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Berens

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Hi, i am Berens, i am 24 years old. I will write things that i hope will be helpful for you. If i make it about you guys and not only about myself maybe i will find more meaning in doing this. Anyway, day 0. Tomorrow i will present some ideas on how can i avoid relapsing. Thank you if you are reading this :)
 

Berens

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Day 1
Ok, so i am going to ask myself few questions:
Am i in a place where i could relapsee?
Am i focused and do i know what i have to do?
Do i feel bored or like craving distractions/entertainment?

The goal is to always place myself in circumstances in which i can answer those questions correctly.
Small tip: don't take your well-being for granted. All the additional effort is worth of taking even if you don't feel that at this moment.
 

Berens

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Day 2
Done some pushups in the morning, taken cold showers and being all the time in environment in which i can?t possibly relapse.
 

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Day 4
I have been so busy that i have forget about reboot(brain)nation. Yesterday and today i go to MeetUp events (google it if you don't know what it is) to meet new people and have some social life. Human interaction is a great way to liberate oneself from addiction. Our addiction is proportional to our isolation.
 

Berens

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Day 5
I feel lonely and kind of desperate for human interaction. I think it's a good thing. I'll try to contact some friends and give them some attention and interest :).
 

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Day 6
Yesterday we have got a bit closer with one woman that i know and i now can't stop thinking about her. I do recognise that this is my sexual frustration that makes me think so much about her. I will just treat it as another urge and try to focus on something else.
 

Berens

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Thank you Doc Washington. You're right.
Day 8
Today i was feeling more intense urges but i know how to deal with it, right?  8)
I am in a place where i can't possibly relapse.
I got things to do.
I feel optimistic about the future, all the effort i am putting today into the future is worth it!
 

Berens

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Day 8
I am thinking about Marnia's Robinson "Cupid's Poisoned Arrow" book, i have been reading it on and off for few last months and i about to finish it.
 

Berens

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Day 8
Today is a good day. It's a hard day from rebooting point of view but i will overcome this. In two days i go to sport event and in three days i go to public speaking event and on weekend i will meet with friends and being 10-11 days free will serve to make me feel more confident and comfortable. Everything is going well, i do progress in my life outside rebooting and that is what matters.
 

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Day 9
I feel tired but feeling tired is not an excuse to relax on rebooting. Also i feel bored but that won?t last forever. Abstaining from PMO and MO feels so good and is worthy the effort.
 

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Day 10
I feel strange, uncomfortable, sad. I feel like desiring a fantasy of being with a woman. And i think that craving to pornography come from that sexual fantasy. And the fantasy is not all about sex. It's about being loved and cared by a woman.
 

Berens

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Day 10
It's not easy. I should go to sleep earlier and eat healthier to have more energy and to feel better. That would definitely help with going through this day.
 

Berens

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Day 14
I feel bored but it is just my brain rebalancing. Life is more meaningful now and i don?t want to lose that.
 

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Day 15
Laziness and comfort are enemies. To reboot successfully i have to push myself into a discomfort even if it just running for 5 minutes and 30 second of cold shower.
 

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Day 15
Today is an incredibly hard day for me. I have taken a cold shower today but i feel bored. I am going to focus on doing what needs to be done And i am going to think about the future. Thinking about the past and thinking about things that i regret can make me feel pessimistic about the future and see no meaning in rebooting.
 
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