Hi all
Married British guy here in his late 30s. This is my third or fourth attempt at a reboot since joining this site.
You can see my journal on the 30s forum but today marks 100 days clean. That's clean of P, MO, chat rooms and subs. It's not been easy: I felt horrendously low the first few weeks, but I've gradually gained momentum and confidence. My libido is pretty strong right now but it's under control.
BEFORE: regularly lying to my wife, hiding things from her, mild PIED, having to juggle our sex life with my addiction, impact on my workload, friendships and self esteem.
SINCE: better relationship with my wife and children, better sex, clean conscience, more productive at work, less anxious, a kinder, more rounded person, a closer relationship with God.
Where next? Simple: just get to day 101. The only way to do this is one day at a time. I got through yesterday without porn, chat rooms and MO, therefore I can get through tomorrow. I couldn't have got to 100 days by setting myself a 100 day target.
It can be done: you don't need porn, you don't need chat rooms, and you can live a life without this addiction.
EDITS: relapsed after 170-odd days; got back on the wagon; posted at 100 days, 6 months, now 200 days.
Married British guy here in his late 30s. This is my third or fourth attempt at a reboot since joining this site.
You can see my journal on the 30s forum but today marks 100 days clean. That's clean of P, MO, chat rooms and subs. It's not been easy: I felt horrendously low the first few weeks, but I've gradually gained momentum and confidence. My libido is pretty strong right now but it's under control.
BEFORE: regularly lying to my wife, hiding things from her, mild PIED, having to juggle our sex life with my addiction, impact on my workload, friendships and self esteem.
SINCE: better relationship with my wife and children, better sex, clean conscience, more productive at work, less anxious, a kinder, more rounded person, a closer relationship with God.
Where next? Simple: just get to day 101. The only way to do this is one day at a time. I got through yesterday without porn, chat rooms and MO, therefore I can get through tomorrow. I couldn't have got to 100 days by setting myself a 100 day target.
It can be done: you don't need porn, you don't need chat rooms, and you can live a life without this addiction.
EDITS: relapsed after 170-odd days; got back on the wagon; posted at 100 days, 6 months, now 200 days.