you next time, change the behaviour and don't fall again.

Stay strong!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 04:29:55 AM
Trigger is the insomnia. I am not able to sleep at night. Withdrawal's are strong and its hard to defeat urges at night.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 04:35:31 AM
My plan
September 10 to September 13
To complete 4 days. And recover myself from last relapse.

Sept 14 to sep 30
To leave this completely by remembering the causes of pmo.
If i remembered the bad effects of pmo i never pmo again in future.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 10, 2019, 04:39:06 AM
https://www.oxfordclinicalpsych.com/view/10.1093/med:psych/9780199334513.001.0001/med-9780199334513-appendix-12 (https://www.oxfordclinicalpsych.com/view/10.1093/med:psych/9780199334513.001.0001/med-9780199334513-appendix-12)
This link is taken from the book that Arthur2 shared here with us.
It's a list of advices that will help you to sleep better.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 05:30:25 AM
Thanks.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 05:31:45 AM
Day 0 today
Relapsed at afternoon. No control over myself. I think my addictive ness is increased because i am relapsing after every week
Title: Re: Final stage and final reboot
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 06:28:15 AM
yes started again. yes relapsed again. yes started again . and relapsed again.

my story of 6 years is in above line.
not cured yet.
not rebooted yet.
not happy yet.
not leaved it yet.
not exercising daily yet.

so when i will be rebooted??when???

i am so confused months and years are going day by day. and i am not improved yet. its terrible,
from today i am starting meditation and daily exercise as a compulsory thing
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 11:47:13 AM
I am completed day 0
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 09:47:00 PM
Day 1
Did exercise at morning. Feeling better that i am one step close to reboot.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 10, 2019, 09:51:39 PM
In my mind a war is started . i am thinking i fail this time also but its necessary to remember that days when i did it upto 84 days. And its also required to know that its a possible thing.
The reboot is possible. And i can do it
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 11, 2019, 11:37:38 AM
Day 1 completed.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 12, 2019, 02:35:44 PM
Day 2 is completed at 13 September.
I want to leave this now. I want to be stable in life by doing things better and with perfection.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 13, 2019, 10:05:33 PM
14 September
I am relapsed.
Day 0 today
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 13, 2019, 10:21:32 PM
Frequently relapsed in last month. And in this month also. Now going to start again.
Today i have a wet dream. And after breakfast i watched some hot bikini videos on instagram page. And i fapped to that videos.
When i have an wet dream , the urges become very strong. I don't think about reboot . and i quickly relapsed.
The porn addiction release my stress. But it increase my problems. In past few years i observed following:

1. This addiction made you socially anxious.

2. It affects your concentration powers.

3. Tends you to feel bored all the time.

4. Increase your real life problems. Because porn create a self excuse for real life problems.

5. And because the addiction pathways are so strong you stuck under this addiction.

So this is my experience and from now starting a new reboot again. And one last time .
I will be win if i fight.
I defianatly win if i want to win.
If i want i will win from today. Everyday .
Only if i want then i can do that.

So first thing is tell your mind that you want to win. You don't want to lose this battle.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 13, 2019, 11:00:04 PM
Improvements in past 2 years
* i am relapsing hardly 2 times in a week.
* i am really want to reboot.
Now my addict level is decreased. And i relapse once in a week. Before 2 years i relapsed on daily basis. So i love this achievement i have.
I achieved normal frequency of PMO addiction from the higher addictive frequency. So now the time is to achieve complete reboot. Now i am really ready to reboot.

Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 13, 2019, 11:19:53 PM
So day 1 at
 14 September

Relapsed at morning. By self motivation i motivated myself to do reboot again.
And i also waiting for complete reboot.

So when i started reboot today i am thinking that i relapse again. I think every Rebooter thinks like that because of its past failed attempts to quite porn addiction.

So i am also feeling that way. I need to fight this feeling first. Because the success and failure is totally depend on my decision to fap or not. So i my decision is to nofap then i will be successful.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 13, 2019, 11:32:59 PM
1 year reboot challenge to myself.
Started at 14 September 2019 end at 14 September 2020

Plan: Goals
* To complte one month at 14 October 2019 .
* To complete 6 months at 14 march 2020.
* To complete 12 months at 14 September 2020.

Plan : Milestones
* To complete a week at 21 September 2019
* To write journal daily.
*To identify and overcome all triggers
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 14, 2019, 04:35:14 AM
Small steps still move you forward. I like to set smaller goals for myself. This is how I do it:

- First goal is 4 days because I used to relapse on day 4;
- Next goal is 5 days. Only one day after that because I also used to relapse on day 5. I relapsed either on day 4 or 5;
- Next goal is 7 days (1 week);
- 10 days;
- 14 days (2 weeks);
- 20 days (because it's a round number);
- 21 days (3 weeks and it comes only 1 day after the previous goal)

etc.

You get the idea? Each time I focus only on the next goal, which is 10 days now. Jumping right into: "Okay, plans for 90 days hard mode. I start today and complete it on..." This is too scary to even think about. Smaller steps still move me forward and, when I start, it feels more possible to walk 100 yards than to walk 100 miles (which I will eventually get to walking many rounds of 100 yards but it's a psychological thing).
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 14, 2019, 10:24:20 AM
Ok i got it.
Day 0 is completed . i relapsed at morning but i controlled myself whole day. And not relapsed again.
So my goal is to complete day 1 now. So tomorrow is day 1.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 14, 2019, 04:17:25 PM
Ok i got it.
Day 0 is completed . i relapsed at morning but i controlled myself whole day. And not relapsed again.
So my goal is to complete day 1 now. So tomorrow is day 1.

Good. Avoid binging at all costs. Maybe it could help to focus on smaller milestones like I do. But do whatever works for you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 16, 2019, 01:36:34 PM
Day 3 today at Sept 17
Doing good again. Yes i am doing it now. I am rebooting
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 16, 2019, 10:23:51 PM
My friend sent me porn. I watched it and fapped. But j will start again . i can learn from this and i will try again.
So day 0 at Sept 17
I am doing again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 16, 2019, 10:32:38 PM
Goal :
*To complete day 0 without any more relapse.
*To complete day 1 because well beginning is half done.
*To complete day 3.
*To complete day 7
*To complete day 14
*To complete day 21
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 16, 2019, 10:46:51 PM
First thing plays important role here is the thinking. Think positively . i can do it . today is day 0 but if i reboot it become a so imp day. Because i started today. So today is so important day. Because my freedom from this bad thing is started today.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 16, 2019, 10:48:56 PM
Yes this time i am doing it for 30 days reboot. I stop it this time.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 17, 2019, 02:29:03 AM
I am out off home for some time after one relapse. It keep away me from relapsing again. Relapse start in our mind before we relapse. So i am aware about that.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 17, 2019, 03:24:59 AM
relapsed again at afternoon .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 17, 2019, 09:36:50 AM
Completed day 0 with 2 relapses.
i need to choose one from this two things
1st is Life
2nd is PMO

from today i choose Life. From today  i change my thoughts first by meditation. then identify my triggers. and then i will be successful.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 17, 2019, 09:48:08 PM
Day 1 at September 18
Today i am started to look for final reboot. I found one way that is to weeken your addictive pathways by fighting your triggers.
As i calculated i relapsed 82 times this year. So i need to fight 82 triggers. So from now i am doing reboot for whole life. Not for 30-40 days. So i want a permanent solution. If i will successful it helps you. If i failed i try again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 18, 2019, 12:47:20 PM
Day 1 completed successfully.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 19, 2019, 12:30:12 AM
Day 2 is started.
I completed 20 minutes meditation.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 19, 2019, 01:41:41 AM
Well done!
Keep going man
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 19, 2019, 03:46:59 AM
My friend sent me porn. I watched it and fapped. But j will start again . i can learn from this and i will try again.
So day 0 at Sept 17
I am doing again.

Maybe you should set some boundaries with this friend of yours. Is he addicted to porn? You send him porn, he sends you porn and you've relapsed at least twice since I've been reading your journal because of porn exchange with your friend. Do you want to quit porn or not? What are you going to do about this?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 19, 2019, 12:19:12 PM
I warned my friend about this. Now i am going for day 3
Day 2 is completed successfully.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 20, 2019, 01:31:59 PM
3 days completed successfully
Day 4
Now my goal is to complete day 4 .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 20, 2019, 01:55:54 PM
Well done!
Go for the next one
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 20, 2019, 10:02:35 PM
Yes free-man
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 22, 2019, 06:16:27 AM
Day 5 is completed successfully. Now i am going for day 6. My goal is day 7 now.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 22, 2019, 12:35:41 PM
Its just 5 days recovery but i feeling some change. I am recovering my social skills. My social intelligence. I am recovering now. Slowly i am getting myself back. Its like taking backup after formating .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 22, 2019, 09:56:47 PM
Yesterday night i had so strong urges. But i don't responded.
First i closed my internet supply. And then i leaved my mobile.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 23, 2019, 03:20:17 AM
WELL DONE!!!
Stay strong!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 23, 2019, 12:00:56 PM
Day 6 is completed successfully today. Tomorrow is day 7. A new milestone for my 73 days reboot journey. After completing it i am going for a new goal of 10 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Chuck Shurley on September 23, 2019, 12:50:25 PM
It reminds me of something Russell Brand (comedian) said about addiction - it's taking one step at a time, one day at a time, everyday.

Looking forward to seeing how this pans out for you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 24, 2019, 06:45:17 AM
thank you Chuck Shurley

day 7 is completed successfully. at afternoon i have some strong urges. first  time i experienced triggers at afternoon in this reboot .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on September 24, 2019, 07:48:10 AM
Congratulations! 1 week
Keep going
trigeers are always there, hidden, so take care!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 25, 2019, 03:28:05 AM
Congratulations! 1 week
Keep going
trigeers are always there, hidden, so take care!
Thanks free man.
I am waiting for this moment from 2 months. You don't know how much i am happy at this 1 week success.
But as you said there are triggers hidden i am aware about that. I am treating each day as day 1 of my reboot.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 25, 2019, 11:08:56 PM
Day 9
improvements in this 9 days:
1 . No wet dreams
2. No Foggy head that much
3. Focused on my  personal goals rather than observing others.
4. my confidence is increasing day by day.
5. The fear of relapse is decreasing.
6. feeling the importance of life.

There are triggers at yesterday night , i am thinking that its ok relapse one time and start again , but i remind myself that  this the tricks of my addictive pathways in my mind. from first time when i started to reboot , i had this same trigger. and i am shocked about that , is i am relapsed just because of this single trigger in last 6 years.
So , you  all rebooters please comment if you also feel this type of triggers.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: hutch144 on September 26, 2019, 04:24:01 AM
Hey. I started trying to quit porn 3.5 years ago. For the first two years, I'd be hard-pressed to make it over 10 days. Usually would relapse in 7. Now I'm 30 days clean and feeling stronger than ever. In the last year, I've gone one month at a time with fewer severe relapses and back into it. It's not black and white. Slow and steady, keep getting back on the horse and staying clean over and over. Rebooting for me is a slow process. But I'm at 30 days clean, usually, i'd be going absolutely insane- and though I've got withdrawal symptoms (cravings and insomnia and restless legs) - I feel the strongest I've felt. I believe I'm recovering despite the last three years being a relapse then clean cycle. Don't stop the fight. It's a bad addiction but im feeling ill be able to really get free this time- truly ive never felt this strong. 3.5 years of attempting. keep that in mind. and let us face it, now that we know the reality of porn, we can't simply go back to watching it. We're doing the right thing- we've got this.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 26, 2019, 08:49:13 AM
Completed day 9 successfully. Now i am looking for tomorrow .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 26, 2019, 01:07:18 PM
Relapsed at night. Very depressed . need motivation.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 26, 2019, 01:12:29 PM
Relapsed at night. Very depressed . need motivation.

How? What did you do?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Chuck Shurley on September 26, 2019, 01:19:29 PM
Relapsed at night. Very depressed . need motivation.

One of the things I'm doing is watching a few videos on Youtube everyday on semen retention, nofap etc. Some of them are like 20 minutes, so I restrict it to one video. I did that on a previous streak until a major life event sent me on a spiral, but it helped at the time, and, although I'm on Day 3 now, extremely early in the process, I'm doing this again.

It helps reinforce the positive aspects. to nofap.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 26, 2019, 01:49:21 PM
One of the things I'm doing is watching a few videos on Youtube everyday on semen retention, nofap etc. Some of them are like 20 minutes, so I restrict it to one video. I did that on a previous streak until a major life event sent me on a spiral, but it helped at the time, and, although I'm on Day 3 now, extremely early in the process, I'm doing this again.

It helps reinforce the positive aspects. to nofap.

Yes, that's right. We must never forget what waits for us at the end. And we must not forget what wait for us at the beginning, after another relapse.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 26, 2019, 10:56:07 PM
Relapsed at night. Very depressed . need motivation.

How? What did you do?
I have fever. So i am feeling bored so much. And at night i watched porn and fapped.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 26, 2019, 10:57:25 PM
Day 1
September 27
Started again . my goal is to complete day 1 first.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 12:05:45 AM
Relapsed at night. Very depressed . need motivation.

One of the things I'm doing is watching a few videos on Youtube everyday on semen retention, nofap etc. Some of them are like 20 minutes, so I restrict it to one video. I did that on a previous streak until a major life event sent me on a spiral, but it helped at the time, and, although I'm on Day 3 now, extremely early in the process, I'm doing this again.

It helps reinforce the positive aspects. to nofap.
Ok i will try it. Thanks for supporting me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 12:08:14 AM
Hey. I started trying to quit porn 3.5 years ago. For the first two years, I'd be hard-pressed to make it over 10 days. Usually would relapse in 7. Now I'm 30 days clean and feeling stronger than ever. In the last year, I've gone one month at a time with fewer severe relapses and back into it. It's not black and white. Slow and steady, keep getting back on the horse and staying clean over and over. Rebooting for me is a slow process. But I'm at 30 days clean, usually, i'd be going absolutely insane- and though I've got withdrawal symptoms (cravings and insomnia and restless legs) - I feel the strongest I've felt. I believe I'm recovering despite the last three years being a relapse then clean cycle. Don't stop the fight. It's a bad addiction but im feeling ill be able to really get free this time- truly ive never felt this strong. 3.5 years of attempting. keep that in mind. and let us face it, now that we know the reality of porn, we can't simply go back to watching it. We're doing the right thing- we've got this.
Thanks.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 08:01:17 AM
Relapsed at end of the day. So day 0 is completed today. Tomorrow is day 1 for me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Chuck Shurley on September 27, 2019, 08:42:14 AM
Do you take any supplements at all?
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 08:56:55 AM
Do you take any supplements at all?
No.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Chuck Shurley on September 27, 2019, 09:04:59 AM
Do you take any supplements at all?
No.

OK. Just thinking that maybe you could do with something to kill of libido altogether, so that even if you do start fapping, you'll just stop, because it's pointless.

I'm taking liquorice (licorice) root, and I've noticed it's killed my libido somewhat, and that the urges I've been feeling are not from my penis or balls, but from my head.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 11:59:59 AM
Ok Chuck shurly. Best luck for your reboot .
I fapped two times today . So Day 0 is ended with 2 relapses. Tommorow is day 1.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 27, 2019, 12:06:00 PM
I am no expert in how to deal with urges. I saw you asked me in my journal what to do about urges. You know, I believe that in order to deal with urges, you have to do 2 things:

1) Stay away from porn material;
2) Find something that works for you against urges (some people do push-ups, cold showers, go out for a walk, go out for a run, leave the room and go somewhere else away from computer, phone etc.).

I saw that you have problems at night. Think about what could you do about it. Can you do push-ups? Go for a run? Take a cold shower? Maybe not. If you don't do any of those, the only thing left to do is wait until the urges lower their intensity while you completely stay away from anything stimulating. Stay away from "a little bit won't hurt" mentality too. Develop the mindset of stopping yourself when the urges to search for porn starts. Exercise helps to some degree with urges because I believe that urges are like a built up energy that you need to release with something. Exercise is good in this case or focusing your energy on accomplishing something. Of course, during the day I mean, not at night.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 12:26:25 PM
Ok lero. Thanks you so much lero. You are always there for helping me and others. Thank you .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 27, 2019, 12:27:35 PM
Day 1
Started with foggy head. And with a dream of 7 days completion.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 28, 2019, 11:16:25 AM
Day 1 completed. Day 2 is started.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 28, 2019, 12:45:37 PM
Day 1 completed. Day 2 is started.

Good. There is no ending without the beginning.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 28, 2019, 09:32:03 PM
Yes lero.
At day 2 morning i am feeling bored. Foggy head.
Feeling sad. Feeling negative about myself.
I am graduated this year and till i not have any job.
So i am little bit depressed.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 29, 2019, 07:14:06 AM
Day 2 is successfully completed.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 29, 2019, 11:28:11 PM
Day 3 at 30 September
2 days completed. No major improvement.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on September 30, 2019, 04:33:47 AM
Day 3 at 30 September
2 days completed. No major improvement.

Good. Small steps move you forward.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 30, 2019, 06:18:12 AM
Day 3 at 30 September
2 days completed. No major improvement.

Good. Small steps move you forward.
Thanks
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 30, 2019, 07:40:45 PM
Day 4 at 1 October
Feeling good. Less foggy head.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on September 30, 2019, 10:26:39 PM
Today i have no urges from morning. I am watching YouTube . using social media. But there are no major urges.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Lero on October 01, 2019, 07:21:33 AM
Today i have no urges from morning. I am watching YouTube . using social media. But there are no major urges.

Stop doing this if you really want to quit P. Social media and Youtube are full of triggers.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 01, 2019, 09:38:35 PM
ok Lero..

day 5 at oct 2
yesterday night i have urges but i controlled myself.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 02, 2019, 09:00:53 PM
Day 6 at October 3
Urges at yesterday night. But i am not responded. Tomorrow is day 7. Very excited for it.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 03, 2019, 11:02:38 PM
Day 7 at October 4
Morning wood at today morning. Little bit urges also there, because i saw a sex dream but no nightfall.
Decrease in headaches. Becoming more aware about real life problems after each new day.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 04, 2019, 10:09:29 PM
Day 8 at October 5
Reached day 8 quickly at this time. Level of urges is going high day by day. Today i woke up with morning wood.
Had a kissing dream. But not any nightfall. I think the real resistance start after 10 days of reboot.
Improvements :
1. Increased concentration, confidence, creativity.
2. Increase in social skills.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 05, 2019, 08:18:14 PM
Day 9 at October 6
Again at day 9. In last 30 days, this is third time when i am at day 9.
I thought so many things about day nine in my past posts. I just want to write my progress here.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 06, 2019, 08:00:56 PM
Day 10 at October 7
Completed 9 days successfully. Now its time to focus on improvements and to be aware about triggers.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 07, 2019, 11:03:45 PM
Day 11 at October 8
Completed 10 days. Now feeling well little bit.
My next goal is to complete 14 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Chuck Shurley on October 08, 2019, 04:27:32 AM
You've got a consistent streak going! Really pleased.

I saw an earlier post of yours about a worry of not having a job.

I went 3 years without one. I volunteered in a local project, and eventually, I secured work. Just think, NoFap will help you look and sound better (well, after the reboot stage). Think of the people you encounter, when you look and hear them, and you think 'how on earth have they got a job?' There's one out there for you. May have to take something you don't want to in the short term, but it will happen.  :)
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 08, 2019, 11:26:39 AM
Ok chunk. You are right. Now i follow my schedule to look for job. And completely focus on my recovery  . day 11 is completed successfully. Tomorrow is the new challenge for me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 09, 2019, 01:11:29 AM
Day 12 at October 9
I did exercise today. At early morning i am going for jogging also. I changed my daily schedule. Feeling good now.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on October 09, 2019, 02:48:47 AM
Things are positive changing. Congrats you're almost 2 weeks on the run!!!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 09, 2019, 03:51:33 AM
Things are positive changing. Congrats you're almost 2 weeks on the run!!!
Thanks
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on October 09, 2019, 02:33:08 PM
Good job man.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 10, 2019, 02:04:25 AM
Good job man.
Thank you arthur2.

Day 13 at October 10
Feeling real life experiences. I am happy from inside . enjoying my life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on October 10, 2019, 05:21:01 AM
Happy to hear that Do or Die!!!
You're reaching 2 weeks completed.
I remember  how much you struggled relapsing everyday.
You're doing f***ing good
There's no turning back man, no turning back!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 10, 2019, 06:58:35 AM
Happy to hear that Do or Die!!!
You're reaching 2 weeks completed.
I remember  how much you struggled relapsing everyday.
You're doing f***ing good
There's no turning back man, no turning back!
Thank you so much free man.
I am also a lucky person that i getting your valuable tips in my relapsing times.
I am here today is because of you all. If you not motivated me in my bad days then i can never achieve this.
Again thank you and all the best for you all.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 11, 2019, 12:32:57 AM
Day 14 at October 11
2 weeks completed today. Yesterday i am very sad at evening. But i know this is the withdrawal. So i kept myself busy yesterday. And today also i am focusing on my work.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on October 11, 2019, 02:31:15 AM
Well done man
Yep, it's part of the withdrawal. It's hard but hey, you've reached 2 weeks. Awesome!
Stay strong and yep, focus in your life instead focus in stay away from p. I'm struggling with that too
Cheers
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 11, 2019, 10:03:27 PM
Well done man
Yep, it's part of the withdrawal. It's hard but hey, you've reached 2 weeks. Awesome!
Stay strong and yep, focus in your life instead focus in stay away from p. I'm struggling with that too
Cheers
Thanks
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 11, 2019, 10:05:21 PM
Day 15 at October 12
Completed 2 weeks. Now my goal is to complete today and then 21 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 12, 2019, 07:56:16 PM
Day 16 at October 13
Completed 15 days. Experienced some urges yesterday. Such as feeling sad and depressed.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: achilles heel on October 13, 2019, 06:59:54 AM
Great to read you've come that far already! Keep going and stay alert, to my experience heavy depression due to reboot passes after the first month and it becomes easier!  :)
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 13, 2019, 12:36:52 PM
Great to read you've come that far already! Keep going and stay alert, to my experience heavy depression due to reboot passes after the first month and it becomes easier!  :)
Thanks.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on October 13, 2019, 02:35:21 PM
Yeah man ! Good job on your long streak.

Stay vigilant though. Usually i relapse after 2 weeks or so, because i become very sensitive and even a little stimulation can trigger a relapse.

Now is the time to really be careful.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 13, 2019, 03:58:09 PM
Yes author2 .thanks for your support.

Day 17 at October 14
At night i am unable to sleep because of urges. But completed day 16 successfully. Now i am focusing on today.
My goal is to achieve 21 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 15, 2019, 02:00:41 AM
Day 18 at October 15
Yesterday night i not able to sleep whole night.
I experienced so many urges. But i never give up.
At day 18 today. My goal is 21 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 15, 2019, 09:02:42 AM
Joined a gym. It makes me physically strong. I am changed
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 15, 2019, 03:30:21 PM
Day 19 at October 16
Feeling emotional and sad without any reason. I think this is an withdrawal. Completed 18 days successfully.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 16, 2019, 06:21:53 AM
Feeling withdrawals daily. Such as anexity , headache , sleepless nights etc etc.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: achilles heel on October 16, 2019, 01:01:44 PM
You're so close to 3 weeks, hang in there and remember the effort you put in already! Use as many restrictions as possible to keep yourself away from danger and find emergency plans for heavy urges... gym is a really good idea and you will see results apart from the helpful distraction... all the best for you!  :)
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 16, 2019, 02:17:32 PM
Day 20 at October 17
Tomorrow is a dream day for me. I am waiting for day 21 .
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 17, 2019, 04:19:19 AM
You're so close to 3 weeks, hang in there and remember the effort you put in already! Use as many restrictions as possible to keep yourself away from danger and find emergency plans for heavy urges... gym is a really good idea and you will see results apart from the helpful distraction... all the best for you!  :)
Because of relapsing many times now i am understand every type of urge.
You also be positive if you relapsed. Because it helps for your reboot in future.
Completed half day of day 20. I am so much excited for completion of 21 days of reboot. As brain researchers says that in 21 Days brain creates a new habit pathway. So i want to made reboot as my new habbit.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on October 17, 2019, 06:14:18 AM
You are making progress man!
Keep going on it!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 17, 2019, 11:30:29 AM
You are making progress man!
Keep going on it!
Thanks Freeman
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 17, 2019, 07:30:17 PM
Day 21 at October 18
Completed 20 days successfully. Today is day 21. My goal is to achieve day 28 now.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 18, 2019, 08:34:47 PM
Day 22 at October 19
Week 4 is starting from today. I never expected that this time I complete 21 days. But one thing I understand from my 21 days reboot that bad things are always around you in your life, but if you have a strong mindset then anything can't make you to lose something.
If you develope a strong thinking to be successful, nothing can stop you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on October 18, 2019, 09:49:49 PM
Man good job.
Day 22 is amazing !
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 18, 2019, 11:40:38 PM
Man good job.
Day 22 is amazing !
Thanks
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 19, 2019, 12:28:49 AM
Do you all thinked about one thing?
That why only few people are successful in life?
Answer is all make plans to be successful but just few ones implement it. So this is the biggest secret.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: achilles heel on October 19, 2019, 03:48:21 AM
Congratulations on 3 weeks complete - if you can make it 3 weeks, a whole month is possible to! Go for it and stay focussed!  :)
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 19, 2019, 06:50:16 AM
Congratulations on 3 weeks complete - if you can make it 3 weeks, a whole month is possible to! Go for it and stay focussed!  :)
Yes. Thanks for support.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 19, 2019, 06:51:27 AM
22 days completed but withdrawals are not gone. They are still exist in my life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 19, 2019, 12:44:29 PM
Day 23 at october 20
Withdrawals are still there.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on October 20, 2019, 07:53:27 AM
Yep
Withdrawal is horrible.
It takes time.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 20, 2019, 08:34:45 AM
I am fighting withdrawals. Completed 23rd successfully.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 20, 2019, 12:33:31 PM
Day 24
October 21

Just 4 days remaining for 28 days completion.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 21, 2019, 07:12:19 AM
Completed today successfully.
This sleep less nights are horrible. Really withdrawals are so bad.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 21, 2019, 10:11:41 PM
October 22
Day 25
Facing my real life problems now. Thinking positively about my real life problems.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Free-man on October 22, 2019, 01:57:06 AM
Deal with them man. Stay strong!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 22, 2019, 07:49:47 AM
Deal with them man. Stay strong!
Yes free-man.
Completed today successfully.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on October 22, 2019, 02:18:57 PM
Hey do or die, I'm new to your journal but wanted to stop by and say congratulations on your 25 days! Keep on truckin'. I'll be following your progress and rooting for ya.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on October 22, 2019, 04:11:04 PM
Your progress is so cool, man !

You encourage me to keep truckin.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 22, 2019, 08:24:37 PM
Hey do or die, I'm new to your journal but wanted to stop by and say congratulations on your 25 days! Keep on truckin'. I'll be following your progress and rooting for ya.
Thank you so much.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 22, 2019, 08:25:20 PM
Your progress is so cool, man !

You encourage me to keep truckin.
Thank you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 22, 2019, 08:26:29 PM
October 23
Day 26
Completed morning exercise, meditation.
Close to day 28.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 24, 2019, 12:01:33 AM
October 24
Day 27
Just one day long from my goal. That is 28 days. The completion of 4 weeks adds an extra bit of motivation and Confidence to my reboot.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 24, 2019, 11:30:26 AM
Completing 4 weeks now. From tonight 12am day 28 starts.
Before 1 month this is my dream to complete 28 days. Now my next goal is waiting for me. That is 35 days goal.

At this level my urges are decreased. There no more compulsive urges. I can handle my each urge very easily. As I read about flatline and withdrawals I need to do a 180 days of reboot to be completely rebooted.

In this 28 days i learned that if you really decide to reboot then you easily fight your urges.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on October 24, 2019, 01:17:17 PM
That's awesome news, man, congratulations! Be proud of yourself for your achievement, but be wary of complacency at this stage (or indeed any stage) of the reboot. Although it may be much easier to fight those urges, they can still arise spontaneously and out of nowhere, so just be careful. Well done on getting this far, keep being awesome!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 24, 2019, 07:04:43 PM
That's awesome news, man, congratulations! Be proud of yourself for your achievement, but be wary of complacency at this stage (or indeed any stage) of the reboot. Although it may be much easier to fight those urges, they can still arise spontaneously and out of nowhere, so just be careful. Well done on getting this far, keep being awesome!
Yes you are right. Thank you so much.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 24, 2019, 07:07:01 PM
Day 28
October 25
Yes I did it. After so many failed attempts I am at this point today. Very happy today.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on October 25, 2019, 03:04:01 PM
FUCK YES! Congratulations! Whatever you are doing is clearly working. Keep on keepin' on!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 26, 2019, 12:31:34 AM
FUCK YES! Congratulations! Whatever you are doing is clearly working. Keep on keepin' on!
Thanks
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 26, 2019, 12:33:51 AM
Day 29
October 26
Completed my morning exercise. My
Focus is on my real life goals such as to have a good job and other real life things.
Such a good feeling and experience of this nofap life. Now I know the value of normal life. The importance of normal life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 26, 2019, 09:19:48 PM
Day 30 at October 27
Completed one month of reboot today. It's a big achievement after 6 month of trouble.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: faenoe on October 27, 2019, 12:52:50 AM
Boo yah! That is awesome! Keep up the good work brotha. Live in strength of your accomplishment and don't let it get away from you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 27, 2019, 01:55:30 AM
Boo yah! That is awesome! Keep up the good work brotha. Live in strength of your accomplishment and don't let it get away from you.
Thank you
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 28, 2019, 03:09:24 AM
Day 31 at October 28
One wet dream today. This the first wd in last 30 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 28, 2019, 03:49:35 AM
Relapsed 1 time because this wet dream today turned on my urges on high. I seen some photos on instagram and tapped.

But i am happy that i did it for 30 days. But from today it's a day 0.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 28, 2019, 04:01:01 AM
I know I am still on track because it's 30:1 ratio of my reboot.
So if I start from now I will definitely made it 30 again. So starting again. Never leave your goal and it's path.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 28, 2019, 05:12:05 AM
Day 0 at october 28
Relapsed one time but i am focused on my goal. My goal is now 7 days. It's difficult to be motivated after a relapse.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 29, 2019, 06:19:37 AM
Completed day 1 quickly without many relapses.
Wet dream caused high urges. So i relapsed. But recovered today. Thinking positively about last relapse. Learning and understanding last relapse reason.
I wake up at 5:00 am daily now. This avoid wet dreams. As you see in my journal there is only one wet dream in last 30 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 29, 2019, 11:05:53 AM
Handling relapse is very important thing in rebooting. Handle each and every relapse with positive attitude.
If I see my reboot in last 2 month it is like 15+30 . That is 2 relapse In 45 days.
It's a big achievement. And I know if I did it for 30 days from now I can do it for whole life.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 29, 2019, 12:07:51 PM
Relapsed again. Because one porn clip is not deleted in my old phone. I seen it after a long time and I relapsed.
So today is day 0 again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 29, 2019, 12:25:07 PM
I am also feeling sad . Because I relapsed 3 times from yesterday. What is missing in last 30 days tends me to this point where I am relapsed 3 times. A final reboot is remaining now also. If I relapsed again then I miss the chance of quick recovery. Because it's golden chance to make life rebooted after 30 days success.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 29, 2019, 12:38:31 PM
I need a new schedule. I am correct in my reboot but I lost my mind because of foggy head caused by wet dream . I am close to recovery now. Starting from 12 am. That's a new day.
Day 1 at October 30
After a 30 days long flatline starting a new reboot again. After 3 relapse starting it again. So my goal is to complete 7 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on October 29, 2019, 02:32:19 PM
Sounds like you've been struggling this past day or two. Not to worry. You're right to stay positive as you've been doing so so well.

I often find that relapses have to take their natural course. You can of course choose not to, but it's not always easy when you're in the grip of the porn monster. Just pick yourself up when you get the chance and get back on the horse.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 01:30:49 AM
Sounds like you've been struggling this past day or two. Not to worry. You're right to stay positive as you've been doing so so well.

I often find that relapses have to take their natural course. You can of course choose not to, but it's not always easy when you're in the grip of the porn monster. Just pick yourself up when you get the chance and get back on the horse.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Thanks. You are right. I just need a 5 days reboot to get back on track. Because the neural pathways of my addiction is already weaken. If I successfully complete 5 days then the chances of full recovery increases.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 01:35:41 AM
Successfully completed half day of day one.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 07:09:17 AM
My goal is 365 days. It's ON from now.
This goal is like above.
Day 1 - Day 7- hard mode
Day 8 - Day 14- fighting withdrawals and urges.
Day 15 - Day 21- adjustment with new life and schedule.
Day 22 - Day 28-  ignoring all withdrawals and making of new thought process which oppose all urges.
Day 28  - Day 100- accepting pmo free life.
Day 100 - Day 200 - understand and write the things that can help to other rebooters to recover.
Day 200- Day 300- Enjoying new life, achievement of new goals.
Day 300 to Day 365- completion of reboot . Here I am fully rebooted.

In this last 32 days i learned that if you follow your plan then you achieve what you planned. So I am planning about my reboot now. And I successfully planned also.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 01:42:07 PM
It's very hard to resist urges.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 02:41:01 PM
Relapsed again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on October 30, 2019, 02:54:45 PM
Don't worry bro. Maybe don't set yourself such big goals. I get why you want to do 365 days because you'd ideally like to be free from this forever, but setting huge targets can make it harder to stay clean, because it's harder to postpone the relapse for just another day if you have another 364 days left... If you first set, say, 8 days, make it 8 days, then when you reach that, just extend the deadline before your next relapse, it may be easier to regain momentum.

Most important thing right now is to forgive yourself and find to dig yourself out.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: squid on October 30, 2019, 05:43:12 PM
A goal of 2 days or 200 days doesn't really mean anything without a clean vision of what you want to be, how you want to feel, how you want to live, who you want to help.  That vision is important, you need lots and lots and lots of detail.  Write a ton and really describe what it is you love enough to change for.  Why are you going to reboot?  Rebooting is not fun and easy, it's difficult.  Why do it?  What's your personal mission?  In lots of detail.

And the other part, which is equally important - what's the plan?  How are you going to do it?  What new habits can you build?  What new communities can you join, where can you volunteer your time to help somebody?  What triggers you and how do you reduce those situations?  Maybe you need a break from everyday life (I did), look up long distance trails and go walk for three months in the woods where there is no internet or cell service. Be part of groups, or journey or projects bigger than yourself.  The opposite of pmo is service, compassion, and discipline.

I feel for you man, and I don't mean this in a bad way, but it seems like you're doing the same thing and expecting different results.  That's a bad plan.

Stay free my friend,

-squid
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 08:02:36 PM
Ok squid. Thanks
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 08:46:33 PM
.
Don't worry bro. Maybe don't set yourself such big goals. I get why you want to do 365 days because you'd ideally like to be free from this forever, but setting huge targets can make it harder to stay clean, because it's harder to postpone the relapse for just another day if you have another 364 days left... If you first set, say, 8 days, make it 8 days, then when you reach that, just extend the deadline before your next relapse, it may be easier to regain momentum.

Most important thing right now is to forgive yourself and find to dig yourself out.
Ok. Your motivation is my power. Thank you so much.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 08:49:49 PM
Day 1 at October 31
After yesterday's relapse I am totally depressed. Because trapped again by pmo addiction after 30 days is horrible. I am very sad now. But a good start is also important at this stage. I need to forgive this past things and now need to think about my future. So now I am doing new reboot. My goal is just 2 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 30, 2019, 10:26:26 PM
Headaches started. Feeling everything boring. Don't want to work just want pleasure. I want to leave it. I did it for 30 days but i failed. I need that stable state again.

One rebooter here said that a clear thinking and clear goal is important to achieve what I want. So now I clearly looking for my goal.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 31, 2019, 11:05:28 AM
Day 1 at october 31
Completed successfully.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 31, 2019, 12:27:24 PM
I developed a new hobby of watching movies without pmo. This helps me to fight my sleep related withdrawals.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on October 31, 2019, 01:12:15 PM
Day 2 at november 1
Completed day 1 successfully. Now my goal is to complete today.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on November 01, 2019, 12:32:51 AM
Very good. You didn't fail. Don't see it like that. You did the right thing for 30 days and then you slipped up. You know what you did that wasn't conducive to your reboot, so next time you will not need to test the water by doing that thing again.

We're all with you brother and you're not alone. We're in this together.

Check out this video by Gabe Deem speaking about P addiction to Congress!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUU3X0uZ_Zw
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on November 01, 2019, 07:39:13 PM
Following along.
Now again we are pretty much on the same day.
I came back after an entire week of weakness and fappin every day.
That kinda sucks in a sense.
But we dont give up.
Let' s do it together.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 04, 2019, 05:44:04 AM
Yes my friends. We can do it. I am very lucky that I got supporters like you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 04, 2019, 05:45:16 AM
Day 4
Completed four days. Now looking for 7 days completion.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 04, 2019, 12:20:29 PM
Withdrawals started. I am so angry today.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 04, 2019, 01:28:53 PM
Relapsed.
Day 1 is at nov 5
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 05, 2019, 02:24:15 AM
Relapsed at afternoon.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 05, 2019, 04:38:39 AM
This becoming my every month and every year's story. I am tired now. But i never give up. I  do it again. I can do it.
I try rebooting till I fully rebooted.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 05, 2019, 12:23:04 PM
Day 0 is completed with one relapse.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 05, 2019, 02:42:20 PM
Day 1
Started day1. This time my goal is to complete two days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on November 06, 2019, 01:22:51 PM
You made it much longer before. Just remember how it was back then and go back to that mindset! Keep that mindset every day. You can do this and I believe in you!
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 06, 2019, 08:18:01 PM
Thanks ND adventurer.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 06, 2019, 08:19:18 PM
Day 2 at nov 7
Completed day 1. Today I started my day from 5 am. Early morning walk can solve wet dream problems.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 07, 2019, 01:01:59 PM
Day 1 at november 8
Feeling good that i am on way again.  Relapse can't stop me.
my goal is to complete day 1 first.
i take it as first step of rebooting:
step 1:
today i need to understand that pmo actually leading a problem in my life.
just i think that its impossible for me to nofap because i am relapsing frequently, but successful rebooters knows that its possible.
at this step 1 i need to take a strong decision to do reboot.
at this stage i must know about basics of rebooting and nature of urges.
from today i am going to write each and every thing that helping me in my reboot.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on November 08, 2019, 11:14:50 AM
Did you binge or just watch once? Find the positives and keep on going :)
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 08, 2019, 10:55:22 PM
Did you binge or just watch once? Find the positives and keep on going :)
I am fapped one time that day.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 08, 2019, 10:56:28 PM
Day 2
Completed day 1 . At today morning I have urges. I am doing exercises, going to gym regularly. It is helping me.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on November 09, 2019, 06:53:21 PM
Yes sure, exercizing helps a lot.
Cheers.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 09, 2019, 08:58:06 PM
Yes sure, exercizing helps a lot.
Cheers.
Yes
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 09, 2019, 09:00:17 PM
Day 3
One wet dream today. But it's a withdrawal. I think as with time the problem of wet dream can be solved.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on November 09, 2019, 11:26:22 PM
Sometimes i get wet dreams... During the day.
And it is the hardest thing to resist, when my brain starts to go on sensual scenarios and i cant help but indulge in thoughts. Just indulging in thoughts ! It is horrible.

For me that is the real.monster i need to overcome.

Stay strong my friend.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 10, 2019, 09:28:38 PM
Yes Arthur.
I am fighting this problem .
Day 4
No urges at morning today.
Keeping myself busy all the time.
Always taking decisions by thinking about what the effect of this decision on my future.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 11, 2019, 06:43:03 AM
I joined this forum three years back at 5 December.
I want to complete 28 days and celebrate my joining date this time.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 11, 2019, 01:47:18 PM
Day 5 started
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 12, 2019, 08:10:52 PM
Day 6 at nov 13
Increase in Confidence.
Urges level decreased.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 13, 2019, 02:44:17 AM
At afternoon today I have so many hard urges. Resisting it.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 14, 2019, 12:47:45 AM
Day 7
Goal completed.
Now my goal is to achieve 10 days.
My goal is like following:
1st : to complete 7 days
2nd : to complete 10 days.
3rd : to complete 14 days.
4th : to complete 21 days
5th : to complete 28 days
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 14, 2019, 10:22:27 PM
Day 8 at Nov 15
Feeling good to come at this point.
No urges today.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 15, 2019, 11:58:59 PM
Day 9 at November 16
Close to 10 days. Feeling good.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 16, 2019, 08:42:56 AM
From 5 pm I am feeling irritated. I am angry without any reason.
I think this is an withdrawal.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 17, 2019, 03:29:30 AM
Day 10
Achieved 10 days. Next goal is 14 days.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on November 17, 2019, 12:07:22 PM
Me too man ! So cool to be on the same day !

DO OR DIE !
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 17, 2019, 12:19:56 PM
Me too man ! So cool to be on the same day !

DO OR DIE !
We are starting and relapsing at the same time. I hope this time we both complete it
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 17, 2019, 12:22:33 PM
At end of day i very close to relapse but i controlled myself.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 17, 2019, 02:04:01 PM
Relapsed.
I responded to alone ness urge.  And i relapsed at end of day. This urge is from night.
Day 1 at november 18
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 17, 2019, 02:14:37 PM
Feeling good that i am on way again.  Relapse can't stop me.
my goal is to complete day 1 first.
i take it as first step of rebooting:
step 1:
today i need to understand that pmo actually leading a problem in my life.
just i think that its impossible for me to nofap because i am relapsing frequently, but successful rebooters knows that its possible.
at this step 1 i need to take a strong decision to do reboot.
at this stage i must know about basics of rebooting and nature of urges.
from today i am going to write each and every thing that helping me in my reboot.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 17, 2019, 02:28:55 PM
After relapsing today I not sad enough to think everything is wrong now.
Tomorrow is A new chance for me. From tomorrow I should do it.
From nov 18 to dec 18 . It's a month journey I am planning.
And i know this is my life's biggest adventure journey. Because I am going to win against myself. Creating new mindset of winner.

I look at this relapse as a hole in my boat.  And I need to fix it
And first thing I did is I learned this relapse. How it is started from afternoon today. And  at end I relapsed.

The porn is not my real problem.
The mindset is problem. From now I focusing on creating a correct mindset and a correct pathway to reach my goal.

Yes I am at half way,  I can do it again. I know I will not repeat my mistakes again.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Arthur2 on November 17, 2019, 03:35:00 PM
Oooooh !

Yes me too i have lonelyness urges sometimes, when i want intimacy with a girl but i can t.

This time forgive me but i wont relapse along with you.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 18, 2019, 12:07:39 AM
It's a good thing that you not relapsed.
Aurthur just focus on your goal
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 18, 2019, 12:09:48 AM
I am doing good at day 1.
I have urges from morning but I controlling myself.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 19, 2019, 12:24:39 AM
Day 1 completed.
Day 2 started at 19th November
Did morning exercise.
Meditation.
And now focusing on study.
Title: Re: Last attempt to quite porn
Post by: Do or die on November 19, 2019, 12:30:50 AM
Today is 19th November
My plan is to complete
7 days at 24th November.
10 days at 27th November
14 days at 1 December
21 days at 8 December
28 days at 15 December
35 days at 22 December
42 days at 29 December
49 days at 5 January 2020
56 days at 12 January 2020
63 days at 19 January
70 days at 26 January
77 days at 2 February
84 days at 9 February
91 days at 16 February.
98 days at 23 February
. And end of my goal that is 100 days completion at 25th February 2020