As a sex addict part of the addiction is shame, shame of your being found out for what your viewing but shame for also what you desire to do but feel ashamed to do with your love one, this is the situation I find myself in the difference with me is the things I viewed my wife is prepared to do them for me, but here is the ahhh my wife has been through a number of bad relationships were she was physically or sexually abused by the men she was with, out of respect for what she had been through I thought it wrong to ask her if we could do the things I had seen in films, I didn't want her to think I was just sexually taking advantage of her like the other men so I never pursued things with her, it's only now after her catching me acting out again and us talking that she feels that her sexual enjoyment has been stunted because of me not doing certain things with her, my misplaced respect if that can be misplaced has brought us to the verge of divorce, we before admit that we both should have been forthcoming with each other, my advice to anyone reading this be open and frank with each other, come to an agreement of what you both like and desire and be respectful of each others boundaries, don't end up like me Jo to a video clip wishing it was your wife doing it and she wants to do it.
Speaking to my wife I've truly realised the uselessness of porn, I never had an orgasm Jo to it I ejaculated but it was more like going for a piss or a dump, no joy just something you do as part of your day, that is the reality of what my porn addiction had become an automatic early morning response a soulless experience with nothing gained but lost time with my wife, I'm hoping my wife will continue to be with me through this journey but I'm reminded even though I've discovered my wife is happy to do for me sexually what I used to watch I HAVE TO BEAT THIS ADDICTION FOR ME, remind myself all the time I'm powerless and only my higher power can help me which means I have to submit truly to my higher power and trust in God 100%.
I'm AK I'm a porn addict, I'm 5 days into recovery taking it one day at a time,
Speaking to my wife I've truly realised the uselessness of porn, I never had an orgasm Jo to it I ejaculated but it was more like going for a piss or a dump, no joy just something you do as part of your day, that is the reality of what my porn addiction had become an automatic early morning response a soulless experience with nothing gained but lost time with my wife, I'm hoping my wife will continue to be with me through this journey but I'm reminded even though I've discovered my wife is happy to do for me sexually what I used to watch I HAVE TO BEAT THIS ADDICTION FOR ME, remind myself all the time I'm powerless and only my higher power can help me which means I have to submit truly to my higher power and trust in God 100%.
I'm AK I'm a porn addict, I'm 5 days into recovery taking it one day at a time,