I've been in and out of this forum for two years, and haven't been here for a couple of months. In that time I started therapy with a PsyD who specializes in compulsive behavior and porn addiction. I want to reach real sobriety, not just abstinence, but I know that to be sober I have to reach abstinence. For me this is more than just rebooting with the goal of solving ED problems. I've had a problem with porn for over 50 years, and I just want it out of my life.
Right now I'm on a good, solid Day 7 of abstinence. My therapist has given me a lot of insight into my internal struggles and has specifically given me a couple of good, useful tools for immediately dealing with the urges that hit me every 3 to 4 days. I found a reply to my accountability request in my mailbox this morning, and hope that I will have a partner in this forum that I can communicate with regularly.
Finally, I've been talking with my wife about all of this. We have some difficult times ahead of us in dealing with the deception I've dealt her and the fears it has caused her, but she told me she is with me in this and that she wants to work with me in making our relationship what it should be.
That's about all I could ask for. Today I will monitor my emotional state at least 3 times during the day to see if I have any vulnerabilities, I will review my core values and how I have tried to live them, and I will take preemptive steps to reduce vulnerability to urges I may experience. This will help me to remain abstinent today and help to strengthen my sober state.
Right now I'm on a good, solid Day 7 of abstinence. My therapist has given me a lot of insight into my internal struggles and has specifically given me a couple of good, useful tools for immediately dealing with the urges that hit me every 3 to 4 days. I found a reply to my accountability request in my mailbox this morning, and hope that I will have a partner in this forum that I can communicate with regularly.
Finally, I've been talking with my wife about all of this. We have some difficult times ahead of us in dealing with the deception I've dealt her and the fears it has caused her, but she told me she is with me in this and that she wants to work with me in making our relationship what it should be.
That's about all I could ask for. Today I will monitor my emotional state at least 3 times during the day to see if I have any vulnerabilities, I will review my core values and how I have tried to live them, and I will take preemptive steps to reduce vulnerability to urges I may experience. This will help me to remain abstinent today and help to strengthen my sober state.