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Journals => Ages 30-39 => Topic started by: cmdershep on April 16, 2019, 09:29:42 AM

Title: Nearly a year free
Post by: cmdershep on April 16, 2019, 09:29:42 AM
I'm currently closing in on one year without porn and masterbation.  Writing these words are hard to believe.  I almost never could have imagined that I would have been able to break free from my addiction.  Yes, I'm still battling with fear and anxiety about staying clean, especially since I'm getting married in 25 days.  My life is making several, gigantic changes this year.  I sometimes wonder if I can stay strong and overcome my fear and doubt.  I sometimes feel like I need to be absolutely perfect.  But I reminded myself that perfect isn't the goal, it's that I've put the time and effort to rewire my brain.  To know what I need to do to get the life I want.  And to love myself enough to believe that I deserve a loving, happy life.  I've made so many mistakes in my life, but I've found the strength to overcome and learn from them.  Never lose hope in the future.  Never lose hope in yourself.  You deserve love and happiness.
Title: Re: Nearly a year free
Post by: Greenzebra on April 16, 2019, 07:21:27 PM
Kind and helpful words. Thank you.
Title: Re: Nearly a year free
Post by: jixu on April 17, 2019, 09:37:21 AM
It would be hard to imagine a more better gift that you are giving to your soon to be wife than your one-year of clean living and other aspects that you mentioned.  Congratulations on the one-year and on the upcoming big wedding day.  Awesome dude!