I'm 42, for ten years I did not know what I was doing to my body with porn. Fapping doing porn on a regular basis. Then I found yourbrainonporn.com and it hit me like a ton of bricks and I made a big change. I have been good for 10 months, relapsed 3 times in that ten months. I thought my PIED would be gone by now. I have wet dreams, wake up with an 75% hard ons in am. I go through phases of head aches/pain/ brain fog then im good for a while and it starts all over again. I definetly am having brain changes. But I'm nervous about my PIED. How long have other members took? Is this normal? 10 months and I thought this would be over by now. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
Need feedback from others on PIED
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Numez
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how many times you MOed in those 10 months?
Honestly, probably every other week. No porn tho. I go to the gym all the time and it gets you going my sex drive is up there. But no porn except those 3 times I relapsed. Does MO even without porn still hurt you that bad? Shit I'll explode, My balls are already screaming all the time.
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Numez
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high sex drive and exploding but having PIED (unable to get it up for sex?)? that is not high sex drive, that is not real libido, its just craving for porn and yes MO can be extremely bad for reboot. in my case, i must quit MO to recover. it just creates chaser effect and all kinds of other complications that are destroying my chances of recovery.
jerking off every other week can fuck you up and probably that is going on if you are still into full blown PIED after 10 months. at best it is doubling the healing time, in my opinion. im not saying you would already be recovered by now, but by now you should feel noticeably better about everything.
i dont know when your last relapse happened, relapses are bad too. 3 times in 10 months is pretty close to meeting legit reboot standards but couple that with MOing and i dont know...
good luck you are actually doing very good. far better than most of rebooters. very good job, just try few new tweaks. go sex only for once or twice per week at max until you feel better. Orgasming in itself can fuck you up if you overdo it. i dont know what it is in the brain, we somehow done too much edging and Oing to our brain it needs to stay away for a while even from that... or reduce it.
those phases may be because you keep jerking off. you go through phase, start to feel better, then you jerk off again and again go through phase and so on. i dont know, im just telling you from my personal experience of going 8 months CLEAN (only sex) and then starting to fuck with MO (yeah those sensation only type of things).
jerking off every other week can fuck you up and probably that is going on if you are still into full blown PIED after 10 months. at best it is doubling the healing time, in my opinion. im not saying you would already be recovered by now, but by now you should feel noticeably better about everything.
i dont know when your last relapse happened, relapses are bad too. 3 times in 10 months is pretty close to meeting legit reboot standards but couple that with MOing and i dont know...
good luck you are actually doing very good. far better than most of rebooters. very good job, just try few new tweaks. go sex only for once or twice per week at max until you feel better. Orgasming in itself can fuck you up if you overdo it. i dont know what it is in the brain, we somehow done too much edging and Oing to our brain it needs to stay away for a while even from that... or reduce it.
mousemat1
Well-Known Member
Hi Curt.
You say you relapsed 3 times in 10 months. In reality you haven't been clean for 10 months if that's the case. It could be that the old porn pathways in your brain were still strong and each time you relapsed you basically strengthened them even more. I'm not saying that's the case but it's a possibility. Some guys heal quicker than others. The first time I rebooted it took less than two months. I slipped back into porn use again and each reboot has taken longer.
I'm coming up to completing 5 months without PMO and I don't feel like I'm about to come out of my flatline anytime soon. This time I haven't even looked at pictures of women wearing clothes. I've avoided all artificial stimulation and it's taking a long time.
Just remember that any artificial stimulation, or even fantasising about porn, might possibly keep the old porn pathways open. My last failed attempt at rebooting I put down to the fact that I was reading erotic stories and checking out good looking women online.
I'm with Nikola regarding masturbation. I think masturbating during reboot can prolong the recovery time.
Good luck and be patient.
You say you relapsed 3 times in 10 months. In reality you haven't been clean for 10 months if that's the case. It could be that the old porn pathways in your brain were still strong and each time you relapsed you basically strengthened them even more. I'm not saying that's the case but it's a possibility. Some guys heal quicker than others. The first time I rebooted it took less than two months. I slipped back into porn use again and each reboot has taken longer.
I'm coming up to completing 5 months without PMO and I don't feel like I'm about to come out of my flatline anytime soon. This time I haven't even looked at pictures of women wearing clothes. I've avoided all artificial stimulation and it's taking a long time.
Just remember that any artificial stimulation, or even fantasising about porn, might possibly keep the old porn pathways open. My last failed attempt at rebooting I put down to the fact that I was reading erotic stories and checking out good looking women online.
I'm with Nikola regarding masturbation. I think masturbating during reboot can prolong the recovery time.
Good luck and be patient.
Thanks for the feedback. I might be kidding myself by thinking if I quit porn then that is enough. I feel like I am 75% rebooted but I am not getting over the hill. Which would support what you guys are saying about MO and such. I just have to go cold turkey its sounds like with no MO or anything. This is the craziest thing I have ever done in my life. Nobody seems to understand and it is good to have something like this forum.
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Totte
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I am struggling in my attempt and I agree no MO!
I feel that we need to reconnect to what RL gives.
The interaction between man and a woman (man/man or woman/woman) that feeling you get from a real person is wat you are after, rewiring to that, in your brain!
IMO It?s like a alcoholic just drink 10 half beers instead of 5 full beers!
Tom
I feel that we need to reconnect to what RL gives.
The interaction between man and a woman (man/man or woman/woman) that feeling you get from a real person is wat you are after, rewiring to that, in your brain!
IMO It?s like a alcoholic just drink 10 half beers instead of 5 full beers!
Tom
mousemat1
Well-Known Member
Well said Curt.
Ten months with only 3 relapses is actually pretty good going. So you shouldn't feel too disappointed. Perhaps a month or two of absolutely zero artificial stimulation or masturbation might just push you over the the top the hill, like you said.
I've masturbated once in the last 5 months and I really think it made my flatline worse.
Good luck!
Ten months with only 3 relapses is actually pretty good going. So you shouldn't feel too disappointed. Perhaps a month or two of absolutely zero artificial stimulation or masturbation might just push you over the the top the hill, like you said.
I've masturbated once in the last 5 months and I really think it made my flatline worse.
Good luck!