Hello fellow rebooters.
Brief Intro
I am 25 years from UK. I have been watching porn online since around 13/14. It's been a couple of years since i first realised that i am unable to get a full erection or stay erect without porn. As a result i have become anxious about my sexual performance and avoid situations which may lead to sex. Because of this i have not had sex in a few years. At one point my porn use was daily. Sometimes i masturbated to porn several times a day. Since early 2017 i have been able to reduce my PMO to once every couple of days (5 days max).
Negative Impacts
I believe my porn use as made my anxiety worse and depleted my social energy. I have even had moments where i have been depressed; feeling not good enough and obsolete.
Physically i feel weaker and i find sports a bit more difficult. After periods of porn use my muscles feel stiff and my knees feel a bit weird. My motivation has also fallen as a result of the above and my discipline feels non-existent. My concentration and memory have also become increasingly poor. My hair has also started thinning.
Porn my not be to blame for all of the above but it has at least made my life worse and impacted some of these. From reading and experience i believe it is all connected to excessive PMO in some way.
Goals
I WILL quit porn. I have to if i want to reach a new level and have a happier life. I want to be able to 'feel' again.
I want to make it to 90 days at least just to prove that i can do it for a long period of time.
I will build my muscles a bit more (just enough to be lean) and become fitter.
I will improve my concentration.
I will reach a point where i can maintain a full erection.
I will be more confident
I will grow my hair.
Up until today i had not PMO'd in 15 days. Today was suppose to be the 16th. I have PMO'd twice today. The shame when you do PMO can be overwhelming. I get proper energetic and start thinking of all the things i should be doing or am going to do. I basically overcompensate for what i see as me failing.
To calm down i force myself to sit still and just breath deeply. If i can't sit still i walk and breath. Sometimes it works other times it simmers but doesn't disappear.
I will be putting an app blocker on my apps again to help me not access any visual triggers (photos, vids etc).
Honestly, I've read some of the threads and success stories on here but didn't feel like i would be able to come on here and share such personal stuff myself. But I want my own success story so here i am.
Let the journey begin!
Brief Intro
I am 25 years from UK. I have been watching porn online since around 13/14. It's been a couple of years since i first realised that i am unable to get a full erection or stay erect without porn. As a result i have become anxious about my sexual performance and avoid situations which may lead to sex. Because of this i have not had sex in a few years. At one point my porn use was daily. Sometimes i masturbated to porn several times a day. Since early 2017 i have been able to reduce my PMO to once every couple of days (5 days max).
Negative Impacts
I believe my porn use as made my anxiety worse and depleted my social energy. I have even had moments where i have been depressed; feeling not good enough and obsolete.
Physically i feel weaker and i find sports a bit more difficult. After periods of porn use my muscles feel stiff and my knees feel a bit weird. My motivation has also fallen as a result of the above and my discipline feels non-existent. My concentration and memory have also become increasingly poor. My hair has also started thinning.
Porn my not be to blame for all of the above but it has at least made my life worse and impacted some of these. From reading and experience i believe it is all connected to excessive PMO in some way.
Goals
I WILL quit porn. I have to if i want to reach a new level and have a happier life. I want to be able to 'feel' again.
I want to make it to 90 days at least just to prove that i can do it for a long period of time.
I will build my muscles a bit more (just enough to be lean) and become fitter.
I will improve my concentration.
I will reach a point where i can maintain a full erection.
I will be more confident
I will grow my hair.
Up until today i had not PMO'd in 15 days. Today was suppose to be the 16th. I have PMO'd twice today. The shame when you do PMO can be overwhelming. I get proper energetic and start thinking of all the things i should be doing or am going to do. I basically overcompensate for what i see as me failing.
To calm down i force myself to sit still and just breath deeply. If i can't sit still i walk and breath. Sometimes it works other times it simmers but doesn't disappear.
I will be putting an app blocker on my apps again to help me not access any visual triggers (photos, vids etc).
Honestly, I've read some of the threads and success stories on here but didn't feel like i would be able to come on here and share such personal stuff myself. But I want my own success story so here i am.
Let the journey begin!