Hi everyone, it takes a lot of courage to join this community and share experiences, so everyone should be proud of themselves for that. It's encouraging to see a forum of support for this type of addiction. I will try to track my progress and share my experience so it may help others.
My turn around was inspired by therapy. I practiced mindfulness to examine my behaviors and found that daily P usage was consuming my lifestyle and damaging my mental and physical health. PMO was just "something I did every day" and one alarm was feeling emotionally empty and physically uncomfortable after PMO. The other factors - thinking about all the time PMO has taken from me, how it mutated my sexual interests, disrupted my own ability to interpret/share my emotions which caused relationships to fail. I felt and still feel disgusted with myself, but I know I am not that person anymore. Our mistakes do not define who we are.
Progress Status: 10+ year P user, almost 30 day hard mode checkpoint
Current physical struggles: terrible insomnia (exhausted), headaches, no appetite
Current mental strugglesdue to insomnia) severe depression, anxiety, self-doubt, self-loathing. I can't recall exact checkpoints along the way because of insomnia, so that is something for me to explore. From what I've read on the forum it seems that insomnia is a common experience along the way, which is helpful to know, especially when every other night is sleepless. I am not tempted to give in to PMO as a remedy for insomnia. I'm telling myself that this is a challenge on the road to recovery. This entry is the best I can do under the circumstances.
Any feedback is welcome. Believe in yourself and believe in therapy. We are not alone in this. thank you.
Some Strategies:
- no alcohol or recreational drugs
- no social media apps or dating apps
- no fast food
- no screen time after 9pm
+ meditate every morning and walk outside
+ eat healthy
+ make time for silence (unplug)
+ read for fun
+ read about acceptance and commitment therapy
+ talk and spend time with friends and family
+ THERAPY
My turn around was inspired by therapy. I practiced mindfulness to examine my behaviors and found that daily P usage was consuming my lifestyle and damaging my mental and physical health. PMO was just "something I did every day" and one alarm was feeling emotionally empty and physically uncomfortable after PMO. The other factors - thinking about all the time PMO has taken from me, how it mutated my sexual interests, disrupted my own ability to interpret/share my emotions which caused relationships to fail. I felt and still feel disgusted with myself, but I know I am not that person anymore. Our mistakes do not define who we are.
Progress Status: 10+ year P user, almost 30 day hard mode checkpoint
Current physical struggles: terrible insomnia (exhausted), headaches, no appetite
Current mental strugglesdue to insomnia) severe depression, anxiety, self-doubt, self-loathing. I can't recall exact checkpoints along the way because of insomnia, so that is something for me to explore. From what I've read on the forum it seems that insomnia is a common experience along the way, which is helpful to know, especially when every other night is sleepless. I am not tempted to give in to PMO as a remedy for insomnia. I'm telling myself that this is a challenge on the road to recovery. This entry is the best I can do under the circumstances.
Any feedback is welcome. Believe in yourself and believe in therapy. We are not alone in this. thank you.
Some Strategies:
- no alcohol or recreational drugs
- no social media apps or dating apps
- no fast food
- no screen time after 9pm
+ meditate every morning and walk outside
+ eat healthy
+ make time for silence (unplug)
+ read for fun
+ read about acceptance and commitment therapy
+ talk and spend time with friends and family
+ THERAPY