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Title: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 19, 2019, 01:33:39 PM
Day 1@ 20 March 2019
Yesterday i relapsed because of an gif .
I lost my reboot control and relapsed.
But now started again.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 20, 2019, 11:48:20 AM
Relapsed again today.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 21, 2019, 03:27:33 AM
Day 1 at 21 march
I am now cutting my internet connection for two days.
Because day 1 and day 2 are most harder days.
Not feeling well. Dont have energy to enjoy life.

I am fully negative now. I really closing this horrible things now. I am free now. I do whatever but i stop it now.
Feeling bored whole day. Very very dumb today.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: pruthukkc on March 21, 2019, 11:33:33 AM
I also relapsed on day 1 it seems we are going in same direction. May we both recover as soon as possible.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 21, 2019, 06:03:07 PM

Day 2
Cant able to sleep whole night. But defeated urges and ready for reboot successfully
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 23, 2019, 12:04:40 AM
Day 3
Today i understand that my social anexity is because of porn addiction. Today i know that my low skills of concentration is because of porn.
Today i will say that i never expected that the porn harm someones life like this.
Its a very big damage of porn to my life in this 6 years.
But now i am trying to recover from it.
May god bless you and me to do it.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 23, 2019, 02:11:52 PM
Don't know why but i am relapsed.
Two times i relapsed. Tried all things but not successful.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 24, 2019, 01:55:52 AM
Day 1
Another day another new motivation.
If You start to win then you win.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 25, 2019, 06:32:29 AM
Day 2
All day headaches are their.
No urges. That boring ness is there whole day.
Did meditation.
I am aware about urges. And i am ready fight with it already.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 25, 2019, 11:30:53 PM
Day 3
Did meditation at morning.
My positivity is increased.
Feeling tired day whole day.
Withdrawal started.at night have a strong urge and i relapsed. But i relapsed only once. I have urges all night but i relapsed only once.

Day 1@ march 27
Did exercise at morning
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: pruthukkc on March 26, 2019, 11:05:41 PM
   Come on brother be strong don't relapse again your brain is always try to trick be brave enough to fight urges!
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 26, 2019, 11:14:07 PM
   Come on brother be strong don't relapse again your brain is always try to trick be brave enough to fight urges!
yes
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 26, 2019, 11:17:16 PM
Today at day 1 so many urges at morning but i defeated it well.
Headaches are there. I am feeling tired after taking full sleep.
Not curious about anything.
In past years i lossed my social skills. Everything a human need to live i lost that things.
Now this time is correct time reboot.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 28, 2019, 05:28:10 AM
Day 2
Triggers from morning. Controlled my self.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: jixu on March 28, 2019, 08:06:09 AM
Good job.  Keep up the good work.  One day at a time.  Many would have given up long ago. 
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 28, 2019, 02:33:49 PM
Relapsed
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 28, 2019, 02:42:42 PM
Started new reboot
Steps:
To know that urges are strong.
First 5 days are harder
Prepare for urges.
Go towards reboot with confidence
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 28, 2019, 09:12:17 PM
Day 1 at 29 march
I know all facts but i am relapsed. Because first 5-6 days are very hard.
At day 1 i am busy from morning. Day1 is important. Doing it again. Need motivation.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: pruthukkc on March 28, 2019, 11:30:53 PM
Bro you knew how to handle it urges just work on your ideas because of your suggestions I will reach on day 5 last month I relapsed like a hell I don't knew how to recover but after that I am working on your advice. You already know it you can do it don't relapse now! Never!
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 29, 2019, 12:31:49 AM
ok bro.
Starting with your motivation. thanks bro
this addiction made me emotion less.
i did so many mistakes in life. so many.
i never taken my carrier seriously. i am so bad now. i want to be good.
hey god please help me.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 31, 2019, 05:05:17 AM
Day 2 at march 31
day 1 completed. this timme reboot is fixed
Relapsed one time
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on March 31, 2019, 12:59:04 PM
Relapsed again.
Stopped again.
Relapsed again.
Now days my life is like this.
I am don't doing it seriously.
I am thinking that i don't want to reboot.
I need to be serious about my problems.
1. Social anexity
2. Depression
3, loss of carrier
4, bad health

I am taking it likely but this are so serious issue.
I thinking now that why i am relapsing so much. Whats the problem is there.
From now i am not posting daily on this site. I just know that i closed porn addiction from my life.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: pruthukkc on April 01, 2019, 02:38:27 AM
 I know it's painful but don't lose hope my friend.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 01, 2019, 07:08:48 AM
Day 1
Headache from morning .
God please save me. Your child is in dark . please send the light towards me
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: pruthukkc on April 01, 2019, 07:15:44 AM
 He is always with you just do it believe in yourself man!
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 02, 2019, 08:44:19 AM
Day 2
Today i did:
10 min Meditation
I am busy in interacting with people whole day.
Keeping myself busy.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 03, 2019, 02:14:39 AM
Day 3
Having headache from morning.
Yesterday night i have strong urges but i not relapsed because of slow Internet. Thanks god
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 03, 2019, 02:09:01 PM
Relapsed
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 03, 2019, 11:44:22 PM
4 April 2019
first day of new reboot. yesterday night i watched the porn because of headache . i know porn is not an solution to this but i relapsed.
so from today i begin it .
at this stage all thinks that reboot is impossible. but i need to see towards successful rebooters who did it.
now i am focusing on day1.
myplan :
4 april - Day 1
8 april- Day 5
13 april - Day 10

changes in my daily routine to make reboot possible.
wakeup at 5 am.
do daily exercise.
keeping myself busy whole day.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 04, 2019, 06:26:27 AM
I am completed day 1 successfully. Now going to take all things back that i missed because of porn addiction.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: jixu on April 04, 2019, 06:38:02 AM
Looking forward to hearing about day 2 tomorrow-press on friend.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 04, 2019, 11:04:13 PM
Thanks jixu.
I am at Day 2
Today i woke up at 5 am and did exercise . after that i did my study. Because my exams are near. So now wishing for a good success.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 06, 2019, 01:45:26 AM
2 day's completed and now at 3rd day.
Day 3
Did meditation today. Meditation makes my mind cool.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 07, 2019, 12:00:09 AM
3 days completed.
Day 4
Wet dream today. I know this is withdrawal symptom. I am going to be focused only on reboot. Not afraid of urges.
Now i know my triggers well and my performance till now in this reboot is very well. Now i am going to hit a new record of day 5 tomorrow .
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: pruthukkc on April 07, 2019, 04:49:46 AM
Be strong man!
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 07, 2019, 07:10:38 AM
Be strong man!
Yes. Now i am strong and know all my weaknesses.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 07, 2019, 10:08:30 PM
My 5 days goal is completed.

Day 5
Wet dream today. Two wet dreams in two days. Because of leaving this addiction i have porn dreams. And because of it there are wet dreams. I need to change my porn included thinking also. I need to be powerful.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 08, 2019, 01:32:48 PM
Wet dream leads to relapse in my case .i have two wet dreams in a row because of it i don't controlled my self andi am relapsed.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 08, 2019, 02:11:56 PM
Today i relapsed three times very baldly. I never relapsed like this.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 08, 2019, 02:38:30 PM
I remembered one thing i prepared for exams one month and at the day of exam i has a wet dream. And because of that i tired whole day. You need not only to be strong in mind but strong body also needs in reboot.
My 90 days challenge  plan from today:

Day 1 @12 April
Do rest today. Because the body is recovering itself from three relapse.

 Day 2 @13 April
Wakeup at 5:00 am daily morning. Because this avoid nightfalls.
Do exercise. And start work.



Day 3 @14 April  to Day 10 @ 21April
Wakeup at 5 am regularly. Don't miss any day. Till reaching day 10.

Day 11 at 22 April to
 Day 20 at 1may
Wake up early at 5 am. Don't miss any day. Now at main face of reboot. Tricky urges are their. Be careful about it.

Day 21 at 29 April to
Day 30 @ 7 May
30 days target is completed successfully.

Day 60 at 7 June
Successfully recovered whole body and rebooted partially. I write my journal when reach this goal.

Day 90 at 7 July
Challenge completed. Don't stop here start a new challenge of 180 days.

Day 120 at 7 August 2019
Near to achieve goal

Day 150 at 7 September
30 days remained to complete 180,

Day 180 at 7 October
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 10, 2019, 12:48:00 AM
Day 2 at 10 april
Completed first day. And now i am going to complete this day also. As planned i wake up at 5 am today. Did exercise .
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: deminounrae on April 10, 2019, 08:01:26 AM
I read all of your journal. You are a very determined man.
You fell many times BUT you want to get back up and that is admirable. Like someone very wise said: "Fall 100 times and get up 101". Nothing is impossible man be strong!
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 10, 2019, 10:16:44 PM
I read all of your journal. You are a very determined man.
You fell many times BUT you want to get back up and that is admirable. Like someone very wise said: "Fall 100 times and get up 101". Nothing is impossible man be strong!
Thanks for motivation
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 10, 2019, 10:19:03 PM
Day 3 at 11 april
Completed 2 days as planned schedule.
Now the second phase of plan started. I need to complete 10 days now.
I did exercise today. Started study for exams. Concentration problems are there.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 11, 2019, 01:49:57 PM
Relapsed. Whole plan is failed.
Started that plan again.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 11, 2019, 01:59:11 PM
Its really confusion for me why i am relapsing so much. When i know everything
In what basis i start it again.
When i know all bad effects i relapsing like a shit.
I am not like this before. I am now last trying to reboot well.
Day 1 at 12 th april
Did rest all day.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 13, 2019, 09:46:40 AM
Day 2
Did rest whole day. I am thinking that i am being angry at every relapse. I need some period of time to recover. I am now thinking that meditation helping me to be strong towards my goals.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 15, 2019, 04:39:37 AM
Day 4 at 15th april
Doing meditation on how to control myself from getting relapsed. My performance is so poor in past.

Being the person who you lost because of this addiction. Very difficult to concentrate in daily activities . i am so lucky that i know how to recover.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 15, 2019, 04:42:44 AM
Plan from today..
Wakeup at 5 am daily.
 Do meditation daily.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 17, 2019, 02:59:46 PM
Day 1 at april18
Yesterday i relapsed   :-[today also relapsed
Today day 0
Making relapse prevention techniques:
1. Know the thing that you are relapse if you respond urge in any case.
2. Know that you are not able to sleep at night in first 10 day's of reboot.
3. Learn to avoid the unnecessary decision to see porn.
4. There is no first time and last time in an addiction. The addiction make harm everytime.

5. Concentrate on reboot rather than past relapse.

6. Get control on yourself by using meditation as a tool.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 18, 2019, 10:09:20 AM
My goal for life:
1st
To be rebooted in this april of 2019.
 2nd :
To develop a good lifestyle.
3rd:
To have a good job who pays more money.

Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 18, 2019, 10:43:28 PM
19 April : Day 1
Brain fogg from morning. Feeling tired and lazy.
Can't able to concentrate on something. A do or die situation is created in my life now.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: LeanAndBop on April 19, 2019, 06:33:14 AM
Hey,
Hope you are OK. I'm in a similar position with setting myself challenging goals at the moment. Letting go of PMO is a big part of that. Developing a balanced lifestyle is a big challenge for me.
Wishing you all the best.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 19, 2019, 07:04:38 AM
Hey,
Hope you are OK. I'm in a similar position with setting myself challenging goals at the moment. Letting go of PMO is a big part of that. Developing a balanced lifestyle is a big challenge for me.
Wishing you all the best.
Thanks
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 20, 2019, 11:34:11 PM
21 April :Day 3
No urges from morning. No morning wood .
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 22, 2019, 11:32:14 PM
23 April : Day 5
Today i feeling well after 5 days . before this i have low concentration and foggy head. But now feeling well.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 23, 2019, 02:07:12 PM
Relaped at 23 april.
At night i am not able to sleep . so urges are very strong. And fapped. And ended my dreams for pleasure of few seconds. Ya . now i experience very low concentration levels and low stamina. I am very very sad today. There is no hope left today. No hope .
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 23, 2019, 10:15:24 PM
April 24 : Day 6
Today is actually day 1 but i am counting it as day 6, this can improve my confidence. Because i relapsed one time but did reboot 5 days . so i am looking positively towards relapse.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 24, 2019, 12:49:06 PM
Day 1 completed successfully after relapse. I fight so many urge today. My whole day and at night also have so many of urges.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on April 27, 2019, 04:09:57 PM
Starting it after break from rebooting.
Addicted badly to this.
Day 1 is at April 28
Completed successfully
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 03, 2019, 01:43:56 PM
Relapsed at day 6
Have an urge by seeing a short porn movie on insta and i fapped one time today at 12 at night.
So tomorrow is 4th may. Starting new reboot again.
I never stop until i break this addiction
Today also i ralapsed.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 07, 2019, 02:23:26 PM
Day 1 @ May 8
Yesterday i accidentally seen porn on social media. Afyer that my hand is not in my control. And i fapped .
I can't remembered i am on reboot. But i know if i make this thing good i can definitely win. Yes i can win definitely.
Years of fighting this. Now need little motivation to push back. I fapped last because i fapped it half. I thinking that not finishing it is not good for health. So i fapped because of health reasons.

From today Reboot 101 is started .
Because i think i am relapsed 98 times in first 10 days in past 1 year. So the reboot 101 remembered me the 98 failed steps and 3 near to success steps. I am not guilty but i learned very imp thing.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 09, 2019, 08:30:27 AM
May 9
Day 2
Need to leave. Because we all worship god not evil. Porn changing our thinking very badly
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: kadeshzelbriel on May 09, 2019, 11:09:48 AM
I'm proud of you, you can do this! It's really inspiring to see you commit to start again even you mess up. We all mess up and it can be really discouraging, so it feels really encouraging to me to see you refuse to give up. Thank you!!! Power to you!
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 09, 2019, 02:45:23 PM
Relapsed again . not able sleep without fapping so i fapped
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 09, 2019, 11:47:08 PM
Day 1
May 10
Starting is normal . not relapsing again is important. The person who wants to live the dream life that is a porn free life doesn't relapse. From today excusing all the past failures and starting new reboot again. I will never give up
Day 1 completed
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 13, 2019, 07:10:52 AM
Day 4
May 13
Yesterday has two nightfall in one night.
So many urges  . foggy head. Many more boredom
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: member2020 on May 14, 2019, 06:04:19 PM
why do we fall down - so that we learn to pick our-self back up again, so never back down, never-give-up.
I am like you, with a lot of relapses on my belt, more than I count. But we only need to succeed once to get rid of this evil right.
I know its really weird, but think I was able to slow down some of the withdrawals symptoms and boost up recovery by watching a show called (Naked Attraction) on Youtube, it helped me link normal naked bodies with personalities rather than porn. I know its very weird, but it helped me so thought of sharing the info. 
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 16, 2019, 03:26:54 PM
why do we fall down - so that we learn to pick our-self back up again, so never back down, never-give-up.
I am like you, with a lot of relapses on my belt, more than I count. But we only need to succeed once to get rid of this evil right.
I know its really weird, but think I was able to slow down some of the withdrawals symptoms and boost up recovery by watching a show called (Naked Attraction) on Youtube, it helped me link normal naked bodies with personalities rather than porn. I know its very weird, but it helped me so thought of sharing the info. 
thanks
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 16, 2019, 03:27:46 PM
Day 7
One week completed today at 16 may.
Feeling blessed by god. Thanks
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 17, 2019, 06:13:49 AM
Day 8
Feeling good today
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 18, 2019, 02:00:29 PM
Day 9 relapse d
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 18, 2019, 02:24:03 PM
Hello friends
I am relapsed but i am happy. This 4 years of my addicted life teached me a lot of my trigger. Now i am making written notes of it. And if i am did 9 days reboot then this relapse is not a bad thing  . this is good because now i need to more careful. This relapse made me more careful.
So number of relapse affect me i become aware about and get rid of this addiction.
Title: Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
Post by: Do or die on May 19, 2019, 04:42:33 AM
Day 1
Whole day urges are their. I am not able to study. Or any work that need concentration.relapsed at night.
I talked to my bestie about this. I think it will really helpful for me.