Checcheddu1
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Hello guys, I?m a guy from Italy actually living in London from 4 years, I?m sorry if my English it?s mot going to be perfect,but I really need your help in my shitty situation. I?m always thinking about killing my self and put a stop to all this troubles before they?ll hurt me even more that what they did, I just wan it to share my thoughts and experiences with you. Since I was young, like 10, I used to masturbate every single day with porno. In the leaving room we had a tv, that was connect at the payed tv at the time. Switching between all the stations one day I found a stagione when I could see Giles touching them self and getting fucked from amateur porn actors. So, at the time let?s say that I was an average guy, not so ugly but not so amdse as well, this kind of guy that could take most of the girls just because his chatty chatty. The problem is that I couldn?t even talk to a girl until I was like 15: and was a girl that text me by mistake, from the other part of the country. We started to text every single, since we felt in ?love?. After get months I went to see her, I was 14, I couldn?t get hard in the first moments, but after few cuddling and I blowjob, I became super hard, and we could fuck. We spent like 1 years togheter, fucking like animals, it during all this time i used to wank off a lot with porn. We broke up because she was 4 years older, and she told
She wanted to get pregnant, was too much for me. Was the end of the summer, September if I?m right. After the broke up I spent the whole winter jerking off, like till March, since I met another girl. Every guys that I meet at the time wanted to fuck her, but she just wanted me. After few weeks of dating each other, I finally convinced to come to my place to fuck, I was like 15 or 16, but my couldn?t get hard. That girl still felt in love with me, and even if I was 15/16 and I couldn?t get am election, we spent like 6 months dating and trying to get me hard in bed with her. Nothing never happened with us. After we broke up, during the summer, I spent whole next year dreaming and like afraid to meet other girls, cause I was afraid to live the same situation. During all this time I was still jacking off every single day, even more the once day using youporn or pornhub, after we broke up I don?t know why, but I stopped to jerk me, I start to go to the gym 3 days a week, and I started to eat better. After the summer I meet a girl. At the time I was jerking me off like once a week, using porn. After a month dating I brought her home, and we fucked like anime, for a couples of hours. We stayed togheter for years. During all this time I was still giving me hand job, at least twice a week, if is not more.bur I never had any problems with her. Until one day, I found on one porne site, kind of manga, showing very sexy girls getting fucked from very big dicks. They were like 3Ds, or even just black and white. I think I spent like 10 hours at day for like 2 weeks enjoying them. Until one day, during my4 hours handjob, I started to feel pain, between my right testicles and my leg. I saw like a white liquid and after blood, and I lost my erection. The day after I tried to fuck my girl, but nothing was happening between my legs. I tried fed more times but nothing. So I went to my go, did all the exams about the disfuction erectiles, e wry thing was fine. After that I spent to many years withoute menagin to get hard with any single woman I. I trued even viagra
. First time worked, but now it?s not working anymore. Do you have any advice? I?m reallydesperate
She wanted to get pregnant, was too much for me. Was the end of the summer, September if I?m right. After the broke up I spent the whole winter jerking off, like till March, since I met another girl. Every guys that I meet at the time wanted to fuck her, but she just wanted me. After few weeks of dating each other, I finally convinced to come to my place to fuck, I was like 15 or 16, but my couldn?t get hard. That girl still felt in love with me, and even if I was 15/16 and I couldn?t get am election, we spent like 6 months dating and trying to get me hard in bed with her. Nothing never happened with us. After we broke up, during the summer, I spent whole next year dreaming and like afraid to meet other girls, cause I was afraid to live the same situation. During all this time I was still jacking off every single day, even more the once day using youporn or pornhub, after we broke up I don?t know why, but I stopped to jerk me, I start to go to the gym 3 days a week, and I started to eat better. After the summer I meet a girl. At the time I was jerking me off like once a week, using porn. After a month dating I brought her home, and we fucked like anime, for a couples of hours. We stayed togheter for years. During all this time I was still giving me hand job, at least twice a week, if is not more.bur I never had any problems with her. Until one day, I found on one porne site, kind of manga, showing very sexy girls getting fucked from very big dicks. They were like 3Ds, or even just black and white. I think I spent like 10 hours at day for like 2 weeks enjoying them. Until one day, during my4 hours handjob, I started to feel pain, between my right testicles and my leg. I saw like a white liquid and after blood, and I lost my erection. The day after I tried to fuck my girl, but nothing was happening between my legs. I tried fed more times but nothing. So I went to my go, did all the exams about the disfuction erectiles, e wry thing was fine. After that I spent to many years withoute menagin to get hard with any single woman I. I trued even viagra
. First time worked, but now it?s not working anymore. Do you have any advice? I?m reallydesperate