Hey all,
Im a 26 year old male, perfectly healthy, have a good job that pays well, my own car and go to the gym regularly. My biggest problem? PIED.
I was VERY young when i started watching porn, i was looking at softcore porn around the age of 8 or 9 years old. I didnt get a computer at home until the 7th grade and thats when things got bad. I would watch and masturbate to porn daily. I never got into anything extreme, just the typical guy-girl stuff. I lost my virginity at 22 so im pretty sure my brain has been wired to porn and the sensastion of my own hand
Whenever I try to have sex with a girl I never last, during the initial oral im usually done and if I do make it to actualy intercourse im usually 60% and will finish after a couple pumps. Ive been on this program on-and-off for 2 years or so, but my 26th birthday just passed and im sick of living my life this way. Im afraid of a real relationship because I know once the moment for sex arrives I will disappoint. The last time i was with a woman (about a month ago) she was naked and grinding/teasing me and i felt fine, my buddy was ready, but as soon as she put the condom on and laid down for me to "do the deed" i finished without even entering her.
This times does feel different though, as I type this I am on day 24 of hardmode (No PMO). I will admit in these 24 days i have gotten weak 4 or 5 times and gone to certain twitter pages and read about porn scenes, but i never looked at any images or videos, and if any did show up I have quickly looked away or shut them down. I know this is wrong, but I dont consider it a full relapse because I dont actually look at any porn and im working on stopping it altogether, and its not worth a full reset, imo.
I do feel very good in these last 24 days, more energy, a more intense sexual desire, ive had 2 wet dreams so far, so im anticipating a lot more. When im in the shower and just washing myself, just my hand rubbing against my penis gives me 60% hard on. Ive been noticing morning wood, which I NEVER used to get, so that feels great. I was watching The Punisher on Netflix (great show BTW) and there was a sex scene, and idk what it was, but I was very aroused by it, in a way that mainstream sex scenes have never previously done before.
I know this is only day 24 but I really want to commit to this, thats partially why I started this journal, so I hope to update everyone once a day or at least twice a day. I plan on sticking to hardmode for the full 90 (unless in that time I can get a real girl) amd after 90 days ill actively start pursuing sex to see any results.
My advice to anyone reading this? Would you rather watch a hot girl having sex? Or do you want to be the one having sex with her? Thats been enough motivation for me in these last 24 days
Im a 26 year old male, perfectly healthy, have a good job that pays well, my own car and go to the gym regularly. My biggest problem? PIED.
I was VERY young when i started watching porn, i was looking at softcore porn around the age of 8 or 9 years old. I didnt get a computer at home until the 7th grade and thats when things got bad. I would watch and masturbate to porn daily. I never got into anything extreme, just the typical guy-girl stuff. I lost my virginity at 22 so im pretty sure my brain has been wired to porn and the sensastion of my own hand
Whenever I try to have sex with a girl I never last, during the initial oral im usually done and if I do make it to actualy intercourse im usually 60% and will finish after a couple pumps. Ive been on this program on-and-off for 2 years or so, but my 26th birthday just passed and im sick of living my life this way. Im afraid of a real relationship because I know once the moment for sex arrives I will disappoint. The last time i was with a woman (about a month ago) she was naked and grinding/teasing me and i felt fine, my buddy was ready, but as soon as she put the condom on and laid down for me to "do the deed" i finished without even entering her.
This times does feel different though, as I type this I am on day 24 of hardmode (No PMO). I will admit in these 24 days i have gotten weak 4 or 5 times and gone to certain twitter pages and read about porn scenes, but i never looked at any images or videos, and if any did show up I have quickly looked away or shut them down. I know this is wrong, but I dont consider it a full relapse because I dont actually look at any porn and im working on stopping it altogether, and its not worth a full reset, imo.
I do feel very good in these last 24 days, more energy, a more intense sexual desire, ive had 2 wet dreams so far, so im anticipating a lot more. When im in the shower and just washing myself, just my hand rubbing against my penis gives me 60% hard on. Ive been noticing morning wood, which I NEVER used to get, so that feels great. I was watching The Punisher on Netflix (great show BTW) and there was a sex scene, and idk what it was, but I was very aroused by it, in a way that mainstream sex scenes have never previously done before.
I know this is only day 24 but I really want to commit to this, thats partially why I started this journal, so I hope to update everyone once a day or at least twice a day. I plan on sticking to hardmode for the full 90 (unless in that time I can get a real girl) amd after 90 days ill actively start pursuing sex to see any results.
My advice to anyone reading this? Would you rather watch a hot girl having sex? Or do you want to be the one having sex with her? Thats been enough motivation for me in these last 24 days