STOP THE JACKING!

Tonight, last night, the night before, and so on, i cannot stop myself around 1-2 o clock from jacking off. Let me start with the story, im 20 years old and i have a beautiful 19 year old girlfriend and we have a plentyful love life, however she climaxes very fast and as for myself i can take anywhere from 10 mins to 2 hours to climax with 1:30 of that jacking off while she watches, my issue started from a very young age of 8 when i just started jacking off and i know now that in that moment i was hooked. Since then i have masterbated 2-4 times a day and for 2 years now i climax 2 times every day unless i dont have sex then its just once, yes i have sex just about everyday then i go home and around 1 o clock i go for a second one with porn, and it all starts with a small adjustment to my genitals and everytime i try to tell myself not to but i end up touching myself and grapping my phone... I did masterbate today and i did have sex today, and everytime i finish with porn i feel so bad a dirty, and tell myself i will never do it again, well tonight that is true i am promising myself not to, but i need help, its like i cant fall asleep because porn is like apart of my sleep routine. The issues i am having include, taking a very long time to ejaculate (aka. Desensitization), irresistableness, and worstly im starting to see my girlfriend as less... Less attractive, less a-part of my life, and i dont want that, i want to stop but i just cannot get myself to stop, and it only gets worse...

Also i really want an accountability partner

Well, you're exactly where we've all been, and where many of us slip to occasionally. I remember that feeling well - the overpowering urges, the sneaking onto the internet late at night. It feels like you have no control at all - I used to have almost constant urges. But the important thing to remember is that you do have control. All of it. As others say, "you are not your brain".

One thing that helped me when I started my recovery was to simply remove all access to porn and the internet. Later on, it's become more important to learn how to control myself around the internet, but to start with, it can really help to remove the source altogether. Delete any porn you have saved and destroy any sexual dvd's/magazines. If you need the internet, consider a filter - a lot of people swear by K9, I've never used it personally. If you can live without the internet, consider unplugging for a period of time. Give the router to a friend (preferably your girlfriend if you've told her), or take it to work and leave it there. It's actually incredibly freeing to not have internet. See if you can install a filter on your phone as well. I even threw away my phone and replaced it with a land-line! It's a little extreme, but it's what I felt I had to do, and it has been hugely helpful to not travel around with a "portable porn device". Go as far as you need to with unplugging yourself, but don't be afraid to take extreme measures. Sometimes that's what it takes, and it doesn't have to be permanent.

I'm sure you've found a lot of other resources on this forum, but one of the most important things (and still a big struggle for me) is to develop a plan to put in place if you feel cravings. My (not always successful) plan is to shut of the computer and leave the house for a workout or bike ride. It could be anything. My struggle is making it an automatic response to cravings.

One thing that helps me a lot is to take the issue day by day. A lot of people on here set goals for themselves, I think that gets overwhelming and prefer to take things one day at a time. Just tell yourself: "today I will not look at porn or masturbate". Don't worry about tomorrow, just get through today, and remember that as intense as they feel, all cravings will pass.

I know how overwhelming it all is, but having started a short streak, I can tell you that the sense of empowerment that you will feel after going a day without looking at porn or touching yourself is amazing. Go for it, and be strong. Being addicted to porn is super lame, and we're all way too good for it.



     

Dude have you tried blocking the porn sites using different free tools in the net? Check this out http://www.artofmanliness.com/2014/10/09/how-to-quit-porn/
That's how I came across this forum

Anyway, I am starting to think that maybe you should gradually remove porn instead of removing it all through out. For example, if you watch porn 5x a day, make it once a day. After a month, switch to every other day. So on and so forth.

That's the same concept that I tried to lose some weight. Food just like porn can be very addictive...