Married to a woman but addicted to gay porn

My life is complicated to say the least!
Is there any guys out there in my situation?
I?ve been married for 20 years and we have 2 kids. I?m addicted to gay porn. I can?t even get an erection anymore when I?m with my wife. I can?t break this cycle. I need help. I don?t want out of my marriage. I want to stop my gay porn addiction.
I can?t take living like this anymore! Any advice? Anyone else going through this?

Hello, just joined the forum and I can say that while my tastes vary quite a bit on porn I do find myself go to gay porn as well. It?s often effeminate looking dudes. It?s terrible because now my wife thinks I am gay. I have children as well and she believes I have affected them in some way because of this.

I?ve also had some ED issues. However, I sometimes find myself looking at  random women and getting a erection if I feel like they would want me. But I find men unattractive in the real world and I actually a bit put off if I find a guy checking me out. So I am confused.