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Title: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: fmymind123 on July 29, 2019, 05:21:27 PM
Day1.
I love my girlfriend.
I wanna have sex.
I wanna be more motivated.
I wanna be able to focus on the stuff im doing.
I want to be the person my family thinks I am.
Its day1. Lets see what happens.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: squid on July 29, 2019, 08:44:07 PM
Day1.
I love my girlfriend.
I wanna have sex.
I wanna be more motivated.
I wanna be able to focus on the stuff im doing.
I want to be the person my family thinks I am.
Its day1. Lets see what happens.

In my experience, quiting porn will help with all of these a ton.  Nice work on making a commitment!  Post your thoughts on your journal every day, that's helped me a lot. 

Stay free my friend,

-squid
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on July 30, 2019, 02:56:52 AM
Thank you! Good luck with your journey too!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on July 30, 2019, 04:59:55 PM
Okay so today wasn't so bad. I had some cravings but thankfully didn't yield to it. I am interning abroad now so I skyped my girlfriend. I also was productive in my free time. Solved 2 leetcode questions and 1 ctci question. So all is well today. Accept for the internship, I feel like im not progressing at all. gotta work harder during that. Hopefully tomorrow I can focus enough to  do it.

I must remember, when I want to peek its not just peeking
when I want to see if theres something new its not just that
Its always just porn and I should avoid it so I can be enjoying my regular life.

Also this is day 2. My first goal is to reach day 4, should be doable.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: Lero on July 30, 2019, 05:07:49 PM
That's right. You have to stay away from anything that stimulates your porn pathway. This includes peeking, fantasizing, looking at pictures etc. You have to identify everything that you want to use for stimulation and stay away from it, especially when hard urges start because it was easy for me to think I had it, when my streak was 2 days, but not after 9 days my urges shoot through the roof and I have to be extra careful. One little moment of peeking could sabotage me.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: BlueHeronFan on July 30, 2019, 05:34:03 PM
That's right. You have to stay away from anything that stimulates your porn pathway. This includes peeking, fantasizing, looking at pictures etc. You have to identify everything that you want to use for stimulation and stay away from it, especially when hard urges start because it was easy for me to think I had it, when my streak was 2 days, but not after 9 days my urges shoot through the roof and I have to be extra careful. One little moment of peeking could sabotage me.

This is really solid advice. I think a lot of people (me included) have to learn this the hard way through repeatedly rationalizing these smaller triggering behaviors as "okay" and then relapsing over and over. If you can take this advice to heart and really be careful about avoiding anything that triggers those porn-related dopamine pathways, you'll start off in a really strong place. It's not just about quitting porn, it's about healing from addiction of any kind.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on July 31, 2019, 12:39:53 PM
Day 3 going on. I masturbated today but WITHOUT porn. I had like %40 erection. Really sad that i am 22 and have an erection like that. Its okay though, it can recover if i keep this up. Tomorrow I will reach my first goal of 4 days.

Today I was again pretty productive, solved 2 leetcode questions and will do one more soon.

A great quote i saw today from Bruce Lee:
"Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must do."
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on July 31, 2019, 06:17:19 PM
Welp i messed up again. I feel disgusting. Idk whats wrong with me, one second everythings awesome the other im looking at porn. I need to change a lot on my life to fix this.

1) I WILL NOT USE MY LAPTOP IN BED.
2) WHEN I GET CRAVINGS I WILL LOOK AWAY FROM COMPUTER FOR 10 MINUTES.
3) I WILL LOOK AT THIS WEBSITE AT LEAST 10 MINUTES A DAY.

simple stuff right? I must be able to do this someway.
Day 1 again...
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: squid on July 31, 2019, 10:14:31 PM
Hang in there dude, it's great to see you making a plan from your relapse. 
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on August 24, 2019, 09:57:47 AM
I know I haven't posted here in a while. But I just went 10 days without porn. Its been a really long while since I accomplished that. I failed today, but i still feel really good. Like I can do this if i try hard.

Even when I was looking at porn today it didn't feel as good as it did before. I know if i do it again and again i will fall to the old patterns of feeling like  I can't quit. So this week will be really important. I will do anything necessary to get through this week.  I will not relapse again today.

My next goal is 14 days. Obviously its actually infinite days but I am aiming for 14, than 1 month and so on. I CAN DO THIS.

I have been listening to the porn free radio on itunes. It helped me get my mind off porn most of the time. I shoulda given it a shot today too but i just didn't. this was a mistake and wont happen again.  I think I will try to be more active with my posts here this time too. I hope I can do this. Its just 2 weeks anyone should be able to do it. So I should be too!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: Lero on August 24, 2019, 11:24:21 AM
I know I haven't posted here in a while. But I just went 10 days without porn. Its been a really long while since I accomplished that. I failed today, but i still feel really good. Like I can do this if i try hard.

Even when I was looking at porn today it didn't feel as good as it did before. I know if i do it again and again i will fall to the old patterns of feeling like  I can't quit. So this week will be really important. I will do anything necessary to get through this week.  I will not relapse again today.

My next goal is 14 days. Obviously its actually infinite days but I am aiming for 14, than 1 month and so on. I CAN DO THIS.

I have been listening to the porn free radio on itunes. It helped me get my mind off porn most of the time. I shoulda given it a shot today too but i just didn't. this was a mistake and wont happen again.  I think I will try to be more active with my posts here this time too. I hope I can do this. Its just 2 weeks anyone should be able to do it. So I should be too!

That's right. You will realize that you actually can do more than you think you can. A certain number of days might seem scary in the beginning but once you reach it, it's not scary anymore. You can push past that to accomplish a longer streak. In my case, I didn't think I could even realize an 8 days streak, because my best had been 7 days. And now I have 34 days without a relapse, it's way beyond my limit already. Things are not so scary anymore.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on August 25, 2019, 12:31:32 PM
I know I haven't posted here in a while. But I just went 10 days without porn. Its been a really long while since I accomplished that. I failed today, but i still feel really good. Like I can do this if i try hard.

Even when I was looking at porn today it didn't feel as good as it did before. I know if i do it again and again i will fall to the old patterns of feeling like  I can't quit. So this week will be really important. I will do anything necessary to get through this week.  I will not relapse again today.

My next goal is 14 days. Obviously its actually infinite days but I am aiming for 14, than 1 month and so on. I CAN DO THIS.

I have been listening to the porn free radio on itunes. It helped me get my mind off porn most of the time. I shoulda given it a shot today too but i just didn't. this was a mistake and wont happen again.  I think I will try to be more active with my posts here this time too. I hope I can do this. Its just 2 weeks anyone should be able to do it. So I should be too!

That's right. You will realize that you actually can do more than you think you can. A certain number of days might seem scary in the beginning but once you reach it, it's not scary anymore. You can push past that to accomplish a longer streak. In my case, I didn't think I could even realize an 8 days streak, because my best had been 7 days. And now I have 34 days without a relapse, it's way beyond my limit already. Things are not so scary anymore.

Thank so much for the reply. Congratz on your progress. I will try not to fall too far behind you!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on August 27, 2019, 02:19:40 PM
Its 8.17. I got 3 hours and 43 minutes till I finish the day. So how will I get through it. I already solved leetcode and dont  feel like solving more, I already ate, and watched my usual youtube videos. I will probably play same games on my pc thinking don't starve, if i get bored from it i will netflix, after that I will youtube and reddit till I sleep. I know these are all not productive stuff but I have already done productive stuff today and need to fill the happy part of my brain too. Only 3 and a half hours left. No matter what I can get through those 3 and a half hours. So thats the goal, get through 3.30 hours. I can do this.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on August 29, 2019, 01:37:52 AM
I woke up from sexual dreams today. didn't come but i am craving. Its 8.30 am right now. I got a long day ahead of me. So how will I get through this day. I got work between 10-12.30 today, after that I will eat and then come back home, i should be home around 2. gonna skype parents, talk to gf. I am travelling back to my country tomorrow so I need to pack up. I am going to sleep when I feel horny and I will play games to distract myself. Also going to youtube. These are not enough to get me through 12 hours but I also have to do leetcode for 1.30 hours today. stuff to watch on youtube should take another 1 hour. I can watch a movie on netflix for anpther 1.30 hours.That still adds up to around 6.30 so thats not enough. I will listen to pornfree radio for 30 minutes thats 7 pm now. I think i will try to delay when I get home because 5 hours of unacounted time is t oo long. I can do this though.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on October 05, 2019, 03:56:40 AM
I went 9 days this time. It was really nice. I kept forcing myself to socialize each day and it was really helpful. Today I relapsed. I was supposed to go out but had to cancel because I had to study. I have been horny last 3 days but cooped with it by meeting my girlfriend. Today I woke up at 8 and relapsed at 10. I don't really know what I can do about that. I wasn't even craving porn as much as before. I guess thats a good thing. Because I am realizing me socializing can pull me out of this miserable shit.  JUST KEEP SOCIALIZINGGG I CAN DO THIS.

Socilizing must be done
When Feeling the urges, go to sleep, meet up with a friend, go to gym, walk out, listen to the porn free podcast.
Try to be in your comfort zone ie dont be too tired or lonely.

You did 9 days easily. Now do easy 24 hours. You can do this.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on October 07, 2019, 02:01:08 PM
Sunday was easy again, I spent time with my girlfriend the whole day and we had to study so we studied the whole day. Today is going fine also, my web blocker messed up and I browsed reddit for a minute but it quickly worked and I stopped. Its 10 pm right now. I only need to go 2 hours. Should not be too bad.I can do this. I already feel tired and I think I will feel tired tomorrow and I get the urges a lot when I get tired, but I will try to nap when I get the urges instead of acting on it so that should be good! I can do this.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on October 20, 2019, 05:31:42 PM
I went 9 days again. This is generally a good progress. I went from not being able to handle 2-3 days to consistently doing 9 days. But this is not enough because I still don't feel anything when I am doing physical stuff with my girlfriend. I don't like porn I don't know why I watched it today. Its so weird I used to think I love it but today before I watched it i didn't even crave it much. And right now even thinking about it makes me feel disgusted. But as I was doing it I really enjoyed it. Its just so weird. Nevertheless 9 days wasn't bad. It was really easy because I am usually balancing life pretty well right now. I am studying some, working out some, sociazling some too and even gaming. I used to be someone that couldn't balance life, if i gamed i only gamed if i studied i only studied adn if i worked out i only owrked out. It was all or nothing. Now its nice to have some balance in my life which is what is making this easier to get through I think. Given that I need a way to progress from 9 days to 2 weeks and a month to 3 months to forever. So here is the outline of my week.

Tomorrow is monday and I am in the morning I have classes, then I will workout and at night till midnight I have to study with a group so I should be fine.
Tuesday is again lots of classes and workout. After that I might do some leetcode or go to library and study there.
Wednesday I have no classes but in the morning  I will go to gym and then breakfast - nap and then library I think. Also spend time with my girlfriend. and maybe game a little.
Thursday I am going home for break. This will be where it gets hard because I don't know what to do when Im home. I can try to go on runs and chill with family.

So other than these, this time  I will really write everything as a journal in this website. I love my girlfriend I don't wanna lose her bcause of this. I will also watch 1 episode of porn free podcast everday. So tomorrow is 24 hours. I can get through 24 hours.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 05, 2019, 01:13:24 AM
7 days this time. Feeling weird because I was doing fine. Things went south when I went to the bathroom with my phone. I am learning a lot through this process, next time I will never bring my phone to bathroom.  I am already doing this with my bedtime,i never use my phone in bed anymore i just read. So I can do it for bathroom too. Also I will watch a porn free podcast everyday. finaly I will try to write here even if its small. I think these habits will help me a lot. I just need to do them. I am having a happy life. Theres no reason for me to use porn. I am social and happy these days. So I just need to get down on it and fix these small habits. I can do this.

Btw I did have urges during these 7 days but I was doing good ignoring them till that point. Thats a plus. But I need to keep listening to my body and when I have urges I need to be extra careful.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: BlueHeronFan on November 05, 2019, 07:36:22 PM
Learn from every relapse. Of course the goal is to never relapse, but it's still progress if never relapse again for the same reason as before. Take what you learned this time around and commit to a new plan of action to avoid the same thing in the future.

Keep it going! If you're learning, you're on the right track
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 09, 2019, 04:32:11 PM
Thank you heron! Its day 5 and I have some urges. But i will sleep in an hour or so so i think I can manage. I am glad I opened the forum when I got the urges. Itd be nice to make it a habit to open the forum whenever I get urges. But I am doing pretty good so far. When I get the urges I make my self realize why they are happening and whats causing them and try to dismiss them. I feel like im on the right track. I will be on the lookout because if i  get comfy i will let my guard down. I also stopped getting my phone and computer to bed and the bathroom which were the 2 places I relapse wiithout even feeling the urges. So everything seems achievable now!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 11, 2019, 07:15:12 AM
Day 7!!!! Have some urges but i think i am going strong. Ive been keeping up with my gym schedule and starting to slowly see some results. I got an important exam tomorow so tonight I will be stressed and will sleep late. These are not good mind states for me to be in so tonight will be risky, but I will stick with my rules and won't get my phone and my laptop to bathroom and to bed. In addition I will study in school library next to my friends so I will try to focus in the moment. I am happy with my life. I used to watch porn to feel good because I was depressed and life was hard and I was lonely. Now I have friends and I am somewhat succesful in life, I have hobbies and a future career that I like. I like my life. But I still watch porn. Nowadays I see no reason for it. So I need to remember, I don't need porn anymore. I will get rid of porn from my life and I will be where I want to be in my life!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 12, 2019, 09:51:09 AM
8 days! I am really tired and sleep and have urges. I had my exam today and slept very little. So I will take a short nap now. After that I need to study again I got exams all week. So I think these urges are happening today because I am tired. But I won't fall for it. I will go take a short nap now then go to library to study!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 12, 2019, 05:57:50 PM
I just entered 9th day. Its around 2 am. Meaning I am staying up much later than I should. I will sleep after posing this. I have urges, I think its because I am tired and because 9 days is usuallly when I fail. Not this time though. I am listening to my rules. It will all work out. I just need to trust the process and give myself time and listen to my body and feelings. One day at a time.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 13, 2019, 08:02:21 AM
Wow today in the morning I had bad cravings. I was supposed to go to the gym at 9 am but I decided not to go and as I was sitting in my room I got horny. BUT I DIDNT CAVE IN! I played some video games and solved some questions, then met with frieends with lunch and then I even went to the gym!!! Now I am back, rested. I will shower and go to the library to study. I feel very happy about this progress :)
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 15, 2019, 03:08:03 AM
I am still going at it, day 11 now. I am really sleepy, exam periods are causing me to stay up longer than id like. And I think this is giving me cravings. But I will fight them. Today I accidently brought my phone to bed as I was gonna nap, but then i went and put it back down. Usually i would just say 1 time doesn't hurt you are already doing well, but this time i didn't fall to my own trap. I can do this. If I can get through next 4 days exam period will end and I will be relaxed again. Just 4 days! Even better, today has just 13 hours left. One day at a time!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 15, 2019, 05:48:36 AM
Today is actually going pretty hard. I took a nap to get to a better mental state but i started having sexual dreams. I didn't come but I woke up horny. I still didn't give up though I am keeping my cool. Just remember its all in my head and I am stronger and happier without porn.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 16, 2019, 01:55:33 AM
Day 12. I still can't believe I went through yesterday without relapse lol. I still have ome urges but not as bad as yesterday. I slept at 5 am yesterday and now woke up at 9 to study more. After exam I will crash and take a long nap. Still have some urges, my penis feels more alive which makes me much more hornier. I hope I can be disciplined and not relapse today. All the boundries I set for myself I am following them so far. I just need to keep doing that!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 16, 2019, 01:11:16 PM
3 Hours till today ends! I can't believe I almost made it to 2 weeks. I can do this!!! Today theres again lots of urges, can't really tell why this time but I think its natural to be horny if I haven't jerked off in 2 weeks hahah. So I just need to accept this as fact and live with it. I can do this if i follow my rules. Peeking is = failing. If I ever peek it will just lead to more porn and then I will relapse. And so I won't peak. I won't use my phone on the bathroom and the bedroom and I will try to socialize. I am about to go meet my girlfriend now so that should help get the urges off a little. Just 2 more days till 14 days.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 16, 2019, 05:57:17 PM
Its finally day 13. I am craving it so much... I am going to sleep soon but I don't know what I can do about this. I got a pornstar in my mind and I can't get it off my mind which is making me crazy and makes me wanna search stuff. But I made it through 12 days I need to get through next 24 hours too. Does anyone have advice for me? Its really hard. Usually how I fail is I think of a pornstar and tell myself I wonder if she has new videos or I check her one second and then i relapse. I don't want to do this this time. If anyone has any advice I will try to listen. Thank you. I will read a book and sleep now. Day 13 just started so I need to get through 24 hours pretty much!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: quitforeverthenwin2 on November 16, 2019, 10:51:10 PM
Stay strong man, you're doing great!

Getting through this urge will help heal your brain, you'll have more motivation. Be able to accomplish more.
Imagine the next time you see your family... won't it be so damn nice to see them and know you got through this craving and are two weeks clean?

Do whatever you need to do. People used to cross deserts and arctic bridges to survive. Maybe you have to stay up all night to get through it.... DO IT! You'll actually feel great tomorrow.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 17, 2019, 02:34:34 AM
I FUCKING FAILED AGAIN AHHH. I WAS DOING SO WELL I DONT KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED. I was just horny and my filters didn't work and I failed fuck me man. I don't know why I felt this was I was doing so good this 2 weeks I almost made it to 2 weeks :( I don't know what else I can do... I really tried this week. Its better than last time. Maybe I can aim for 14 days this time... Im just so sad I've been struggling with porn for so long :(
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 17, 2019, 02:35:29 AM
Stay strong man, you're doing great!

Getting through this urge will help heal your brain, you'll have more motivation. Be able to accomplish more.
Imagine the next time you see your family... won't it be so damn nice to see them and know you got through this craving and are two weeks clean?

Do whatever you need to do. People used to cross deserts and arctic bridges to survive. Maybe you have to stay up all night to get through it.... DO IT! You'll actually feel great tomorrow.

I saw your message but sadly wasn't enough. I thank you for trying. Hopefully next time I will find a way out.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on November 17, 2019, 02:37:58 AM
Well so whats next for my next attempt. Not getting my phone or pc to bathroom or bed worked wonders. I think I will definitely stick to it. I will also put a timer on my laptop so it will stop having internet access after 12(does anyone know a software that I can make this happen?) I won't be able to set the timer for tonight because we are going to be studying with my girlfriend and friends till morning for an exam tomorrow.
I think one of the reasons for my fail could be attributed to the fact that I wasn't able to gym for last couple days and didn't sleep enough maybe. So next task is working on that I think.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: quitforeverthenwin2 on November 17, 2019, 09:18:38 AM
Well so whats next for my next attempt. Not getting my phone or pc to bathroom or bed worked wonders. I think I will definitely stick to it. I will also put a timer on my laptop so it will stop having internet access after 12(does anyone know a software that I can make this happen?) I won't be able to set the timer for tonight because we are going to be studying with my girlfriend and friends till morning for an exam tomorrow.
I think one of the reasons for my fail could be attributed to the fact that I wasn't able to gym for last couple days and didn't sleep enough maybe. So next task is working on that I think.

Definitely. A big thing Blueheronfan (who is having a lot of success) brought up is that we have to catch ourselves earlier in the process. There seems to be a point of no return where it's pretty done for. So catching the small things and catching the urge earlier and earlier in the process is really important.

Like right now, I have been getting these super brief thoughts of old pmo stuff popping into my head, they are very weak, almost not there no feelings attached to them. The stupid/addictive part of brain may think it's okay to endgage with these thoughts, but it's not. It's pretty easy to eliminate all these thoughts now and keep myself occupied. But if I didn't do that and I engage with them, fantasize etc. that would have me probably done for in 2-3 days. So it's like I am getting through my urge now, two days in advance, when it's quite doable (It takes being humble and vigilant). Rather then having to fight it when it reaches that super strong point. Granted those strong urges happen, but looking for any little thing early on to handle can help the odds.

So lack of sleep, not working out. For sure contribute, any other factors in the last few days you can think of? So you can correct them in the future?
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: quitforeverthenwin2 on November 17, 2019, 09:22:17 AM
I FUCKING FAILED AGAIN AHHH. I WAS DOING SO WELL I DONT KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED. I was just horny and my filters didn't work and I failed fuck me man. I don't know why I felt this was I was doing so good this 2 weeks I almost made it to 2 weeks :( I don't know what else I can do... I really tried this week. Its better than last time. Maybe I can aim for 14 days this time... Im just so sad I've been struggling with porn for so long :(

Keep your chin up man, all is not lost. It's one time in 13 days, better then everyday. Maybe change the way you think about the bolded part: You had a very strong urge/ craving for pmo. It's different than being horny. That helps a bit for me to not rationalize "gray area" stuff. Horny is connecting with a woman sexually. Staring at a girl's body parts for a dopamine kick (what I've done) or a seemingly unbearable urge to sit in front of a computer screen alone, is part of our addictive neural pathways, not our natural horniness.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: quitforeverthenwin2 on November 28, 2019, 01:00:56 AM
Hope you get back on the horse soon. It's not a failure so long as you keep at it
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on December 10, 2019, 05:46:28 PM
I am back. Starting day 1. Since my last post entry I failed a couple tines but I also made it to 1 week or 13 days couple times too. Theres still couple things I need to fix with my life, such as my sleep schedule and my untidyness. Maybe those will help me push through.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: quitforeverthenwin2 on December 11, 2019, 05:21:31 PM
Welcome back man, almost all of us have been in this position. Just keep chipping away at it bit by bit. Checking out others journals can help a bit too, and also SUCCESS stories! I forget to do that, but the success story section provides a lot of inspiration and best practices. Just keep on going and keep trying. You'll get it. Each little streak you got is still strengthening your brain and preparing you for the next one.
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: ogito123 on December 11, 2019, 05:29:43 PM
Thank you very much man,  I really appreciate these supportive messages. I am tired and horny now and I was about to watch porn but I made the decision to write on this forum and then sleep. I am happy I was able to control myself now. I hope I will get  to be succesfull tomorrow too. Heres to a good tomorrow!
Title: Re: Things I need to do this for.
Post by: quitforeverthenwin2 on December 11, 2019, 06:08:26 PM
That is great man! Writing on the forum instead is a huge help to getting through those URGES (think of that feeling as an URGE not horniness, I recommend at least). When you get a few months clean you'll feel what real natural horniness is, it's a good feeling and not a feeling like you "have" to do something now.

Anyways man keep it up! Man I had a very powerful urge two days ago and posted like 5+ times that night to get through it, it worked! So I encourage you not to be shy about posting to get through urges if that works for you. And do it as much as you need.