staying away online virtual stimulation

hello guys

time : 2:27 am
date : 6/26/2015

im a 22 year old male. Ive been going through some serious porn and masturbation addiction in my life which began when i was a teenager im suffering from porn induced erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation.. couple of months ago i found yourbrainonporn.com and realized how serious my situation is... how it was affecting my everyday life it gave me a clear picture why certain things in my life wasn't good enough (social anxiety, lack of motivation etc ) and decided to do nofap i did nofap for one month and i hit my "flatline" phase, unfortunately i wasn't aware that it is natural and i got scared and i relapsed since then i relapse after every 7 or 8 days but this time im going for a total 365 days streak ( im desperate to change my life  :'(  ) so ive decided to go hardcore reboot this time just like the title of this post suggest im staying away from all kind of virtual stimulation let it be online ads or just random video from if there is anything close to sexual im not gonna watch it ive already deleted all movies from my computer and im not gonna watch anything for one whole year i know its going to be hard
i really need people who can support and guide me... with whom i can share my experience and what im going through
talking regarding my situation directly to a person is kind of embarrassing for me so i will post my updates everyday in this forum

so please don't hesitate to give your tips and comments

today is my day 1 wish me luck guys 

And good luck to everyone who is striving for a better tomorrow

god bless

Feel free to message me if you need any advice bud!  Good luck to you!  The FIRST step is to realize how serious this issue is affecting your life.  Too many people with this addiction feel that porn can't possibly be the reason, because well, everyone does it.... If you made it here and to yourbrainonporn.com then you're off to an excellent start!

Thanks friend it feels good when somebody gives you a push towards your goal 

so.. day 1 woohooo
it was a busy day so there wasn't much problem
plus its the first day so my spirit hit the roof but still sometimes when i stay idle i get flashbacks of videos which i have seen may be years ago and tat kind of distracts me for a second and i will get back to my work in a snap
i think my brain is trying to use its memory reserve to fulfill what its been missing recently lol
so today i realized that  the key to success is being busy and having a purpose which will keep you focused on more important things

and since im trying to observe everything during this reboot i realised that when i dont masturbate im a different person
because when i masturbate, the very next moment i will start feeling guilty.. and disgusted and i will start thinking that im a shameless person may be its the devil's trick to make you think like that
once we feel guilty some people might think i did it anyway and i have been doing this for years may be i dont deserve a better life i should keep doing this
this is a very dangerous thought it will bring two disasters to your life
  1) you will not repent and think about starting over
  2) you will keep doing the same mistake again and again and one day you might reach to a point where even if you want you won't  get a second chance to change your life

if you want change in your life don't start tomorrow start the next moment you made that decision. only person who can bring a change to your life is you. sometimes we put blame on our friends or some random pop up window which lead one website to another but deep inside we know that we had a choice but we took the wrong path. so lets fix it

i have noticed more changes today in me but i want to make sure its not a day 1 adrenaline rush and happy mood
so its constant i will post it in future

god bless

Hey mate,

Cheers on your decision to do the reboot, I had also just started this week because the very problem is affecting my relationship (and is not going very well), but is always good to see someone persevere thru. Let all work towards our goal and get our life back =)

Cheers,

RebootChemist

hey glad to hear from you mate
congrats on making it to your first week and good luck with your reboot
keep in touch and update your progress

god bless
newlife4me123

newlife4me123 said:

so today i realized that  the key to success is being busy and having a purpose which will keep you focused on more important things

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Brilliant, you get it man.  I try to convey this message to people that it is LARGER than just stopping porn.

You sound like you have an excellent MENTAL foundation to beat this!

Yeah but It took me a lot of time to figure it out and  without you guys it would have been impossible
So credit goes to reboot nation and ybop

So day 2

Bye bye 9gag.com
You guys know what 9gag is.. its the ultimate time killing fun machine
Ive been following 9gag since last 6 months and its awesome but unfortunately most of the time when i use it i end up with a nude pic or pictures with double meaning which is a trigger for me to look further into flithy stuff now im not blaming 9gag for my inappropirate thinking
Even if i log out and disable Nsfw (not safe for work) there will be still those double meaning pictures, cosplays of hot girls etc so since i have taken oath to avoid any virtual stimulation and triggers i uninstalled 9 gag from my phone
Today was another busy day ...me and my family is moving out to another home and there was a lot of packing today...usually i get tired in first couple of hours when i do heavy work but today i was on fire i think i was doing all these work from after noon till 12 am plus i was singing all the time which is very strange i dont sing unless im extremely in my comfort zone and if im alone.. but today not only i worked hard but i was enjoying it
My whole family noticed the sudden change in my attitude and they thanked me for doing all the heavy work 

Those who have started nofap recently please dont wait for the magical changes to happen after months or years if you observe carefully you will realize that the universe gives you positive signs the moment to decide to change for many people one of the main cause for ed is not just physical but phsycological so once your attitude towards life gets altered gradually your body will follow your mind

Tomorrow iam going to move all the stuff to our new home so hopefully tomorrow will be a busy day .. its crazy guys iam a hardcore gamer and a major couch potato
yeah i workout occassionally but in overall im a very lazy guy i could relate myself to garfield but now im not feeling any laziness at all

I also deactivated my facebook btw there are no triggers for me in fb but i decided to socialize with people direclty i took all my friend's mobile numbers and called most of them and iam gonna meet a few in couple of days i started another fb account just for getting updated with certain pages (mainly educational and spiritual ) with no friends added

Since i have boycotted almost every websites.. i downloaded many educational videos from youtube and many religious speeches debates and tutorials and i even downloaded some entire youtube channels (i used 4k downloader ) now i have an offline youtube library and i can even start an educational institution with it... lol so i wont be surfing much on internet

Today i went through this website and found an success story section...
May god help us to write our own very soon... dont get demotivated count your blessings and work for a better future
God bless

Day 3
today was one bloody busy day and pretty bad one actually
my neighbor's son passed away today morning.. he had a tumor in his brain and been brain dead for last couple of weeks and the saddest part is he is just 12. yesterday i felt how blessed we are and how we take everything good things god have given us for granted. this poor guy's digestive system stopped functioning since last month and they had to inject fluid through his body and had to remove it again through pipe after few hours. i felt really bad seeing tat poor guy and i have a sister at his age so you can understand how it feels
but on the bright side he is no longer in misery and he is defenetely in a better place now... i only came back home after he was taken to cemetery
and i called movers to load all the stuff and since iam late i joined them and those good guys asked me not to take trouble but i insisted. yesterday i came back home by 6:30 pm and i was super tired.

enough with my diary entry now we get to the reboot part
im on my vacation now and i only stay for two months a year (pretty sad huh ) at my home so i barely get time to meet new people and get along
yesterday night my sister's friends came over who is 3 years younger than me and and i have known them for past 5 years but never even said an hi to them not that i was shy or scared but i didn't felt i need to take initiative but. even after yesterday's exhausting work i talked to them and t felt good.. communicating with people is getting easier and easier everyday ..words come flawlessly and my humor scale have hit the roof ...im able to make people laugh more easily now more focused on conversation rather getting bothered whether im doing OK or am i screwing up the conversation and all so there is a tiny teeny progress in my overall confidence as well

so first 3 days have been really easy for me since i was super busy but today im  jobless and home alone (you know what that means ) im pretty sure that  my mind will do a little attempt to convince me that its ok to relapse but Ive got it covered iam planning to spend my whole day learning and when i get bored may be play some games
lets see whether i survive a day alone
wish me luck and good luck for you guys too

god bless

day 4
ive completed 1% of my target  just 99% to go

i have an experience to share with you guys

i spend my whole day in front of laptop studying and playing games and yes temptations did knock my door to watch something or to masturbate.. and more i tried to avoid that thought i got harder and harder so i found a wierd but effective solution
i know most of you can relate this to your life remember high school examination time ?? our mind will be filled with ideas to spend our vacation and free time time on various activities  but once your exam is over you will be clueless about what to do
its an human tendency to break the rules or disobey commands and look further
now that i have restricted my self from watching filth my brain is crying like a annoying kid i couldn't concentrate on my studies  so i did something today which actually worked
i just talked to myself  ;D and this is what i said ( i don't remember the exact words)
" ok so you wanna watch porn you wanna masturbate ?? go ahead you have the freedom you can watch all you want you can jerk off all day long.. cmon  go ahead lets see how you gonna feel after that " i know its kind of wierd talking to myself like that but it bloody worked  ......
i gave myself the permission to watch and masturbate.. no restrictions at all.. it didnt magically took away my temptation
but it spoiled the thrill which my brain craved from porn and masturbation as its no longer an forbidden act... its our brain which controls the functioning of our body so gradually my heart beat became normal i wasn't interested to open my browser at all and i peacefully went back to my studies
i have indulged into learning three different courses and hopefully it will keep me busy for next 6 months

so the lessons which i learned today is  :
1) no matter how confident you are about your self control never stay alone at home until you are fully recovered
2) our brain is an untamed wild cat...but with a Lil bit of training it can turn into an amazing pet
3) when you think temptation is kicking back don't panic just give your brain full permission to do what it wishes (do this when you are around people this will increase the chances of success ) once you've mastered it you will be fine doing it when you are alone
the idea behind this trick is to turn your temptation to be registered as just an activity rather than the only channel through which you can find pleasure
4)once your brain get used to controlling temptations replace all those energy into a new habit or improving your present hobbies
lets face it at some point of time you will meet your enemy (the temptation ) but once you are able to register it as something which you have a choice to do or not it will be way more easier for you to pursue this journey
5)and it feel so freakin good when you defeat your temptation 

this idea might work for you may be not but i think you should give it a try next time... but like i said before do it when you are around others still you get a hold on it (you dont even have to talk loud your inner voice is enough )

all the best guys and one more thing above all this wierd tricks i have an ultimate weapon which shileds me from looking into filth
Belief In God if you are not in touch with your creator the king of the kings the one who created everything and the one who have solution to every problems i think its a good time to getback and keep in touch after all without his help and guidance all this efforts are useless its just like us attempting an exam but the authority make us pass or fail remains with the univeristy
so pray hard.. get close to your god if you havent found your spiritual side spend your time to identify the purpose of your life and it will help a lot

god  bless

Day 5

Im defenetely seeing the progress everyday yes i had temptation today also but i used the same technique which i used yesterday and escaped and i felt very happy about it
My interaction with people is getting more firendly so thats something nice
Iam able to concentrate more and focus into one thing at a time now i really hope this stays with me
I have heard that after a few days of no fap people have trouble finding sleep i havent reached that phase yet
Over all im happy and one of the best thing which happened today i woke up in the middle of night to get some water and when i lied down again i got an erection which stayed for a long time and i had to remove my underwear to feel comfortable lol
So its really a good sign that im getting blood flow over there when im relaxed and its very phsycological more you ignore fapping and the thought that you are having a problem the healing works faster get these two thoughts out of your ming 1) i used to fap
2) i have an ed problem
Live like these 2 things never happened in ur life lets see if it works or not

God bless

day 6

same old story again..
feels better
better communication with people and more concentration power
yes temptations still knocks but is under control
today i havent met my target in studies so cant type more

god bless

Keep it up buddy! Almost a week! good job!

unfortunately i broke up with my girlfriend... but that ok... this journey is nver easy... nobody said it was easy... we are all in the same boat.. and there is no going back.

I found out the best way to stay away from P is to keep yourself busy.. So set yourself a goal list like what i do on my journal.

Join a gym, find a new hobby, go out and socialize... ton of ppl out there need you!

everyone is different... find the way to suits you the most..!! If you are going to relapse.. go for a cold shower (highly not suggested if is winter!) or go out and have a walk....

Good luck, will keep posting~

Cheers,

RebootChemist

Sorry to hear that man but lets hope its for a better future and yeah its not gonna be easy
Everyday im trying new alternatives to control the urge and create a distraction
You are right man when we are focused on something more meaningful time flies like crazy i cant believe its almost a week and i joined 3 courses and i finished one very quickly it was a crash course now i have two more one will end by october first week and  other one on december so that will keep me busy for this year by that time i will find a job and move on
Stay strong bro and keep posting good luck with your reboot

Btw i have heard that people get too much urges when they reach 7 days because of the hike in testosterone level how did you managed ??

Day 7
Things are getting difficult now
I cant focus now lots of erotic thoughts are running through my mind dont know how longni will stay like this
God bless

You got this man!!  Just get over this time, it goes away I promise.  Take FREEZING SHOWERS.  They work wonders, and make you feel amazing afterwards.

day 8 last night was hell for me... the temptations hit the roof and i found it very hard to sleep but today was absolutely fine no temptations have crossed me so im fine i havent reached the flat line phase yet and every time i go through an erotic thought iam having an semi erection i dont know whether its good or bad havent had noticeable morning woods till now

god bless

Day 9
Today was fine actually eventhough some thoughts came into my mind i was able to resist and get out of it quickly i cant believe im over one week already im logged in with my mobile so cant type a lot
Will keep updated if i find anything new

God bless

Guys i need a piece of wisdom from you people last night when i went to sleep i knid of felt a pain in my penis and it stayed for couple of minutes i was hydrated and normal.. anybody else have felt this ?? Does it have any connection with reboot ??

hell yeah day 10
guys i cant explain how happy im right now
im less lazy i concentrate more im having more vision than ever before im more focused on actual life goals than playing games and watching movies im looking up to many lectures concepts and other articles to find out te career and business opportunities im less scared about taking risk i was ive become more optimistic
im able to express my thoughts very easily and erotic thoughts are getting lesser and lesser everyday i hope i will reach my flatline this month
only drawback ive found so far is having a tough time to get sleep but im recovering from that too so everything is going well

a piece of advice for beginners first week is gonna be hell but if you gonna survive that then nothing can stop you

i have done nofap earlier and relapsed after one month when i got scared about my flatline (i wasnt aware that its normal) even during then i had trouble during first week then everything was easy so hold on and good luck

god bless