15 yr , going to reboot

I am a 15 year school student. I usually top my class and I am a good guy but I have this addiction. I learn coding in my free time. My friends won't even believe me if I tell them that I am a porn and jerk addict. It all started when I would look at the hot pics of actresses in facebook. They were not porn , of course. Then I began searching for softcore porn in the YouTube. This went on for an year or two. At that time, I didn't even know that there is anything beyond kissing or hugging. One day I searched for hot videos and ended up on a hardcore porn website. I remember the time when a naked woman looked so weird to me for the first time. I closed that immediately. As I came across many such photos, I was eager and looked at hardcore porn maybe not before March this year. At that time, I would watch porn just about once in two weeks. I first MO ed this May. I cried that day. For a few months I didn't PMO. I was not an addict that time. I made P as my daily routine from September till now, but MO was once in two days or three days. Sometimes, I PMO an entire week. My maximum streak without P was  6 days. There has never been anything longer than 2 days than that. I wish to forget completely about P and MO. Thank you everyone.


When I first started PMO, I was triggered when my parents  leave me alone in house. As I became more addicted, my parents being busy in the kitchen or living room also triggered me and I would PMO in the bedroom.

Today is my day 1

Wow! I did my first day. I had lot of urges in the afternoon. But I managed them successfully 8) . can anyone suggest me what to do at the moment of urge or craving ? Good night.

Well this is going on really well. The urge was comparatively less than yesterday. 8) 8)

I would like to ask, why are you quitting mo as well as porn, as mo without porn when you need it isn't unhealthy. (unless you are addicted to it, but it's no way as addictive as pmo)

But it's your decision anyway.

As per my culture, each time we ejaculate, internal energy and all the precious nutrients in the body is lost. I even experienced it, my memory power and concentration decreased a lot. Yeah I got addicted to it. I am happy that since I registered on this site, I stopped it and haven't relapsed till now.

I am not sure I am addicted to MO or PMO. But most of the time I PMO as like this:
I see a hot girl-> I feel the urge to mo-> but mo doesn't make it awesome-> urge to pmo-> pmo

The last two days were bad. Day before yesterday, I had lot of urge and PMO'd. Yesterday, I felt  even more, and I was not even able to resist it. I watched P lot of times yesterday but at least I didn't PMO. Today I am strong till now. I won't give it up again.

I relapse a lot. But I am very much determined that this time I am going to do 7days.

I didn't come here a long time
Meanwhile I made some progress and also relapses.
Today I relapsed.  :-\

move on from it and keep going!! you are doing great so far

Hey bro!
Like yourself, I'm also a 15 Year old rebooter. It's good that you realized and caught yourself before it was too late. Keep up the good work! Don't get down on relapses. Try to keep yourself in a positive state of mind, and go outside and play some sports to get rid of the urges. Best wishes bro. Never look back
-Rec101

I had lot of relapsed and bringing. Today I am creating a new counter. Let's look forward. Today is day 0.

Wow, today is day 1. I thought of PMO ing. And then I gathered some will power and went to temple. Today went well.

at the beginning of today, I was strong but I gave up to PM . but somewhere in the way, I got a text from my friends to come out to play. Then I saved my life fluid.

I relapsed just now. I understand now that there is no point in doing this. Just waste of my health and time. While giving up to urges, I felt like this is so awesome etc.. etc.. But I have just fallen into a deep hole. I feel so shame of myself. Why did I give up? I first thought looking at some hot pics of actresses won't be wrong. Then hot videos of them then porn, then PMO :/

yeah hot pics of hot girls seems so harmless thing to do. i know if i do it i will relapse like you but still i have another problem. i just dont care about it until afterwards. i want to skip to 2+ years and be pmo free, this day by day progress is too much of a additional stress in life.

I have been relapsing for two days. I am now all in. I want this one to be my final attempt. I will log in daily and update here. Note to myself:
List of triggers
1.P subs
2.pics of actresses
3.hot pic in magazines (just a normal magazine)
4.hot girl on the road
5.my fantasy

I will avoid these things from now on. I think no.4 is the most difficult but I have to avoid it as it leads me to PMO

Hey mate

wow tough situation youre in at the moment. Like you ive been there where you constantly try and keep failing.

I have some advice...

It's great to have motivation, but be careful with the mindset of "this is the final attempt" because is you do relapse, you'll feel overwhelming failure and its very very hurtful you feel like giving up hope. I think a mindset more appropriate is that "i promise myself to do everything in my power to reboot. If I relapse, I will learn from it and come back stronger until I succeed.".

Secondly, are you doing a hardcore reboot? That is, quitting masturbation (MO) as well as porn and PMO. Masturbation during reboot can be beneficial to some as an outlet for sexual energy, but to many it can cause the chaser effect, which is the returning of massive urges to get "high" on P or PMO shortly after a sexual release. I get this a lot so that's why I am doing a hardcore reboot. It sounds harder but it's actually easier.

Thirdly you need to plan your reboot bro. Don't just dive in with only pure willpower to stop yourself from relapsing. C'mon, we're addicts. Willpower is very, very rarely enough. An important part of planning is eliminating, minimalizing and avoiding the risk of relapse, including viewing of triggers. Basically, get rid of triggers that you have, restrict your porn/trigger access, avoid or delete places that triggers could turn up. This is huge and helps so much with avoiding urges and fighting that temptation.

Most importantly, don't take relapsing as failure. Take it as mistakes that you can learn from. Think about what caused you to relapse, why, when, where ect. and take action against it.

Stay strong bro, don't ever give in,
-Sam

Sampson Munk said:

Hey mate

wow tough situation youre in at the moment. Like you ive been there where you constantly try and keep failing.

I have some advice...

It's great to have motivation, but be careful with the mindset of "this is the final attempt" because is you do relapse, you'll feel overwhelming failure and its very very hurtful you feel like giving up hope. I think a mindset more appropriate is that "i promise myself to do everything in my power to reboot. If I relapse, I will learn from it and come back stronger until I succeed.".

Secondly, are you doing a hardcore reboot? That is, quitting masturbation (MO) as well as porn and PMO. Masturbation during reboot can be beneficial to some as an outlet for sexual energy, but to many it can cause the chaser effect, which is the returning of massive urges to get "high" on P or PMO shortly after a sexual release. I get this a lot so that's why I am doing a hardcore reboot. It sounds harder but it's actually easier.

Thirdly you need to plan your reboot bro. Don't just dive in with only pure willpower to stop yourself from relapsing. C'mon, we're addicts. Willpower is very, very rarely enough. An important part of planning is eliminating, minimalizing and avoiding the risk of relapse, including viewing of triggers. Basically, get rid of triggers that you have, restrict your porn/trigger access, avoid or delete places that triggers could turn up. This is huge and helps so much with avoiding urges and fighting that temptation.

Most importantly, don't take relapsing as failure. Take it as mistakes that you can learn from. Think about what caused you to relapse, why, when, where ect. and take action against it.

Stay strong bro, don't ever give in,
-Sam

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Thank you so much bro. Your advice is really helpful. Today I log in here not to reset my counter , but to proudly count my day 1. I didn't have any hard time fighting urges today. Yes I am doing hardcore reboot. For two reasons, I have MO without P only once and it was my first of O.  I didn't have much good O that time. And so I never feel like urge to MO. But I do feel urge to have sex with someone. But it's a big taboo here to do that  this age. Next reason is my religion allows MO only  fantasizing about wife.I am not married and I am neither in any relationship. Every time I go for three or more days, I get a wet dream and the chaser effect . thanks a lot once again.

Hey man,

You're very welcome and congrats on day 1! As someone who has had binge relapses for weeks on end I know how much of a huge success that can be!

Religions like that can be a little tricky during adolescence because there is often a lot of guilt associated with sex and sexual fantasy. However, it's really great for me being religious (I'm Christian) as it gives me hope and I can pray and honestly it really helps me out a lot with the reboot. I strongly suggest you pray to your God or follow your religion in a way that it helps you outlet this sexual desire and give you hope and have your God fighting with you (that is if you have one).

That's totally alright for getting wet dreams cuz they are the bodies natural way of achieving sexual release (masturbation is natural too) but for us, as addicts closely linked to sexual release, our bodies often need to release a lot more and due to brain conditioning (look that up on the the video on the mainpage) we get more regular wet dreams sometimes about jacking to porn or in a porn scene, I get these and they are horrible. Nonetheless, it's our body fighting our choice to reboot and that means progress my friend so don't lose hope.

The chaser effect and a build up of urges and sexual energy is something every rebooter will face, it just matters how you deal with it and what you do to prevent it/lessen the urge. This is where REPLACING your addiction with a high energy, productive/constructive and enjoyable hobby is gold. Let me just put it this way: it's much easier to replace any habbit (good or bad) with another habit (good or bad). Most guys choose to do exercise here, as it uses a lot of energy, takes commitment, is productive and releasing an adrenaline high into the blood stream that will replace the high of dopamine with porn. Also, a hobby distracts you and keeps you busy and happy which is curcial in reboot. I don't exercise but I drum, which is a great physical and mental workout for me. An example of this is I set myself the challenge of completely disassembling my drum kit and servicing it and reassembling it at the start of a reboot. I went about 10 days without even the slightest trace of an urge cuz I was so busy and obsessed and happy.

Be aware tho, that on hardcore reboot, no matter what you do, urges will building up and you need to be ready and get past that, cuz when you do, rebooting becomes a hell of a lot easier and you break free from that abstaining-relapse-abstaining-relapse cycle. I make myself an escape plan of what to do when an overwhelming urge hits. Most of the time if a small one comes I will check that I'm not in a dangerous situation where I will relapse and then distract myself like go and hang with the family or occupy myself. If you can catch an urge early and say no it is so easy to fight. But when the big ones come, make yourself an escape plan that you have to follow WITHOUT question as soon as you get the urge. No just picking up the device first or openng the internet... as soon as you feel it go straight to that escape plan. The escape plan should be something that can use some of your energy and/or completely distract you. going out and socialising with friends or just with the family in the living room is superb.

Sorry for rattling on a bit haha but I hope this helps
-Sam