Rick Need Your Support

* I am Rick Tan Chun Siong. 50 years old. See porn at age 8. Have been trying to quit ever since. I successfully quit for 3 months. And marry (another quit) 8 months later. But now after 7 years marriage. Have been going back into relapses.

* I think my main source of problem. Is I have a small 2 inch penis. When it gets more than 2 inches like morning erections. I have no problem quitting PMO. But when a few days small 2 inch penis. Very strong urges to go into PMO to feel bigger.

* I am at day 13 quitting PMO. Anyone has success increase penis size after rebooting. I go pharmacy. I was told there is no cure for small penis. I tried GNC Healthy Testosterone. They help me grow to 3 inch during first day. But go back 2 inch after day 20. Although my Wife does not mind the tiny asset. But the problem that it make me go into PMO. Going into PMO make Her feel ugly. Please help.

* Day 14. No PMO. Unerected penis size = 2 inches. Girth = 0.5 inch. No morning wood. Whole night never sleep. Been reading your brain overporn.com and reboot nation.org forum. Gabe Deem mentions in vlog that it takes 9 months to have sex. 14 months to be sensitive to touch to get erection. So roughly I have a timeline to cure my PIED. So this thread becomes my journal. I am determined to have a 5 inches penis cure. Even when everyone say no cure. Let see what happens in 9, 14 months time.

Men seem to focus on penis size. Women focus more on the relationship, such things as communication, stability, being a good father, and helping around the house. You can have a 2" penis and still be a fantastic lover. You have fingers, a tongue, your whole body is a sex organ. I think you need to focus on that and not on your penis. Quitting porn will make you a better lover in the long run. Porn gives unrealistic views and desires of sex. Porn is nothing like real sex should be. You are doing well, I hope you continue on the road you are on.

MosesY. Well said. I would not say it better myself. But as a Panda. I do not resign to fate. When my First Girlfriend is dying of HIV. And everyone believes there is no cure. I firmly believe there is a cure. So I now want to reward my Wife for her endurance of a small thing with a big thing. (*Note: I never believe in penis implant.)

* Day 15. No PM. Marriage sex O. Unerected length = 2 inches. Girth = 0.8 inch. Have marriage sex. Leave behind Wife yin fluids and my yang fluids on penis head to dry. According to GUAN YIN: absorption of female yin fluids. Penis will grow bigger.

Hi Rick, you can recieve the best advice in the world but nothing will happen unless you change inside. I do not have a big penis, and the same goes for a lot of men. by watching hetero porn you just allow yourself to go in to the state of penis envy. No drugs, no amount of self victimisation, shame, or what ever, will ever get you to be satisfied with your self. Porn, it is often quoted, from the science and from addicts breeds shame and perpetuates being a victim. I recently (end of december 2018) ended my 5th relapse. I feel it now, that this is it,but it is largely possible with communities like this one, 'Your Brain on Porn' and so on to give me the support.
How does your partner feel I am sure that your partner would not marry a man with a small penis if they thought that that is what is most important. You are more than this and your partner must see this. I recently watched a few videos on youtube by an ex-porn actress ((at the time) Redheadredemption)) and one of her videos  was about penis size. she has seen a lot of big cocks and I do not just mean mens genitalia. She made it very clear that it is what you do with it that counts, that size is not important. A lot of women feel the same with their bodies. If there is no heart connection then how she looks is not really important.
This size shaming is the same we as men judge women. I love fat women as well, but looking at porn messed with my mind.
All I can really say other than talk to your partner, as porn in any relationship is not a positive thing for the relationship. And look at it in the mirror every day for a couple of minutes untill you are happy. this will hurt and you may very well find reasons not to do this. Does it feel good to touch (gently,softly, with care and love). this is also what I would say to any woman who has vagina shame.
 

Thanks clown for feedback. I discover my PMO addiction is not really an external motivation of lusts. But an internal need to make my penis bigger. So I reason even just getting morning woods everyday. Should lessen my needs to PMO. I appeal to you guys. Please contribute your findings and recommendations to increase morning woods. Better still increase penis size. Whatever bits you notice. A particular foods/supplements/habits/routines/anythings/..... This will help Others like my case.

* Day 16 No PMO. Actually it gets easier in rebooting as days increase. Just don?t lose your streaks days. Normally if I lose my streaks days. I relapses and relapses.

Day 18. Doctors in YouTube may be right. Abstain from PMO do not make dick bigger. Doing PMO do not make dick bigger also. WorkInProgressUK. Thanks. You people are right. I should not be so particular about dick size. And move on. Now my aim is to cure my limp dick during marriage sex. I estimate I need x9 months x2 to be able to have normal sex entry. Wish me lucks guys.

Hi Rick, 18 days- good work! I agree with the other guys. Also you said in your second post that your wife doesn't mind the size of your asset. If she's OK with it then maybe you can relax a bit about it too. Keep going, keep strong!

Thanks Big Mog. Thanks guys. I now aim to push rebooting to x9 Months x2. To cure my limp dick PIED. You people are right. Should not care too much about dick size. Main thing is to cure PIED first.

Cstan: suggest try a tantric soft entry technique. Don't worry about your dick. Get into 'scissors' position with her. You can look this up online but be careful you don't get porn. Let her put it in her outer area while soft and lie still. Size does NOT matter with this. In fact the shorter the better so that you can both get really close. Spend time. Don't intend to get hard or deeper. Let your and her bodies do it in their own time. Lie there and focus on the feeling of intimacy. You'll be surprised what happens if you wait.

Thanks cranm329. Will try scissors position at next marriage intercourse session. By the way. What is tantric sex? Is it Zen sex with all senses. I stop researching since I start quitting PMO.

* Day 20 without PMO.

Well done going 20 days
Tantric sex is allowing the genitals to make contact with minimal movement. No intention to get or give stimulation by movement. The P. and V. act like the poles of a magnet drawing one another closer and complementing one another. Orgasm is a process rather than a few seconds of ejac. pleasure. Most people ( including me) don't/didn't know how to focus on a moment by moment sensation of giving and receiving sexual pleasure.This is not a complete description. Therefore good books and non-porn websites that give more info. All I can guarantee is that it works and is far more satisfying than 'regular'sex.

Dear Cranm329. Thanks. Will buy a good book on tantric sex. Can introduce me a good title? Because afraid of nude photo in tantric sex website.

* Day 21 No PMO.

3 weeks! Excellent.
I recommend Diana Richardson tantric sex books. Cheap to download on K...le.  She has titles for couples and men. My wife and I have found her writing really helpful and eye opening. There are sex position black and white diagrams in her books but neither of us found them arousing or considered them to be porn. These books have helped me to appreciate my wife's whole body in new ways,  transformed our sexual pleasure, helped to cancel my use of porn and dealt with unwanted remnants of same sex attraction in my past life. Hope that you find her books helpful. PS I have no connection with or financial interest in the author.

Thanks cranm329. I just bought all author 4 books on book depository. Thanks again. All along I want to learn about tantric sex. Thought it may cause me deeper to PMO. So dare not try. But since you are older role model who say they help. I will start practicing.

* Day 23 No PMO