great expectations: 37 and attempting to quit

today was my first day.I've decided as an entrepreneur who hasn't really done anything with his life, it's time for a change. I've been addicted since 12 years old. I know it's going to be a long journey.

Day 1
The withdrawals haven't been that bad, though I have noticed a couple of urges to go and look. I talked to my friend about setting up K9 on my computer cause last time I tried this and relapsed it was because I had the password. I guess for me that's step one. Removing the temptation to go to sites and altogether the ability. So far so good.

DAY 6

I've done a lot better than I would have expected. no relapsing. Some experience of restlessness coming from not knowing what to do. The cool thing is I seem motivated to do productive things most of the time. Learning about NLP, Driving uber and lyft to make money, or going  out to socialize. Things that when I PMO'd would either not happen or that before going out or coming back home I would choose to PMO. I attribute a less painful stint from withdrawal to replacing that behavior with more productive behaviors and also the use of Mantra chanting and binaural beats specifically made to curb addiction. If anyone has any great state management tools, please share.

I relate the the restlessness and how that translates to more productivity. When I'm PMOing it's very easy to just lay in bed and watch Youtube, scroll Twitter/Facebook/Instagram. When I'm restless and feeling pent up the only solution is to get up and try to accomplish something.

well day 12 I and I relapsed.No P but a bunch of MO. I guess it really is a strong physical/mental addiction for me. I locked myself out of my sites but managed to find some soft stuff to mo. I'm dissapointed in myself but just so bored and aimless in life right now. I have made a better habit of starting to exercise and losing weight again. but all I do with my life right now is work and stay at home alone. I have this whole mentality that it isn't worth it to do anything and that I don't want to spend any money. I also feel it isn't worth it to meet anyone or date because the people in vegas are a rough and uneducated uninteresting sort for me, I want to save money, and I plan on getting out of here soon. Another problem is my business is tanking. I'm not maintaining it cause I just want it to die so I can move on. Watching that process is painful. I still have obligations and promises to fulfill, but am at the point where the business itself is not making revenue. So what's the point. I guess the daily exercise and meditation is helping and driving lyft and uber just help me to escape being alone at the house and the futility of my current situation. Here we go again brothers, day 1.

Hi Pip!   Have a good day ad keep up tbe good work!

Rich

hi,
are you going hard mode? Im asking because you considered having a wank as being a relapse. tossing-off without any artificial stimulation doesnt necessarily mean a relapse. but again, that is if you arent in hardmode.

Masturbation without porn is questionable as a relapse. So i would not be too hard on yourself. So long as you dont go on a MO binge and be aware of urges and triggers after it, you should be ok. Of course if you are going hard mode its not a good idea. But its not the end by any means!

A good thing to take from any relapse is trying to see what triggers you or what behaviours or moments lead to a relpaes or desire to PMO.