Keep trying gunner! This is one potent, free, which makes it all the more potent, drug that?s extremely difficult to kick but I believe it can be done. I don?t judge anyone for how many times they?ve fallen off the wagon because I?ve probably fallen off more than anyone. Let?s see, 40 years times about 365 days a year is equal to around 15000. Probably more than that because there were some days where I?d vow to quit after a session and end up falling again just hours later. I guess I ended up just saying God?s gotta take this thing from me, I can?t do it. But when I learned about what was happening to my brain because of porn something changed in me and went for almost 3 years on the wagon. But once an addict I guess always an addict and somehow fell again. Anyways sorry to ramble on but just want to encourage you, keep going, keep trying, keep fighting. It?s an incredibly tough battle but and every victory counts for something.