Ive been checking this site for a week now and it is the only thing that has given me hope! I'm 39 years old and in good health. Like many other stories, I started MO since I discovered it at the age of about 11. Years of looking at magazines, catalogues, cable channels etc. Then hardcore stuff in college and Internet porn for last 10 years on and off (mostly off).
Something very weird happened to me about a month ago. For 28 years my Johnson has worked faithfully either with my wife or by myself. I have either MO in my younger days in high school and in college sometimes twice a day everyday. I either MO or was with my SO every night for the last 15 years. But last month I was with my SO and she noticed my testicle looked a little weird after a session. A couple days prior my son had hit me in the nuts and I was still sore. Something made me freak out because I always think of the worst.
The next day I could not get an erection. I panicked and had severe anxiety ever since. I went to my primary doctor and he said I looked fine. I still could not get an erection so I scheduled another appt. I got my first prostate exam and he thought it could have been prostitis because of the sudden Ed. He put me on antibiotics and anti inflammatory. I still could not believe I was not able to get an erection. I work a very stressful job and I have been under stress before and I was always able to get erections. I called back and he referred me to a urologist. All this time I was going on porn sites and trying to beat my Johnson like it owed me money. Once it worked but it was very hard to do and very aggravating. I went to my urologist and he gave me a prostate exam ( 2 prostate exams in one week !!!!). He took blood work and scheduled me for an ultrasound on testicles. I received a call from nurse 2 days after blood work was done and she said dr. Said everything seems to be ok. My ultrasound confirmed a varicocele. Doc said it is no big deal because I fathered a child so I am fertile. He said I probably have had it and recent heavy weight lifting probably aggravated it ( I go back this wednesday to talk to doc about all my tests and recent Ed).
Since My problem has first happened about a month ago I have only MO about 5 times and the last time which was yesterday was very difficult to achieve an erection. Once I am there with an erection everything is fine but takes forever to get erection. I was with my wife a couple of times and was successful 2 days in a row, but the last time we rolled around(about 3 days ago) I lost my erection!! I haven't tried since because now it seems I developed what seems to be performance anxiety.
Here is why I am here and I have a lot of questions. The last time I MO was yesterday and I told my wife how difficult it was. She said to lay off of everything for a couple of weeks. I am going to do that. I hear from a lot of folks here that not MO and PMO helps with anxiety correct? I think I experienced a flat line 3 weeks ago because my Johnson was lifeless and it was schriveled up. Some days it is shriveled up but when i control my anxiety with breathing techniques it seems fine. Also after a good nights sleep it looks fine. Could this flat line be from years of looking at porn and porn related magazines etc? After I flatlined there were days that I achieved morning erections which I never really had before ,and I had a coupe sexy dreams which resulted in nighttime erections, but I went back trying to MO with either imagination or porn.
Sorry I am a little all over the place with this post. All I know is something weird happened with me and I went int a severe depression and had anxiety. For most part urologist said everything is ok and it is in my head. He told me that nobody would achieve an erection if their head was up an elephants ass and right now that is where my head is. I am very interested right now starting tonight to stop MO and PMO. I want to see where this goes. I think 28 years straight MO has finally taken a toll on my body.
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I will keep you guys posted on progress.
Something very weird happened to me about a month ago. For 28 years my Johnson has worked faithfully either with my wife or by myself. I have either MO in my younger days in high school and in college sometimes twice a day everyday. I either MO or was with my SO every night for the last 15 years. But last month I was with my SO and she noticed my testicle looked a little weird after a session. A couple days prior my son had hit me in the nuts and I was still sore. Something made me freak out because I always think of the worst.
The next day I could not get an erection. I panicked and had severe anxiety ever since. I went to my primary doctor and he said I looked fine. I still could not get an erection so I scheduled another appt. I got my first prostate exam and he thought it could have been prostitis because of the sudden Ed. He put me on antibiotics and anti inflammatory. I still could not believe I was not able to get an erection. I work a very stressful job and I have been under stress before and I was always able to get erections. I called back and he referred me to a urologist. All this time I was going on porn sites and trying to beat my Johnson like it owed me money. Once it worked but it was very hard to do and very aggravating. I went to my urologist and he gave me a prostate exam ( 2 prostate exams in one week !!!!). He took blood work and scheduled me for an ultrasound on testicles. I received a call from nurse 2 days after blood work was done and she said dr. Said everything seems to be ok. My ultrasound confirmed a varicocele. Doc said it is no big deal because I fathered a child so I am fertile. He said I probably have had it and recent heavy weight lifting probably aggravated it ( I go back this wednesday to talk to doc about all my tests and recent Ed).
Since My problem has first happened about a month ago I have only MO about 5 times and the last time which was yesterday was very difficult to achieve an erection. Once I am there with an erection everything is fine but takes forever to get erection. I was with my wife a couple of times and was successful 2 days in a row, but the last time we rolled around(about 3 days ago) I lost my erection!! I haven't tried since because now it seems I developed what seems to be performance anxiety.
Here is why I am here and I have a lot of questions. The last time I MO was yesterday and I told my wife how difficult it was. She said to lay off of everything for a couple of weeks. I am going to do that. I hear from a lot of folks here that not MO and PMO helps with anxiety correct? I think I experienced a flat line 3 weeks ago because my Johnson was lifeless and it was schriveled up. Some days it is shriveled up but when i control my anxiety with breathing techniques it seems fine. Also after a good nights sleep it looks fine. Could this flat line be from years of looking at porn and porn related magazines etc? After I flatlined there were days that I achieved morning erections which I never really had before ,and I had a coupe sexy dreams which resulted in nighttime erections, but I went back trying to MO with either imagination or porn.
Sorry I am a little all over the place with this post. All I know is something weird happened with me and I went int a severe depression and had anxiety. For most part urologist said everything is ok and it is in my head. He told me that nobody would achieve an erection if their head was up an elephants ass and right now that is where my head is. I am very interested right now starting tonight to stop MO and PMO. I want to see where this goes. I think 28 years straight MO has finally taken a toll on my body.
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I will keep you guys posted on progress.