Hi All,
I had a journal on here, but it's been awhile and maybe it's better to let sleeping dogs lie and all that.
But, I'll cut to the chase, I'm consume by porn. I can go for a day or two here and there clean and feel awesome, binge on porn and plummet in to hell on earth. It's the only way to describe it. It's like looking at your life collapsing around you and not giving a shit about yourself or anyone.
Everything is a problem until I view porn and for those couple of hours every night I feel complete.
I honestly thought I would grow out of this, or get fed up of it, but the novelty is just fn endless.
I'm an addict.
It's gotten so bad, thoughts of suicide enter my mind. Not that I'm constantly depressed but my moods swing very high and low. I think what have I done to my world.
This isn't a cry for help, I just wanted to vent.
I know by even writing this I have began a new reboot.
I had a journal on here, but it's been awhile and maybe it's better to let sleeping dogs lie and all that.
But, I'll cut to the chase, I'm consume by porn. I can go for a day or two here and there clean and feel awesome, binge on porn and plummet in to hell on earth. It's the only way to describe it. It's like looking at your life collapsing around you and not giving a shit about yourself or anyone.
Everything is a problem until I view porn and for those couple of hours every night I feel complete.
I honestly thought I would grow out of this, or get fed up of it, but the novelty is just fn endless.
I'm an addict.
It's gotten so bad, thoughts of suicide enter my mind. Not that I'm constantly depressed but my moods swing very high and low. I think what have I done to my world.
This isn't a cry for help, I just wanted to vent.
I know by even writing this I have began a new reboot.