4 days into my reboot

Hi I'm AK, let me tell you a bit about myself I've been a porn addict for well over 30 years, also using chat sights, last week Wednesday my wife found out I had been online again, I've betrayed her yet again despite promising to get help before, we're currently in an in house separation from each other, her discovery of my acting out again has forced me to go into a reboot but I'm glad I'm starting to get grasp on this demon called porn addiction, I have to do this for myself and leave the marriage to God, I'm four days into my reboot, thankfully no withdrawal symptoms as far as I can tell just a slight headache and weakness, currently I'm changing my diet, I've found in the past my overeating and obesity has gone hand in hand with the worst of my addiction and acting out, I'm on water and one protein shake a day. I'm hoping to start a new job Wednesday so I'm looking at a round cycle trip of 20 miles a day so I guess that will be my new fitness plan.

I've also reached out to my old sex addiction fellowship and will be rejoining them as of this week Sunday, so I'll be back to working my 12 step program and getting a sponsor, this time I'm not going to be arrogant and think I've done a year and half I'm OK, I realise this is a life long struggle, in these 5 days I've been free of porn or acting out I'm resolving to let God guide me in this no matter were it goes, but what ever happens I'm talking it one day at a time, feed back would be grateful received from the other members, I'm AK I'm a Porn addict, 5 days into recovery/reboot and its one day at a time.

Good to have you back. We will be rooting for you!

Peace

Hello AK. Just wanted to let you know that I read your post and will be cheering for you. I like what you said about changing your diet. I have been at this for three years now and I'm still looking for freedom from MO. I hope that your life is full of new and good things.

Thx for your encouragement, hoping the same for you as well I've been battling this demon for well over 8 years with varying degrees of success but always falling back in the trap, as well as changing your diet I would suggest finding a a good support group, having spoken to my wife I realise that one of my faults was that I didn't keep to my support ground and the people who were in it, in the majority of support groups it's mutual support that goes hand in hand with recovery, I was making progress with my support group but I got arrogant and thought I'm cured BIG MISTAKE, I'm currently attending 2 support groups as of the last few days and I have people already stepping forward to support me in my renewed battle.

I'm working my 12 steps with Sexaholics Anonymous but I also attend Sex Addicts Anonymous, I know people within SA and SAA who also go to AA and their not alcoholic but they get the same mutual assistance in beating addiction, I realise now fellowship is one of the greatest strengths in recovery, I have a religious faith but I have also realised God manifests his power through others to help in your personal recovery. With the fellowship there is no judgement just help for a better tomorrow for all of us, surrendering to a higher power how ever you understand it will help you in recovery, we tried to use our own strength and soon found out we were weaker then babies, I know I was.

There are some really good lectures on YouTube, https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLCoNWFgxjiSVbN68a97P_Y-5FCgXm0Eyo, there are some great lectures on recovery stories and advice on recovery, if they can do it WE CAN DO IT.

I'm glad to have you as a fellow traveler if I stumble help me and I'll do the same with you???

  Stick with your commitment, and be the man who made that commitment. Read other journals to see what's worked for others. Never give up.