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Title: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 03, 2019, 08:53:41 PM
Hey everyone, just going to start a journal here, have had some tough issues with PMO, so I think it will be a good idea to cut it out of my life, here’s to clearing up all that brain fog! 23 years old and want to just feel better all around physically and mentally.

3/3/19

Pretty good day, had some urges to PMO, but I spent my time on better things, like asking out 3 different girls at the gym! They all had boyfriends I guess but whatevs!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 04, 2019, 12:36:33 PM
3/4/19

Feeling pretty good today so far but I think that a lot of my triggers come from being bored, stressed, or tired so I need to do something else whenever I get triggered or start to get strong urges to PMO, need to get up and go for a walk or something when that happens.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 05, 2019, 12:31:58 PM
3/5/19

Not much urge to PMO yesterday, may be because you feel like s*** after doing it for a few days, need to be aware of my motivations for it and when I’m most likely to do it and what triggers the urge to PMO.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 06, 2019, 01:38:37 PM
3/6/19

Not much urge to PMO again, although yesterday was kind of a sh**** day, felt terrible and it’s not much better so far today.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 07, 2019, 12:28:24 PM
3/7/19

Getting some energy back again, you always feel lethargic and heavy after a few days when you last PMO’d, just totally messes up dopamine levels.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 08, 2019, 12:23:20 PM
3/8/19

Scratch that, yesterday I felt lethargic and disinterested in general, my body felt tired and heavy the whole day but I embraced the discomfort and got through the day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 09, 2019, 12:26:00 PM
3/9/19

Better energy but felt really anxious and on edge most of the day, whenever I experience confusion it’s definitely a huge trigger so I need to watch out as much as possible for it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 10, 2019, 12:07:03 PM
3/10/19

Lately I’ve felt like my focus is always being pulled in so many different directions, sometimes I even think I may have ADHD or something, I don’t know, it’s weird.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 11, 2019, 11:40:20 AM
3/11/19

Yesterday was a pretty good day but I still feel like I have ADHD or something, my attention is constantly all over the place.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 12, 2019, 11:43:18 AM
3/12/19

Had a really tough day yesterday, was in a lot of physical and emotional pain but I accepted it fully.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 13, 2019, 12:38:49 PM
3/13/19

Another tough day, I made it through but there was still a lot of pain present with me and I wasn’t sure what to do.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Recovery Will Come on March 13, 2019, 02:19:30 PM
Keep up the good work!!! I would erase all browser history, get rid of social media (temporarily until you recover) go out into the real world and have fun.. Be active and productive... You have to stay busy and block out all of porn flashbacks in your head that will try to urge you to PMO... Ignore and every time wether you find a hobby, working or just doing something productive.... I have done this reboot process for 3 years in a row and in 2017 I made it to 64 days which was 10 weeks.... Then relapsed when I made the huge mistake on going back to social media then relapsed.. Trust me your better off without it...... Keep on trucking and try to post how many days you are on every time you post
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 14, 2019, 12:53:54 PM
Thanks for the feedback.

3/14/19

Had a really difficult day yesterday, I was very anxious for a lot of the day and didn’t know what to do.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 15, 2019, 11:03:01 AM
3/15/19

Another tough day, was pretty stuck in my head for most of the day, anxiety freaking sucks.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Quitforeverthenwin on March 15, 2019, 11:46:27 PM
Great job man keep it up! I am in a similar boat. A cool thing a friend shared with me was: you can view the awful feelings as PROGRESS. There is always some resistance to change and your brain is rewiring itself, so the odd feelings are a good sign, you are progressing and moving towards where you want to go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 16, 2019, 02:40:03 PM
Yeah for sure trying to get rid of thoughts and feelings is a fools errand, it’s aboot changing the relationship to them instead of trying to get rid of or suppress them, which is impossible anyways.

3/16/19

Yesterday was a better day, I feel as if I am getting better at letting my thoughts and emotions go no matter how painful or frightening they are.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 17, 2019, 01:17:40 PM
3/17/19

Well I’m moving into a new apartment today and yesterday was a pretty tough day, was in a lot of emotional discomfort, I still did everything I needed to though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 18, 2019, 04:41:45 PM
3/18/19

Ughh I’m exhausted, so much stuff happening so fast.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 19, 2019, 12:19:44 PM
3/19/19

Yesterday had me anxious and on edge most of the day, need to be aware of whenever I get distracted.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 20, 2019, 10:37:18 AM
3/20/19

Yesterday was pretty triggering but I still did everything I needed to haha.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 21, 2019, 10:44:09 AM
3/21/19

Had a pretty tough day yesterday, not much of an urge to PMO, I just felt really anxious and depressed.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 22, 2019, 12:30:19 PM
3/22/19

Not much of an urge to PMO again, I just felt really depressed and hopeless again, emotions were really intense all day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 23, 2019, 11:11:04 AM
3/23/19

This has been a tough week but I’m still doing everything I need to do.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 24, 2019, 11:27:07 AM
3/24/19

Yesterday was one of those days where I felt lethargic and heavy the whole day, not too pleasant haha.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 25, 2019, 06:48:30 PM
3/25/19

Pretty busy day yesterday, still getting moved into my apartment and getting all my sh** in there lol.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 26, 2019, 10:12:19 AM
3/26/19

Pretty good day yesterday but I was pretty dang tired most of the day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 27, 2019, 01:07:01 PM
3/27/19

Yesterday started out well but it was tough in the end, still having a lot of painful thoughts and emotions, but I need to be at ease with it instead of seeing it as something bad or something that needs to be fought against.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 28, 2019, 07:05:33 PM
3/28/19

Yesterday was another tough day but I got through it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: BlueHeronFan on March 28, 2019, 08:08:20 PM
Way to be, man! We can only go one day at a time. Today might have been tough, but they won't all be like that. Sometimes, my addicted brain tricks me into thinking that the days are only going to get worse and worse--and then I relapse. And then better days come along. So stay strong! Better days are ahead!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 29, 2019, 11:14:39 AM
Haha yeah when you think a day will be awesome or terrible a lot of the time it’s the opposite of what you think, shows how illusory our minds are sometimes.

3/29/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 30, 2019, 10:15:13 AM
3/30/19

Yesterday was tough, my mind was all over the place and I didn’t sleep too well either...
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on March 31, 2019, 12:53:55 PM
3/31/19

Had a pretty good tough day yesterday, my mind was all over the place.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 01, 2019, 10:26:28 AM
4/1/19

Man, yesterday was busy, glad I got it all done... :)
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Quitforeverthenwin on April 01, 2019, 04:21:22 PM
Nice! Sounds like it was a pretty good day
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 02, 2019, 11:29:36 AM
Yep definitely was.

4/2/19

Another day where I was anxious and nervous, ughhh.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 03, 2019, 01:01:25 PM
4/3/19

Things haven’t been going my way in life lately, man this is tough.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 04, 2019, 11:02:38 AM
4/4/19

Yesterday was another rough day but I just gotta keep trudging through.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 05, 2019, 12:53:02 PM
4/5/19

Yesterday was a better day, still worried about a lot of things though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 06, 2019, 05:18:07 PM
4/6/19

Yesterday was a good day, need to make today the best it can be as well
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 07, 2019, 10:46:40 AM
4/7/19

Yesterday was painful and tough, felt anxious and on edge pretty much the whole day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 08, 2019, 10:29:14 AM
4/8/19

Yesterday went pretty well! Did everything I needed to even though I was anxious at times.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 09, 2019, 11:27:11 AM
4/9/19

Yesterday was a tough day but good because I still did everything I needed to, just pushing the comfort zone a little bit every day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 10, 2019, 11:28:32 AM
4/10/19

Yesterday was a really tough day, I did everything needed but was in a lot of emotional pain and felt really lonely, one must carry on anyways though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 11, 2019, 11:30:39 AM
4/11/19

Another tough day but I just gotta embrace everything fully.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 12, 2019, 10:59:52 AM
4/12/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, even though strong feelings of anxiety were with me I took action and did what was needed.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 13, 2019, 11:16:33 AM
4/13/19

Yesterday I just let my thoughts and feelings come and go even though they were pretty strong at times.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 14, 2019, 11:21:38 AM
4/14/19

I’m having a lot of strong urges to PMO and have had a general cloudiness in my head lately as well, looks like a rough patch coming up, just need to stay present with the sensations in my body.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 15, 2019, 10:23:39 AM
4/15/19

Yesterday was another difficult day, a lot of pain and difficult feelings were with me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 16, 2019, 11:09:03 AM
4/16/19

Yesterday a lot of things went wrong but I just let it come and go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 17, 2019, 11:11:33 AM
4/17/19

Yesterday was another rough day, many things seemed to go terribly wrong but I stuck through to the end anyways.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: jixu on April 18, 2019, 04:11:12 AM
You are making a wise move to eradicate this stuff as a young person.  It will serve you well the rest of your life.  Keep going!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: racer303 on April 18, 2019, 08:47:50 AM
Hey man! i just came across your journal! keep it up man! dont be afraid to let us know what it working for you to stay focused. I just started and am 1 day PMO free.

I'm starting some frontal lobe meditation techniques, im hoping it helps with my decision making. Keep it up!

25 and need to get rid of brain fog too!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 18, 2019, 11:05:18 AM
Thanks guys, we all just need to do what’s best for us!

4/18/19

A pretty good day but I did have some medical issues and was in a lot of pain, however it has passed and I’m feeling much better now.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 19, 2019, 11:05:04 AM
4/19/19

Yesterday was a really good day, did everything I needed to and took action towards what was important to me!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Recovery Will Come on April 20, 2019, 06:51:39 AM
Keep on trucking!! How many days are you on?
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 20, 2019, 12:56:02 PM
Thanks bro, it’s been a good journey so far, I tend to not focus on how many days I’ve gone because what’s more important is me living my life more fully and following my values instead of merely focusing on how long I can go without PMO.

4/20/19

Heading to San Diego for the weekend, hopefully it will be a fun, relaxing time!

Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 21, 2019, 11:58:29 AM
4/21/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, although I’m still dealing with some medical issues, I’m praying to God that it doesn’t get bad before I get back home, even if it doesn’t though, I’ve prepared for it as best as I can.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 22, 2019, 10:52:20 AM
4/22/19

Was pretty anxious and nervous yesterday about my medical issue, although it hasn’t been really painful yet, I’m nervous about how it will turn out.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 23, 2019, 08:35:04 AM
4/23/19

Had a pretty good day, leaving San Diego today and am getting a CT scan when I get home for my medical issue, still a bit nervous about it, but I guess we’ll see how things turn out.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 24, 2019, 10:39:39 AM
4/24/19

Got my CT scan yesterday, bad news, 3 mm kidney stone on my right side, doc said it would pass in a couple days but I’ve been in a ton of pain since yesterday, I’ve been really upset and angry, seems like all this random medical stuff is happening to me at 23 years old and the best I can do is hope nothing gets worse in the future.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 25, 2019, 12:12:26 PM
4/25/19

Welp I passed the kidney stone yesterday, it was a very unpleasant experience and I hope to avoid it at all costs in the future, my bladder has been backed up for a week so it’s going to need to get some work before it’s back to normal again haha.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 26, 2019, 10:45:50 AM
4/26/19

Yesterday was a tough day, was thinking about a lot of different things and was really worried at times as well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 27, 2019, 02:40:16 PM
4/27/19

Had another tough day, a lot of anxiety was present but I stuck through it until the end.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 28, 2019, 11:16:17 AM
4/28/19

Had an alright day yesterday, still a lot of anxiety present.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on April 28, 2019, 12:48:36 PM
Hey,
Hope your alright. I have difficulty with worry and anxiety too. Definitely links to my PMO experience. How do you deal with your anxiety? Does it trigger your PMO habit?
All the best.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 29, 2019, 10:03:58 AM
I just let it pass without trying to struggle or argue with it. Meditation for 30 minutes a day also helps.

4/29/19

Had a pretty tough day again yesterday but I stayed present and became more aware of my thoughts and feelings.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on April 29, 2019, 12:20:44 PM
Thanks. I've found letting it pass makes sense and helps.
All the best.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on April 30, 2019, 11:03:44 AM
No problem!

4/30/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday even though a lot of anxiety and stress was with me at the end of the day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 01, 2019, 11:08:16 AM
5/1/19

Yesterday was a tough day, a lot of stress and anxiety as well as depression and anger was present with me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 02, 2019, 10:57:23 AM
5/2/19

Had a lot of anxiety and stress with me yesterday, everything just seemed to go terribly wrong.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 03, 2019, 10:58:42 AM
5/3/19

Yesterday was a pretty good day, took action towards what I wanted even though I had a lot of anxiety and doubt.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 04, 2019, 11:10:17 AM
5/4/19

Had a decent day yesterday, a lot of things I still need to work on but I’m definitely making progress.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 05, 2019, 10:56:39 AM
5/5/19

Had a pretty solid day yesterday, took a lot of action towards what I wanted and chilled towards the end of the day as well!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 06, 2019, 10:14:20 AM
5/6/19

Had a pretty tough day towards the end but I still did what I needed to and accepted everything fully.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on May 06, 2019, 12:52:24 PM
Hey man, hope you're OK. Glad you got through a tough day!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Rengaw on May 06, 2019, 12:59:27 PM
Brick you seem to be doing pretty well for a rebooter. I don't see any relapses or small slips, and you're  combing back every time. Same time, same place. Routine. That's a good way to start growing out of your addiction and into your new life.

Hang in there!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 07, 2019, 11:11:04 AM
Thanks guys, consistency definitely is key and just staying focused on yourself, way easier said than done though. I also think it helps to not to try to get rid of urges or certain thoughts because it makes them come back stronger, not getting rid of it but changing the way you relate to all these internal experiences helps you to just see them for what they are.

5/7/19

A lot of anxiety and confusion yesterday but I was aware of it without trying to change or control it or figure it out.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 08, 2019, 10:04:11 AM
5/8/19

Yesterday a lot of anxiety and doubt was with me but I did everything that was important to me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 09, 2019, 10:59:05 AM
5/9/19

A lot of anxiety and doubt was with me again yesterday.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 11, 2019, 10:15:17 AM
5/10/19

Still worrying about a lot of things.

5/11/19

Worrying still, this morning has been rough as well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 12, 2019, 10:55:06 AM
5/12/19

Yesterday I felt very angry and hopeless.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 13, 2019, 10:02:38 AM
5/13/19

Yesterday I had a lot of fear, pain, and anxiety present.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on May 13, 2019, 12:14:37 PM
Hey hope you are OK. I know the feeling. Everything passes! Pleasant or unpleasant. I really struggle to appreciate this when in a bad place though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 14, 2019, 10:08:12 AM
Thanks, your mind will definitely try to mess with you that’s for sure haha.

5/14/19

Another day with a lot of anxiety and fear.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 15, 2019, 10:05:18 AM
5/15/19

Had a lot of painful feelings with me again yesterday.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Rengaw on May 16, 2019, 05:24:16 AM
Hi brick,

You seem to be going through many emotions and it seems to be challenging. And you seem to be able to deal with them the right way. Excellent!
Hang in there and keep your head up.

Cheers
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 16, 2019, 11:55:01 PM
Thanks man, it’s helpful to step back from emotions and thoughts and see them for what they are, just that, emotions and thoughts.

5/16/19

Had a pretty good day today even though I had some pain and discomfort present with me again.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 17, 2019, 10:10:06 AM
5/17/19

Had a productive day even though I’m still having physical pain from my kidney stone.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 18, 2019, 11:03:26 AM
5/18/19

Had another productive day even though pain was still present.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 19, 2019, 11:04:36 AM
5/19/19

Yesterday went pretty well, did everything I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 20, 2019, 10:06:19 AM
5/20/19

Had a lot of things on my mind yesterday about what may happen.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Quitforeverthenwin on May 21, 2019, 09:01:56 AM
Keep up the good work!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 21, 2019, 10:00:04 AM
Thanks man!

5/21/19

Was fully aware of what my mind was telling me throughout the day yesterday.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on May 21, 2019, 12:18:51 PM
Hey hope you are OK! Being aware is better than unaware, no?
Wishing you all the best
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 22, 2019, 03:31:52 PM
Yeah definitely.

5/22/19

Yesterday was alright I guess.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 23, 2019, 06:22:32 AM
5/23/19

Had a better day yesterday, was able to take effective action towards what I want.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 24, 2019, 10:50:16 AM
5/24/19

Rested all day yesterday due to my surgery on my elbow, hopefully I’ll be back at it tomorrow!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 25, 2019, 05:17:34 PM
5/25/19

Rested again yesterday, back to work today though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 26, 2019, 11:56:01 AM
5/26/19

Was in a lot of pain and discomfort yesterday but I got through it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 27, 2019, 02:41:18 PM
5/27/19

Yesterday went pretty well, have been feeling much lighter lately.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 28, 2019, 11:57:46 AM
5/28/19

Had a pretty good day but have been feeling confused about some things lately.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 29, 2019, 10:07:49 AM
5/29/19

Yesterday went well, did some things I wanted to and laughed a lot about some different things!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 30, 2019, 10:57:26 AM
5/30/19

Had a lot of feelings of depression yesterday but I just let them come and go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on May 31, 2019, 10:05:25 AM
5/31/19

Had a lot of feelings of depression and hopelessness yesterday again.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 01, 2019, 10:51:30 AM
6/1/19

Now that the feelings of depression have mostly passed, I’ve been having a lot of feelings of anxiety and anxious thoughts as well, thinking about some things in particular causes high amounts of anxiety.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 02, 2019, 09:43:26 AM
6/2/19

Many things are confusing me and some things I’m doing in life may not be taking me to where I want to go, may need to change some things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 03, 2019, 10:07:07 AM
6/3/19

Need to change and explore some different things today.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 04, 2019, 10:53:15 AM
6/4/19

My values and priorities have changed, so it’s time to look at what really matters and is important instead of what I think is important.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 05, 2019, 10:22:36 AM
6/5/19

I had some time to re-evaluate what my values and goals are and I think changing up my game plan is what’s best for me at this point.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 06, 2019, 10:57:16 AM
6/6/19

Had a lot of anxiety and tension present with me, just really down about a lot of things lately.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 07, 2019, 10:04:44 AM
6/7/19

Have had a lot of confusion lately about life, I guess we can only learn through experience haha.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 08, 2019, 05:43:17 PM
6/8/19

Got a lot of things done yesterday that I needed to!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 09, 2019, 11:09:53 AM
6/9/19

Yesterday was ok I guess, still not feeling the best though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 10, 2019, 10:05:33 AM
6/10/19

Had a pretty good day, got to relax and get some perspective on things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on June 10, 2019, 12:01:52 PM
6/10/19

Had a pretty good day, got to relax and get some perspective on things.

Hey Brick
Thanks for your journal. You keep it brief but sweet. Glad you had a positive day.
Wishing you all the best
Bop
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 11, 2019, 10:53:54 AM
Thanks broski, I like doing that because I think more people today need simplicity sand meaning in their lives haha.

6/11/19

Yesterday was a pretty good day as well, got to relax and plan for some things as well, I have work off today and a quick day at the gym so it should be great again!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 12, 2019, 10:07:15 AM
6/12/19

Yesterday was a decent day, had some difficult emotions but still did what I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 13, 2019, 10:07:09 AM
6/13/19

Had a pretty good day, got done what I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 14, 2019, 11:01:45 AM
6/14/19

Had a pretty good day, I think taking a more gentle approach to life helps me to see things more clearly.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 15, 2019, 09:24:47 AM
6/15/19

Had a pretty good day, had to deal with some negative thoughts but I looked at them differently this time.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 16, 2019, 11:08:57 AM
6/16/19

Had a lot of physical pain yesterday, have been worrying about it a lot too.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 17, 2019, 10:07:47 AM
6/17/19

Had a pretty good day, did everything I needed to do.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 18, 2019, 09:24:49 AM
6/18/19

Had a pretty busy day, did my best to stay centered and focused though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: LeanAndBop on June 18, 2019, 11:49:44 AM
Hey Brick,
Glad your doing well.
All the best
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Lukeless on June 18, 2019, 12:46:02 PM
You are great.
Always keep your head up, it's worth it!
You are the living proof!
Thanks a lot.
You motivate me!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 19, 2019, 10:05:30 AM
Thanks guys, appreciate it.

6/19/19

Had a very busy day yesterday but I got everything done.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 20, 2019, 09:51:12 AM
6/20/19

Just another ordinary day yesterday.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Mrblueberry on June 20, 2019, 12:04:58 PM
Yo i have read your journal and i would like to battle this demon with you as accountability buddies! You are doing great so far in battling porn man!  8)
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 21, 2019, 11:29:30 AM
Thanks, just need to be consistent I’d say.

6/21/19

Had a pretty good day, a lot of anxiety but I stayed present with what was actually happening.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 22, 2019, 09:06:06 AM
6/22/19

Had a pretty good day, had some anxiety and negative thoughts present, but I didn’t beat myself up over it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Mrblueberry on June 23, 2019, 10:30:39 AM
Hello,

I have read your recent posts. You say you have anxious thoughts, thoughts are not a part of you. They come and they go, whenever you have a anxious or self destructive thought, ask yourself if this thought is really true? 99% of the time the thought won't be true, and in the minor cases your thoughts appear to be 'true', does it really matter that much?

Try to notice your thoughts and emotions, let them come, and let them go. Don't identify with your thoughts. If this sounds all fugazi for you, i recommend reading: ''The power of now'' from Eckart Thole.

Hope this helps you out with your unwanting thoughts!

greetings

mrblueberry
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 23, 2019, 10:53:35 AM
Yeah I’ve read it haha, I think that does help me though when you mentioned that most of the thoughts aren’t true, looking at them in a different way has helped me to recognize that they aren’t based in reality most of the time haha, thanks!

6/23/19

Had a great day yesterday, got to hang out with some family members and have a good time!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 24, 2019, 10:15:15 AM
6/24/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, stayed pretty busy.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 25, 2019, 10:50:30 AM
6/25/19

I have been experiencing a lot of confusion lately, so many things in life seem to be so complicated and difficult to understand and quite frankly, my head hurts thinking about it so damn much.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Mrblueberry on June 25, 2019, 04:23:40 PM
Yo man, read about your confusion and you worrying about life. What's complicated for you, about what are you thinking?
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 26, 2019, 10:06:15 AM
Just the other in which I’m going basically.

6/26/19

Had another difficult day, have still had a lot of worries.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 27, 2019, 10:04:59 AM
6/27/19

Yesterday was tough at first but I made it into a pretty good day.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 28, 2019, 09:48:41 AM
6/28/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, did what I needed to!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Thank you for all that you do for me on June 29, 2019, 05:37:30 AM
Brickinthewall5933, I completely understand why you would feel that way yesterday was a bit tough but you decided to hang in there, i hope you enjoy your day today  ;D ;D
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 29, 2019, 08:05:22 PM
Thanks, I appreciate it.

6/29/19

Have been ok today, not much has happened though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on June 30, 2019, 11:14:57 AM
6/30/19

Have been really bored lately, not sure if it’s just because of working or scheduled ok or what but it has been here with me the past couple days.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Thank you for all that you do for me on July 01, 2019, 05:25:50 AM
Is it posible that you tried to schedule some fun time at the end of the day e.g time with friends, watching your favourite tv shows, staring at the night sky or anything else that makes you happy
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 01, 2019, 10:04:00 AM
Yeah I still try to do that but sometimes boredom is just there I guess.

7/1/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, got a lot of school work done and had a good day at the gym.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Thank you for all that you do for me on July 02, 2019, 04:30:24 AM
 gentle reminder that you're a badass and beautifully human for getting up, showing up and facing whatever demons that are trying to destroy you
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 02, 2019, 10:04:06 AM
Thanks man, I appreciate that.

7/2/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, got done what I needed to and focused on what was important.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 03, 2019, 10:09:43 AM
7/3/19

Had a great day even though my mind was very busy.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 04, 2019, 11:03:07 AM
7/4/19

Had another good day, my mind wants to follow a bunch of negativity but I’ve been able to step back and get a different perspective on the story my mind tells me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 05, 2019, 10:05:12 AM
7/5/19

Had a great day, went to a baseball game yesterday and enjoyed a good firework show as well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 06, 2019, 10:53:21 AM
7/6/19

Had a pretty rough day, was in a lot of physical pain and discomfort, may have to see a doc soon, been having problems with this for over 3 months now, so frustrating.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 07, 2019, 11:21:57 AM
7/7/19

Had a better day, was still in a lot of discomfort though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 08, 2019, 10:04:52 AM
7/8/19

Had a lot of painful thoughts and emotions yesterday, but I let them go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 09, 2019, 10:02:57 AM
7/9/19

Got everything done today that I needed to, was pretty productive.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 10, 2019, 10:04:14 AM
7/10/19

Yesterday was a pretty good day again, despite being hard at first.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Thank you for all that you do for me on July 11, 2019, 06:10:56 AM
You are doing enough. You are doing a great job, actually  :)
Stay gold my friend  :)
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 11, 2019, 10:58:24 AM
Thanks for the encouragement!

7/11/19

Had a good day yesterday as well, got a lot done even though pain and discomfort was with me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on July 11, 2019, 11:55:09 AM
Hey buddy, what day are you on currently?

- Adventurer
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 12, 2019, 10:10:07 AM
I don’t worry about that because, honestly, it holds onto the idea that I’m the type of guy who looks at porn and has to try really hard not to, I think the best approach is to become the type of guy who doesn’t look at porn.

7/12/19

Today was pretty good, got a lot of things done.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on July 12, 2019, 10:56:20 AM
Interesting approach! It helps me personally to keep track at the moment, mainly because when I wasn't keeping track I found that I was letting more relapses through the net and not holding myself as accountable. However, I wasn't keeping a journal at the time and you are, so if this approach works for you, I'd say full power to you!

I hope you have a great day!

- Adventurer
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 13, 2019, 10:51:53 AM
Thanks, yeah everyone is different in how they respond to things so if it works, all the power to you!

7/13/19

Yesterday went well, I’ve been feeling better mentally and physically.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 14, 2019, 11:10:36 AM
7/14/19

Yesterday went well, started to feel like I can take control of life now!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: squid on July 14, 2019, 10:46:12 PM
Nice work man, sounds like a lot of good days!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 15, 2019, 10:05:05 AM
Yep, it’s been better lately.

7/15/19

Yesterday went well even though a lot of uncomfortable feelings were present with me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 17, 2019, 11:22:21 AM
7/16/19

Had a tough day on Monday, was pretty stressed and confused about a lot of different things.

7/17/19

Had a good day yesterday, did the actions I needed to even though a lot of discomfort was present.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: squid on July 18, 2019, 06:51:46 AM
Good work man!  What type of positive goals are you working on?
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 18, 2019, 10:04:10 AM
I go to the gym 4 times a week and push myself to socialize with others.

7/18/19

Didn’t have the best day, was really confused about a lot of things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 19, 2019, 10:05:39 AM
7/19/19

Still confused over some things, it has been really frustrating, might be time to make some changes.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 20, 2019, 02:44:34 PM
7/20/19

Need to start realizing that life rarely goes how you think it will in your head, you just have to navigate and adjust accordingly.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 22, 2019, 10:09:54 AM
7/21/19

Had a long day, really tired.

7/22/19

Another long day, hopefully I can do what’s needed again.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 23, 2019, 10:05:16 AM
7/23/19

Have some things to consider given my current situation...
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 24, 2019, 10:07:30 AM
7/24/19

Have been having some physical pain again.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 25, 2019, 09:45:06 AM
7/25/19

Hopefully today goes well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Do or die on July 26, 2019, 03:52:21 PM
Help plz
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 27, 2019, 09:22:37 AM
How is it I can help you?

7/27/19

Today was pretty good, did what I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 28, 2019, 11:05:19 AM
7/28/19

I thought yesterday was going to turn out poorly, but I was able to switch gears and get the most out of it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 29, 2019, 08:39:27 AM
7/29/19

Experienced anger and confusion yesterday but brought a gentle approach to it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 30, 2019, 08:37:50 AM
7/30/19

Had a busy day, was still gentle in my approach to it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on July 31, 2019, 08:40:56 AM
7/31/19

Had a pretty good day, did what I needed to do.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 01, 2019, 08:50:51 AM
8/1/19

Have been doing better socially lately, getting a different perspective on negative thoughts can definitely help.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 02, 2019, 12:18:09 PM
8/2/19

Had a lot of things happen outside my control yesterday that I would rather have not happened, but I still need to adjust to it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 03, 2019, 10:12:52 AM
8/3/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, I’m going on a trip this weekend and it has been great so far.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 04, 2019, 09:55:59 AM
8/4/19

Had a pretty good day today, was having a relaxing time and did what I wanted to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 05, 2019, 10:03:27 AM
8/5/19

Had a lot of things go the opposite of how I expected but I did my best to adjust to them.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 06, 2019, 08:50:05 AM
8/6/19

Had a pretty good day, got back into my routine of doing things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 07, 2019, 08:35:16 AM
8/7/19

Didn’t have the best day yesterday, still worried about a lot of things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 08, 2019, 11:37:27 AM
8/8/19

I have today off from work, have a lot of things that I need to get done as well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 09, 2019, 08:36:43 AM
8/9/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, did what I needed to do.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 10, 2019, 07:39:47 AM
8/10/19

Yesterday was alright, still a lot of things I need to work on though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 11, 2019, 11:12:55 AM
8/11/19

There are some things I might need to change up again, always have to be willing to be wrong about some things and pen to changing your mind.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 12, 2019, 09:14:36 AM
8/12/19

Probably going to have to make some changes today, a lot of things aren’t going too well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 13, 2019, 09:37:01 AM
8/13/19

There are some different things that I’m going to find out today.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 14, 2019, 09:37:02 AM
8/14/19

Yesterday didn’t go so well, will probably need to make some changes again.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 15, 2019, 11:23:20 AM
8/15/19

I had a tough day and a lot of difficult thoughts and emotions came up, however, I just let them come and go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 16, 2019, 10:07:35 AM
8/16/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, got a lot of things done that were necessary.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 17, 2019, 09:39:35 AM
8/17/19

Had a pretty good day, was able to do everything I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 18, 2019, 11:43:07 AM
8/18/19

Yesterday was tough, had a lot of difficult feelings with me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 19, 2019, 10:05:55 AM
8/19/19

Have been quite worried about a lot of different things, but I’ve still done what I need to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 20, 2019, 10:54:58 AM
8/20/19

Yesterday went pretty rough, I was pretty angry and bitter about some different things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 21, 2019, 08:35:04 AM
8/21/19

Had a pretty rough day, was caught up in my head and thinking a lot.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Non-Dual Adventurer on August 21, 2019, 07:23:25 PM
Keep on chugging along Mr Pink Floyd. :)
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 22, 2019, 08:35:13 AM
Haha thanks bro.

8/22/19

Had a tough day, my mind was really scattered and all over the place, still did my daily actions though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 23, 2019, 12:04:04 PM
8/23/19

Yesterday a lot of random shit happened, but I was able to do everything I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 24, 2019, 10:22:42 AM
8/24/19

Yesterday went pretty well, hopefully things will stay that way for a bit.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 25, 2019, 11:06:53 AM
8/25/19

Yesterday went well again, hopefully this trend continues!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 26, 2019, 08:41:18 AM
8/26/19

Have felt depressed for the past day for no apparent reason.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Arthur2 on August 26, 2019, 09:33:34 AM
On what day are you porn sober ? Do you also do nofap or only no PMO ?
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 27, 2019, 09:21:14 AM
I honestly don’t count them, it gives me an identity of a guy that doesn’t have things going for him and has to try really hard to not watch porn, doesn’t lead to a successful life for me personally.

8/27/19

Today was a good day even though a lot of uncertainty and boredom was with me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 28, 2019, 08:35:35 AM
8/28/19

Have been thinking about some things for a while now, still uncertain about it though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 29, 2019, 08:34:05 AM
8/29/19

Yesterday went well, got a lot done.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 30, 2019, 10:10:22 AM
8/30/19

I had a pretty rough day but I still did actions that were important to me.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on August 31, 2019, 11:33:57 AM
8/31/19

Yesterday went well, although I’ve been having some feelings of anger for a while now, it hasn’t been too pleasant and some thoughts have been really negative.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 01, 2019, 11:06:56 AM
9/1/19

Been having a lot of worries about a lot of different things, yesterday I was really concerned about it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 02, 2019, 09:13:01 PM
9/2/19

I need to realize that almost all of my assumptions are wrong about the world and that being wrong is very important because while painful, it opens the door to new and interesting possibilities.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 03, 2019, 09:13:18 AM
9/3/19

Feeling pretty tired and lethargic today, I’ll still do what I need to though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 04, 2019, 11:27:55 AM
9/4/19

Have felt pretty tired and lethargic today, going to do my best to get through it.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 05, 2019, 11:39:33 AM
9/5/19

Yesterday went well, I’m mainly just really tired a lot of the time.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 06, 2019, 11:47:14 AM
9/6/19

It may be necessary to try some different strategies for some issues I’m having moving forward, but that’s how it is, everything is always changing.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 07, 2019, 02:35:49 PM
9/7/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, felt a lot calmer during the day than usual.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 08, 2019, 11:08:09 AM
9/8/19

I experienced a high level of anxiety yesterday, however, I dealt with it effectively.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 09, 2019, 09:18:07 AM
9/9/19

I again had a lot of difficult thoughts and emotions come up, but I was able to deal with them effectively.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 10, 2019, 09:18:51 AM
9/10/19

A lot of stress came up today, but I dealt with it effectively.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 11, 2019, 09:18:08 AM
9/11/19

Felt pretty tired and stressed, still did what I needed to though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 12, 2019, 10:02:06 AM
9/12/19

Had a pretty good day yesterday, dealt with my emotions well.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 13, 2019, 09:55:22 AM
9/13/19

Had a lot of painful thoughts and emotions come up, but I let them come and go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 14, 2019, 11:19:38 AM
9/14/19

Today went well, got everything done that I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 15, 2019, 11:36:27 AM
9/15/19

I experienced a lot of anxiety and confusion today, but I still did what I needed to.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 16, 2019, 08:51:38 AM
9/16/19

Had a pretty tough day yesterday, a lot of difficult things have been happening in my life lately.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Free-man on September 16, 2019, 09:42:25 AM
Keep strong Brick!
You're fixing life issues without switch the porn button. Bravo!
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 17, 2019, 08:33:56 AM
Thanks man, I appreciate it, I think that is one of the biggest things a lot of us need to do!

9/17/19

I didn’t feel too good yesterday, I have today off work though so I’ll probably rest a bit.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 18, 2019, 08:32:00 AM
9/18/19

Yesterday was pretty productive, got a lot of different things done.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 19, 2019, 09:19:46 AM
9/19/19

Yesterday was tough, had a lot of difficult thoughts and emotions come up.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 20, 2019, 08:37:39 AM
9/20/19

Had a good day, took action towards what was important to me.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 21, 2019, 04:57:18 PM
9/21/19

Yesterday a lot of difficult feelings came up, but I still did what I needed to do.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 22, 2019, 12:17:54 PM
9/22/19

Have been having a lot of fear and anxiety the past couple days, but I’ve been using it to my advantage and making it fuel meaningful action since pain and anxiety never go away anyways.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 23, 2019, 09:14:17 AM
9/23/19

Have been upset about some things again, just hoping I can figure something out with my situation moving forward.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 24, 2019, 09:11:22 AM
9/24/19

Had a rough day yesterday, but I got through it.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 26, 2019, 11:03:15 AM
9/25/19

Had a tiring day, was pretty exhausted after it.

9/26/19

Still feeling tired, but I think I’ll be ok.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 27, 2019, 11:37:19 AM
9/27/19

Didn’t feel so great yesterday, still did what I needed to though.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 28, 2019, 11:49:30 AM
9/28/19

Yesterday went differently than I expected, had to adjust to what happened.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 29, 2019, 11:39:08 AM
9/29/19

Felt lethargic and distracted yesterday, will likely need to change somethings so I can stay better focused on what is important to me.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on September 30, 2019, 09:13:12 AM
9/30/19

Yesterday went well, got a lot of work done and got some time to relax as well.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 02, 2019, 09:16:52 AM
10/1/19

Had a pretty good day, did what I needed to.

10/2/19

Some worries have come up again about a few different things, but I let them come and go.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 03, 2019, 09:15:22 AM
10/3/19

Yesterday I had a lot of uncomfortable feelings, but I let them come and go.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 04, 2019, 01:18:28 PM
10/4/19

Yesterday was tough, most likely going to have to make a lot of changes moving forward, again.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 05, 2019, 12:45:46 PM
10/5/19

Likely going to change a lot of things this weekend because what I was doing before wasn’t working out.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 06, 2019, 02:53:25 PM
10/6/19

Had a rough day, was confused about a lot of different things and will likely have to do some unpleasant things moving forward.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 07, 2019, 09:11:04 AM
10/7/19

Had a lot of different anxieties today about what will happen in the future.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 08, 2019, 09:18:42 AM
10/8/19

Was really worried about a lot of things still.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 09, 2019, 09:17:51 AM
10/9/19

Yesterday went ok, although I did have some feelings of boredom...
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 10, 2019, 10:06:24 AM
10/10/19

Will likely write down some things today so I can get all my thoughts down and in the open haha.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 11, 2019, 09:59:33 AM
10/11/19

A lot of uncomfortable feelings were with me yesterday, but I let them come and go.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 12, 2019, 10:50:50 AM
10/12/19

Going to try out some new things today and see how it goes.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 13, 2019, 11:15:26 AM
10/13/19

Yesterday went well even though a lot of uncomfortable feelings were present.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 14, 2019, 11:21:30 AM
10/14/19

Have been feeling pretty down the past little while, I’m hoping I can clear up some things and do better moving forward though.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 15, 2019, 09:12:12 AM
10/15/19

Will have to change some things up again today.
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Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 16, 2019, 09:17:24 AM
10/16/19

Felt pretty angry and upset yesterday over a few things.
Title: Re: My PMO-free journal
Post by: Brickinthewall5933 on October 17, 2019, 12:43:59 PM
10/17/19

Yesterday did not go well at all, felt really angry and upset about many different things.