Booter2015
Member
Hello,
Just thought I'd share a story of hope for all those starting out.
This is my second reboot but my first from the standpoint of understanding how porn wrecked my sex drive and ability.
Until my second reboot I had always used porn, the first time I experienced porn induced dysfunction I took myself off to the doctors explaining that as a fit, health conscious 36 year old I was surprised to find I'd lost interest in women and sex and that this had played itself out physically by the end of morning erections and that basic need to cum.
The doctor took blood to check my testosterone levels but the results came back confirming I was a fit healthy male with some of the lowest cholesterol levels for a man of my age. Whilst hearing this was a positive , the diagnosis I was given was depression. Depression isn't unfamiliar to me, as a bloke I've always been a little on the sensitive side and too much bad luck in one hit has caused me to spiral .
But, as easy as it was to accept the view of professional , I took a good look at myself and I rejected this finding outright. Everything was just fine in my life, money, job, nice car and good friends. I declined medication and went on my way.
I carried on in my usual habits watching porn and masturbating until essentially my body just shut down to all sexual stimulation. The flatline had arrived. Fortunately for me, once I hit the flatline I lost interest in porn, touching myself and women.
A few months passed, I met a nice girl who I wanted to have a relationship with but we only lasted three months because of my lack of sex drive and overall capability - this made me sink lower and lower. No hardons, low hanging testicles, no urges of any kind - it was awful. When she left I'd had a total of seven months with no sex drive and non existent capability. Another month passed and I noticed one morning that I'd got a hard on that woke me from my sleep, I also noticed that my testicles were no longer hanging low, about a week or so later my ex and I hooked up for a date (tickets to a gig we'd purchased in better days). After the gig we went back to mine and I put in the perfect sexual performance - I was back to my old self! It didn't change anything between us sadly, she'd already moved on from the time we had but it felt so good to be functioning again.
Now I didn't know at this point porn was the trigger and after a while of living normally and feeling great and having a good girlfriend I returned to old ways. I'd become so sexually charged sex with my girlfriend was no longer enough and I was back on the porn, on an average day I'd be making myself cum three to four times a day, most of the time porn was involved.
This relationship failed, due to other circumstances -porn and sex wasn't an issue. However as a single person again I carried on with the porn until once again, my body shut down - same as it did before, with the same signs.
That's when I researched what I was going through and found this place. I was horrified When I reslised I'd done this to myself, not once but now twice ! and I quit the porn immediately and haven't looked back. Because the intenseness of my flatlines I knew addiction to porn wasn't going to affect my recovery, depressingly two months into my reboot I met the most amazing woman, we got on brilliantly and we started a relationship - I covered up my lack of sex drive and ability by using Viagra to ensure I could give her some sort of pleasure, but my body fought back hard - it was saying to me, NO! The plug had been pulled for a reason and I had to accept the situation, the Viagra started to fail me as well.
About the time the Viagra was failing, I was given a gift - my girlfriend asked me what I thought about porn use, at this point I decided to be honest and tell her everything and she was just amazing , we agreed that I would continue to pleasure her sexually but that I wasn't allowed to cum or stimulate myself in anyway. The following weeks as I approached around about the same recovery time as the first dysfunction experience , my hardons have returned in fits and starts, the reason I have posted today of all days is because yesterday my testicles have drawn up to the normal place they should be hanging and I experienced sexual frustration for the first time in seven months, this morning we had sex and my hard on quality was very very good , enough to bring her to orgasm.
I feel amazing today, I don't think my reboot is complete and I think another month or so should do it, both periods of dysfunction have lasted 240 days (8 months).
Thank god I found this site, I'll never go back to porn - I value real world sex and relationships so much more.
For all you guys starting out rebooting today, know that things will get back to normal but listen to your body, once it's shutdown your sexual feeling, it's telling you loud and clear - I need healing time!
Good luck
Dan
Just thought I'd share a story of hope for all those starting out.
This is my second reboot but my first from the standpoint of understanding how porn wrecked my sex drive and ability.
Until my second reboot I had always used porn, the first time I experienced porn induced dysfunction I took myself off to the doctors explaining that as a fit, health conscious 36 year old I was surprised to find I'd lost interest in women and sex and that this had played itself out physically by the end of morning erections and that basic need to cum.
The doctor took blood to check my testosterone levels but the results came back confirming I was a fit healthy male with some of the lowest cholesterol levels for a man of my age. Whilst hearing this was a positive , the diagnosis I was given was depression. Depression isn't unfamiliar to me, as a bloke I've always been a little on the sensitive side and too much bad luck in one hit has caused me to spiral .
But, as easy as it was to accept the view of professional , I took a good look at myself and I rejected this finding outright. Everything was just fine in my life, money, job, nice car and good friends. I declined medication and went on my way.
I carried on in my usual habits watching porn and masturbating until essentially my body just shut down to all sexual stimulation. The flatline had arrived. Fortunately for me, once I hit the flatline I lost interest in porn, touching myself and women.
A few months passed, I met a nice girl who I wanted to have a relationship with but we only lasted three months because of my lack of sex drive and overall capability - this made me sink lower and lower. No hardons, low hanging testicles, no urges of any kind - it was awful. When she left I'd had a total of seven months with no sex drive and non existent capability. Another month passed and I noticed one morning that I'd got a hard on that woke me from my sleep, I also noticed that my testicles were no longer hanging low, about a week or so later my ex and I hooked up for a date (tickets to a gig we'd purchased in better days). After the gig we went back to mine and I put in the perfect sexual performance - I was back to my old self! It didn't change anything between us sadly, she'd already moved on from the time we had but it felt so good to be functioning again.
Now I didn't know at this point porn was the trigger and after a while of living normally and feeling great and having a good girlfriend I returned to old ways. I'd become so sexually charged sex with my girlfriend was no longer enough and I was back on the porn, on an average day I'd be making myself cum three to four times a day, most of the time porn was involved.
This relationship failed, due to other circumstances -porn and sex wasn't an issue. However as a single person again I carried on with the porn until once again, my body shut down - same as it did before, with the same signs.
That's when I researched what I was going through and found this place. I was horrified When I reslised I'd done this to myself, not once but now twice ! and I quit the porn immediately and haven't looked back. Because the intenseness of my flatlines I knew addiction to porn wasn't going to affect my recovery, depressingly two months into my reboot I met the most amazing woman, we got on brilliantly and we started a relationship - I covered up my lack of sex drive and ability by using Viagra to ensure I could give her some sort of pleasure, but my body fought back hard - it was saying to me, NO! The plug had been pulled for a reason and I had to accept the situation, the Viagra started to fail me as well.
About the time the Viagra was failing, I was given a gift - my girlfriend asked me what I thought about porn use, at this point I decided to be honest and tell her everything and she was just amazing , we agreed that I would continue to pleasure her sexually but that I wasn't allowed to cum or stimulate myself in anyway. The following weeks as I approached around about the same recovery time as the first dysfunction experience , my hardons have returned in fits and starts, the reason I have posted today of all days is because yesterday my testicles have drawn up to the normal place they should be hanging and I experienced sexual frustration for the first time in seven months, this morning we had sex and my hard on quality was very very good , enough to bring her to orgasm.
I feel amazing today, I don't think my reboot is complete and I think another month or so should do it, both periods of dysfunction have lasted 240 days (8 months).
Thank god I found this site, I'll never go back to porn - I value real world sex and relationships so much more.
For all you guys starting out rebooting today, know that things will get back to normal but listen to your body, once it's shutdown your sexual feeling, it's telling you loud and clear - I need healing time!
Good luck
Dan
! 
