Another Day 1...I need to try something new

A short post to get the ball rolling again...just turned 34 a couple of weeks ago and I've been a porn addict since my teens. Finally acknowledged it about a year ago and since then have been trying get better. There are have been strong periods and then eventually relapses.

When I initially admitted to myself that I had a problem with porn, I had a partner that I opened up to about it. This accountability really helped, I found it very easy to not fall back into old habits and the urge was all-but-gone. I went from wanting to be better for myself to wanting to be better for her, and that was a much stronger motivation.

A few months ago we broke up. For the first few weeks I was still going strong, but then I gave in. Ever since then I've only managed to hold off for a week or two at most before falling back. Still trying to figure out what has really changed, why it has gotten so much more difficult to ignore the urges.

So am now trying to be open here. For some small measure of accountability I suppose. But more to get my thoughts out and soundboard what's going on internally here day-by-day.

That's all for now. Thanks for whoever is listening. I'll be back.

Welcome. We will listen to you! You can do it, like everyone else. It's not an unbreakable addiction!

Welcome!
This is the only cure for your problems, to be honest. By rewiring your brain youll get your life back for sure.
When you have relapsed in the past, were there any noticable triggers? Can you see any pattern there? Identify these triggers and it will help amazingly in your reboot

Welcome!

I have been in a similar situation. I started rebooting in 2013 and fared well for a while but I have been in a cycle of relapsing every week or so for about a year. Its hard but you can do it. Keep being aware of what triggers you or where you feel disconnected. I find that eventually gets tot he bottom of it. Most of all tho, dont beat yourself up!