To everyone here,
It's frankly amazing to me that such a place exists. It's something I've been wanting for a long time but was never able to bring myself to find. It was a random "yourbrainonporn" youtube clip that popped up in my suggestions area that brought me to the web site, and from there to here. In the hyper-sexual environment of the internet, I'm glad there's a place dedicated to rebooting.
A little about myself:
I am a single 32 year old male American who has struggled with PMO since I was old enough to feel a sexual urge. I've had weeks where every day was spent with PMO, sometimes for a total of several hours.
I have suffered some instances of sexual-abuse, which probably per-dispositioned me for this mess.
I am a transitioning military man, going off of active duty and am now seeking a position with my state's national guard.
I am religious.
All these things above have given me a great deal of strength, but also shame. Each one has taught me a set of morals and beliefs that have never jived with my addiction, and it was not until several months ago that I was finally able to admit to myself that addiction was even a thing. I had bought into one of the myths of porn and believed that admitting an addiction to pornography was a way of avoiding responsibility, that this was just a lack of willpower and that I was just being lazy.
I've never made myself accountable to anyone else, especially during the many times I've attempted to put this mess behind me. Having found this site and others like it, recently, I think I may have the needed incentive and that extra "umph" I've always felt I needed.
So here is my journal and my tracker bar.
Today is day 1.
Wish me luck.
It's frankly amazing to me that such a place exists. It's something I've been wanting for a long time but was never able to bring myself to find. It was a random "yourbrainonporn" youtube clip that popped up in my suggestions area that brought me to the web site, and from there to here. In the hyper-sexual environment of the internet, I'm glad there's a place dedicated to rebooting.
A little about myself:
I am a single 32 year old male American who has struggled with PMO since I was old enough to feel a sexual urge. I've had weeks where every day was spent with PMO, sometimes for a total of several hours.
I have suffered some instances of sexual-abuse, which probably per-dispositioned me for this mess.
I am a transitioning military man, going off of active duty and am now seeking a position with my state's national guard.
I am religious.
All these things above have given me a great deal of strength, but also shame. Each one has taught me a set of morals and beliefs that have never jived with my addiction, and it was not until several months ago that I was finally able to admit to myself that addiction was even a thing. I had bought into one of the myths of porn and believed that admitting an addiction to pornography was a way of avoiding responsibility, that this was just a lack of willpower and that I was just being lazy.
I've never made myself accountable to anyone else, especially during the many times I've attempted to put this mess behind me. Having found this site and others like it, recently, I think I may have the needed incentive and that extra "umph" I've always felt I needed.
So here is my journal and my tracker bar.
Today is day 1.
Wish me luck.