campjac3
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I have been whacking it to internet porn since age 11 or 12, and it has become somewhat of a lifestyle for me. All through high school I would masturbate to porn seven days a week. I am now 20 and am just realizing how bad of a problem that I have. I have tried to quit many times before but for the most part, I get two weeks in and go back to porn. I met my current girlfriend three years ago and fell in love with her within six months. We have been able to date in college even though we go to universities that are on opposite ends of the nation, and we only see each other for about 4 months out of the year. I told her about my addiction last year, and I was making good progress towards recovering until we hit a rough patch and I relapsed. Since then I haven't told her that I am back to my old ways. We both were pretty hesitant to get physical and it took her until this past spring to start taking birth control. Once sex was an option for us, I was very excited to get it in, but I didn't realize how bad my addiction has shaped me. I have always gotten erections when we have made out but once the clothes came all the way off and it was time to get down to business, I lost my wood immediately. I rationalized the cause as it just being a nervous reaction but after several tries I hadn't had any success. Once I got comfortable with her and the fact that we could finally have sex, I was still having the same problem. A couple of google searches later and I found yourbrainonporn and this website. I have always thought of internet porn with a negative light, however I didn't think it would have these adverse of effects on me. Now that I have the knowledge that I do, I plan on quitting porn and not going back.