firstofall22
Active Member
Hello rebooters out there,
my name is Bernie, some of you might know me, I was posting here like 4 moths ago when I first startet rebooting after 10 years of porn addiction. Well, as you probably can imagine, it didn't last very long, 40 days roughly until I got back to masturbating, and about 60 days until I got back to hardcore femdom and findom porn. I was very disappointed of myself but I also didn't really care about it. Since then I masturbated once a day, keeping my level, keeping my brain satisfacted. I stopped studying after 2 semesters because I couldn't concentrate on learning. Now I am looking for a workplace, and it's very hard to keep up motivation to apply for jobs. I am feeling like I am nearly dead, no motivation, no drive, no light, no colour...
Call it like you want, I think it's very depressing. I don't think that it's the situation of having no work what is keeping me sad and unmotivated, I really think it's porn.
Yesterday I've put the day counter on my phone to zero. Let's see what happens this time, I think that I'm more experienced now and maybe I can achieve my goal of a porn-free life. I am thinking of getting professional help since it's possible here in Austria to charge health insurance for psychological help.
Stay tuned, and keep up the wonderful work you do here.
Bernie aka firstofall
my name is Bernie, some of you might know me, I was posting here like 4 moths ago when I first startet rebooting after 10 years of porn addiction. Well, as you probably can imagine, it didn't last very long, 40 days roughly until I got back to masturbating, and about 60 days until I got back to hardcore femdom and findom porn. I was very disappointed of myself but I also didn't really care about it. Since then I masturbated once a day, keeping my level, keeping my brain satisfacted. I stopped studying after 2 semesters because I couldn't concentrate on learning. Now I am looking for a workplace, and it's very hard to keep up motivation to apply for jobs. I am feeling like I am nearly dead, no motivation, no drive, no light, no colour...
Call it like you want, I think it's very depressing. I don't think that it's the situation of having no work what is keeping me sad and unmotivated, I really think it's porn.
Yesterday I've put the day counter on my phone to zero. Let's see what happens this time, I think that I'm more experienced now and maybe I can achieve my goal of a porn-free life. I am thinking of getting professional help since it's possible here in Austria to charge health insurance for psychological help.
Stay tuned, and keep up the wonderful work you do here.
Bernie aka firstofall