I am Lukas, 28 ,from Germany. I discovered nofap in March 2015.
I first discovered the positiv side effects of nofap during my time in therapy in August 2014 without knowing it. My therapists said, that fapping to porn wasnt an issue. That my problems are deeper.
Before that therapy I was rock bottom. I broke up my bachelor degree, haven?t left the house and fapped 3-4 times a day. I didn?t had any hobby?s, was in a new city and had social anxiety, depression and some kind of compulsive disorder.
After therapy and while there I started painting. Later on you I sold some of my paintings and had some exhibitions. From May 2015 to May 2016 I worked part times at ups, while working on my self and kept my painting profession alive. I didn?t had a driving license, an own apartment or much money at that time.
In June 2016 I started a new bachelor in commerce and trade. I will finish it this july.
But I want more. I have still a big lack of concentration und problems with brain fog. It?s hard to perform on the level I want to with these issues.
I am still fapping 1-3 times a week, but I want it to stop completely.
I recently moved to a new city, because I was promoted to be a store manager. I am doing a dual bachelor kind of thing.
I am afraid of intimcy,and i am not really able to have deeper connections to people. I still feel kind of numb, and often hopeless. I am afraid of the total reboot to be honest.
I hope the real reboot shows me who I am, despite being afraid of it. And I think it will give me the power for greater achievements.
I have also changed my habits from drinking, gaming, smoking weed and wasting my time to working out, going for a run, meditating and taking care for myself and working on a decent job.
By the way I got my driving license, have an own apartment, paying my bills and saving some money for the future.
I want to be able to have a romantic relationship, be less afraid of bigger goals and to the things I want to do.
I have fapped today, because I felt hopeless and afraid, because of the upcoming presentation for my bachelor degree.
BTW. I met a girl online and will visit her this week. She?s great and supportive and there is this tingling in my brain,that she?s too good for me.
I am thankful for standing up again, and joining this community.
I will write every Sunday in this journal, and a accountability buddy would be great .
Thanks for reading,and sorry for my English.
I first discovered the positiv side effects of nofap during my time in therapy in August 2014 without knowing it. My therapists said, that fapping to porn wasnt an issue. That my problems are deeper.
Before that therapy I was rock bottom. I broke up my bachelor degree, haven?t left the house and fapped 3-4 times a day. I didn?t had any hobby?s, was in a new city and had social anxiety, depression and some kind of compulsive disorder.
After therapy and while there I started painting. Later on you I sold some of my paintings and had some exhibitions. From May 2015 to May 2016 I worked part times at ups, while working on my self and kept my painting profession alive. I didn?t had a driving license, an own apartment or much money at that time.
In June 2016 I started a new bachelor in commerce and trade. I will finish it this july.
But I want more. I have still a big lack of concentration und problems with brain fog. It?s hard to perform on the level I want to with these issues.
I am still fapping 1-3 times a week, but I want it to stop completely.
I recently moved to a new city, because I was promoted to be a store manager. I am doing a dual bachelor kind of thing.
I am afraid of intimcy,and i am not really able to have deeper connections to people. I still feel kind of numb, and often hopeless. I am afraid of the total reboot to be honest.
I hope the real reboot shows me who I am, despite being afraid of it. And I think it will give me the power for greater achievements.
I have also changed my habits from drinking, gaming, smoking weed and wasting my time to working out, going for a run, meditating and taking care for myself and working on a decent job.
By the way I got my driving license, have an own apartment, paying my bills and saving some money for the future.
I want to be able to have a romantic relationship, be less afraid of bigger goals and to the things I want to do.
I have fapped today, because I felt hopeless and afraid, because of the upcoming presentation for my bachelor degree.
BTW. I met a girl online and will visit her this week. She?s great and supportive and there is this tingling in my brain,that she?s too good for me.
I am thankful for standing up again, and joining this community.
I will write every Sunday in this journal, and a accountability buddy would be great .
Thanks for reading,and sorry for my English.