Hi everybody!
I'm 45 years old man and I'm a porn addicted since I found speed internet. It's lasting about two decades.
I'm from Russia and there we don't have the same opportunity like that. I mean to get support from people who completely understands you. So, I'm here)
I have a family. And now I get married second time. My daughter is 20 now and my son is just five month old. My second wife is amazing and it's easy for me to talk with her about my main problem. She supports me but unfortunately, she has a sweet disposition and she can't say, for instance, Alex, why you are sitting with your laptop so long? What are you watching? So, I'd like to find more support to quit the porn. It's one more reason, why I'm here.
My biggest achievement was last year and I kept away from porn more then 80 days! It was awesome! Then I relapsed again. Since then I have never beaten my record and never stayed away more then 20 days. I can feel how porno is destroying me. I become aggressive with people who is vital for me. I fell shame, guilty and after every time edging I have strong depression for a couple of next days. And of course, I'm loosing an interest for real sex with my wife.
Today I decided start my 365 days without porn. I must do it and I've strong feeling that I can.
I must do it for my family and myself.
I'll continue my day book and tell you guys about my victories and defeats.
Thank you for reading me!
Good luck all and I wish you power, courage and will to get trough our problem.
Alex
I'm 45 years old man and I'm a porn addicted since I found speed internet. It's lasting about two decades.
I'm from Russia and there we don't have the same opportunity like that. I mean to get support from people who completely understands you. So, I'm here)
I have a family. And now I get married second time. My daughter is 20 now and my son is just five month old. My second wife is amazing and it's easy for me to talk with her about my main problem. She supports me but unfortunately, she has a sweet disposition and she can't say, for instance, Alex, why you are sitting with your laptop so long? What are you watching? So, I'd like to find more support to quit the porn. It's one more reason, why I'm here.
My biggest achievement was last year and I kept away from porn more then 80 days! It was awesome! Then I relapsed again. Since then I have never beaten my record and never stayed away more then 20 days. I can feel how porno is destroying me. I become aggressive with people who is vital for me. I fell shame, guilty and after every time edging I have strong depression for a couple of next days. And of course, I'm loosing an interest for real sex with my wife.
Today I decided start my 365 days without porn. I must do it and I've strong feeling that I can.
I must do it for my family and myself.
I'll continue my day book and tell you guys about my victories and defeats.
Thank you for reading me!
Good luck all and I wish you power, courage and will to get trough our problem.
Alex