Day 0. Caught using. Third time. Lucky I am not sleeping in my car. She asks to talk and I can't talk, don't know what to say. I am ashamed and feeling low and now can't sleep.
My work is on a computer. This will be hard. Hard to be on a computer, and hard when she sees me using it.
Read a few other intros. I see myself in them. Started masturbating to anything in the non-digital days. High speed internet just made it too easy. Online gaming merged with porn to lead me into chat rooms and webcams.
Today I hope to communicate with my wife more. And to seek out professional help. Going to talk to my doctor and also go through workplace employee assistance.
Also renovating my home with the wife. New floors. This renovation of my mind after 33 years seems like a bigger job than these backbreaking hardwood floors.
My work is on a computer. This will be hard. Hard to be on a computer, and hard when she sees me using it.
Read a few other intros. I see myself in them. Started masturbating to anything in the non-digital days. High speed internet just made it too easy. Online gaming merged with porn to lead me into chat rooms and webcams.
Today I hope to communicate with my wife more. And to seek out professional help. Going to talk to my doctor and also go through workplace employee assistance.
Also renovating my home with the wife. New floors. This renovation of my mind after 33 years seems like a bigger job than these backbreaking hardwood floors.